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26 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 11th June 2009, 4:34 am

CHAPTER 26


The doorbell rang . . . once . . . twice . . . thrice . . .

Max hurriedly ran to open the door. "Wait a moment please," he said as he opened the door.

"Where's Jaejoong?" Yoora suddenly asked as soon as Max opened the door.

"What? Hyung? I think he's still in his room . . . sleeping," Max answered.

Yoora suddenly walked into the boys' apartment, straight into the living room. Max who was still confused, just closed the door and immediately followed her.

"Yoora . . ." U-Know, Xiah and Micky uttered after seeing her enter the room.

"Where's your friend?" Yoora asked coldly.

U-Know and Micky looked at each other.

"You mean Jaejoong? I think he is still in his room," U-Know answered.

"Jaejoong . . . you bastard . . . I know you can hear me . . . get out of your room now and face me," Yoora screamed.

Only seconds passed, a door suddenly opened. And Jaejoong slowly walked out of his room.

As soon as Yoora saw Jaejoong, she quickly walked up to him, and slapped him hard on the face.

The other DBSK boys were stunned with what they saw. They were all confused on what was going on. They couldn't understand why Yoora was very angry with Jaejoong.

Jaejoong just touched his face as if he felt nothing. Then he stared blankly at Yoora's eyes which were filled with anger.

Yoora saw that Jaejoong wasn't himself either. And somehow her anger suddenly disappeared. She suddenly felt pity for Jaejoong. She could see that he was hurting too. Slowly tears started to fall from her eyes.

"Why Jaejoong? Why? How could you hurt her like that?" Yoora asked with tears flowing from her eyes.

Jaejoong didn't know what to answer. He just lowered his head and tried to pretend that he wasn't affected, and that he didn't care.

Yoora couldn't take Jaejoong's silence. She was so angry with her hands. She wanted to hurt him. She wanted him to wake up and realize what he was doing was wrong. . . totally wrong.

"How could you have done such a thing Jaejoong? She is your best friend . . . for God's sake! She wasn't a flirt or a prostitute that after you sleep with . . . you can just leave the next morning . . ." Yoora shouted at Jaejoong.

Max, Xiah, U-Know and Micky couldn't believe what they were hearing. It was only then everything became clear to them. They suddenly understood why Yoora was very angry with Jaejoong.

"I . . .I'm sorry . . ." Jaejoong suddenly uttered as he stared at Yoora.

"Sorry? Sorry? I'm not the one you should say sorry to. Do you know how hurt she was Jaejoong? Do you know how hurt I was . . .when I saw her sitting on the floor . . . crying . . . still naked? God! Jaejoong . . . I'm a girl too. And if I was in her place, I couldn't even imagine that I would be able to accept what you did. She kept on repeating that you said you loved her. If you really do love her . . . then why did you leave her? You're the only man she gave herself to. Doesn't that mean anything to you? Are you really a monster Jaejoong?" Yoora said as tears continuously flowed out of her eyes.

Tears started to fall from Jaejoong's eyes. He couldn't stop himself from picturing Lena in such a pitiful condition just like Yoora said. It was breaking his heart just imagining Lena after he had left her.

"What happened between us was a mistake. It wasn't supposed to happen. I know I was wrong . . . and I am the one to be blamed . . ." Jaejoong weakly uttered.

"A mistake? How could you say such a thing? She gave herself to you because she love you . . . She gave herself to you eventhough she knew she wasn't supposed to . . . because she wanted to prove to you how much you meant to her. How dare you say it was a mistake! I can't believe you're the same Jaejoong that I grew up with. You have totally changed. I don't even know who you are anymore," Yoora said coldly as she tried to control herself from crying.

"I . . . I didn't know what to say to her after what happened between us. That's why I just left. Somehow I couldn't face her and tell her that what we shared was a mistake . . . Something that should be forgotten," Jaejoong uttered.

"You're a monster! I never imagined that behind your beautiful face lies a hideous monster. I can never forgive you Jaejoong. I'm sorry . . . but from now on . . . I'm cutting all ties with you. You're no longer my friend. You're no longer Lena's friend as well. . . Just stay away from us . . . especially Lena," Yoora said as she coldly stared at Jaejoong.

"I'm sorry Yoora . . ." Jaejoong uttered as a tear fell from his eye.

Yoora shook her head. "I'm sorry too Jaejoong. But what you have done is wrong. . . Tell me what's wrong? Why can't you just follow your heart? Is your stardom so important to you that you're willing to trade your love for it? What's holding you back Jaejoong? Just tell me . . . I want to understand you. I can see that you're hurting too. So why? Why are you denying your true feelings? why are you hurting Lena and yourself as well?"

"I . . . I don't think I am right for her. She lives in a different world . . . so different from mine," Jaejoong uttered.

Yoora looked at her friend. She could see the pain in his eyes. Somehow her heart ached. She didn't want to see either Lena or Jaejoong hurting.

Yoora slowly touched Jaejoong's face. "You and Lena have been my best friends for years now. And it is really breaking my heart seeing you guys hurting each other. Just forget about everything Jaejoong . . . set yourself free. Be true to yourself. If you let go of your chance . . . you may never have the chance to experience true happiness."

"Yoora . . ." Jaejoong uttered.

Yoora slowly turned and started to walk towards the door. Then she stopped . . .

"Lena is in the hospital now. I just thought you had a right to know," Yoora said before she finally left the boys' apartment.

Jaejoong felt very weak. He suddenly leaned against a wall. His tears were already flowing and his whole body was trembling.

"What have I done?" he suddenly uttered with grief.

Xiah and U-Know just looked at Jaejoong with pity in their eyes. Somehow they wanted to comfort their friend. But they didn't know how.

"If you didn't have any intention of being responsible for Lena . . . then you shouldn't have touched her in the first place. You said . . . you didn't want to cause any trouble . . . But look at what you've done . . . Lena's a very nice girl. She doesn't deserve the treatment you gave her. Frankly I am quite disappointed with you. I never imagined you could treat a girl in such an indecent way. And to think . . . she was your best friend. What a nice way to treat your best friend! Sleep with her . . . then leave her. Congratulations . . . you've just made it to the list of the most despicable men that I have met. I'm quite ashamed to say that you are my friend," Micky said angrily as he suddenly stormed out of the living room and into his room.

Jaejoong felt his whole world was closing in on him. He knew what he did was wrong. But he was confused and afraid. He didn't know how to handle everything that had happened between him and Lena.

"I'm sorry hyung . . . But I have to agree with Micky. Lena is a decent girl. You had no right to treat her in such a cruel way. I'm sorry. . . but the way I see it . . . You didn't make love to her . . . Somehow you just used her. You can't possibly sleep with a girl you love . . .then just leave her all alone the following day. I'm disappointed in you as well, hyung. I just hope you won't pay dearly . . .in the end," Max said as he also left the living room and entered his own room.

"Aaaaahhhhh . . . . " Jaejoong moaned. Then slowly he started to cry uncontrollably.

"Jaejoong . . ." Xiah and U-Know uttered with concern.

"I'm sorry Lena . . .Please forgive me . . . Please forgive me . . ." Jaejoong uttered over and over again as tears continuously flowed from his eyes.

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27 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 11th June 2009, 4:34 am

CHAPTER 27


Lena slowly opened her eyes. She felt very weak. And her mind was a little blurry.

As soon as she opened her eyes, she immediately saw Daichi smiling sweetly at her.

"Daichi . . ." she uttered.

Daichi smiled. "How are you? Are you dizzy?"

Lena tried to smile. "Where am I?" she asked as if confused.

"You're in the hospital," Daichi answered.

"Hospital? Why?" Lena asked again. She suddenly became more confused.

"You passed out this morning," Daichi replied.

"This morning?" Lena asked again. She tried very hard to remember everything that had happened. But somehow she couldn't remember anything.

Lena touched her forehead. Her head had suddenly started to ache.

"What's wrong?" Daichi asked worriedly.

"My head hurts . . ." she complained.

"I think you should rest . . . Just go back to sleep," Daichi uttered. Then he slowly kissed Lena on her forehead.

As soon as Daichi kissed her, memories started to flash in Lena's mind. Within seconds, she had already remembered everything that had happened between her and Jaejoong.

"Daichi . . ." Lena uttered softly as she suddenly touched Daichi's hand.

"What is it?" he asked with concern.

"I . . . I think we should talk," she slowly said.

Daichi immediately noticed the sudden change in Lena's eyes. And somehow it brought fear into his heart.

"You already remembered what happened to you . . . is that it? You're going to talk to me about what happened?" Daichi asked.

Lena stared at Daichi for a few minutes, then she just nodded.

"Daichi . . . I'm sorry . . . I . . . I . . . I already . . ." Lena couldn't find the right words to say what she wanted. She didn't want to hurt Daichi. But she knew no matter how gentle or how quick she told him, the effect would still be the same . . . Daichi was going to be hurt.

Daichi saw that Lena was having a hard time trying to tell him what he already knew.

Daichi smiled. "Sssshhh . . ." he said as he gently placed his finger on Lena's lips. "You don't have to say it. I already know."

Lena's eyes suddenly softened as she looked at him. Somehow her eyes were asking Daichi why she was still being so kind to her.

"You already know? How? And why are you still so kind to me? Aren't you going to get mad at me?" Lena asked. Somehow she couldn't stand Daichi's kindness anymore. She was already very ashamed of herself and what she had done.

"I have no right to be mad at you," Daichi answered.

"Daichi . . . I don't think I can go through with the engagement anymore . . . especially the . . .wedding," Lena softly said out loud.

Daichi tried to hide the pain he was feeling with a smile. "Why? I . . .I know he just left you after . . ." he suddenly stopped himself from talking. He didn't want to hurt her.

"He left me . . . after he slept with me . . ." Lena continued Daichi's sentence.

Daichi suddenly lowered his head. He immediately regretted opening the topic.

"Lena . . .I'm sorry. I didn't mean any harm in saying it. It's just that . . . I'm confused. Why are you backing out of the engagement now? I don't care about what happened between the two of you. So you don't have to worry about that. You don't have to back out now," Daichi said.

"I can't continue with the engagement and the wedding because . . . I think it's very unfair on your side. I have already slept with another man, Daichi. Doesn't that bother you?" she asked weakly.

Daichi smiled. "I don't care if you slept with Jaejoong. I love you . . . That is the only thing that matters to me."

Lena slowly shook her head. "Daichi. . . please. Give yourself some dignity. You can't continue acting like this. You're a very nice and wonderful man. You deserve someone better than me. Someone who can love you back in return."

"No! I will never let you go . . . If Jaejoong doesn't want to be responsible for you . . . then I will. I'll take care of you. I will love you with no conditions or limitations. Everything that Jaejoong can't give you . . . I will provide," Daichi uttered with so much emotion visible in his eyes.

Lena's heart was aching as she looked at Daichi. She pitied him, and how she wanted to just disappear. She was thinking that everyone's problems would vanish the moment she disappeared.

"Daichi . . . I want to be fair with you. . . I want to be honest with you. When I was making love with Jaejoong. It was only then I realized that I really love him with all my heart and soul. And he is the only man I can ever give myself to. And that is why . . . I don't want to get married with you anymore . . . I don't think I can ever fulfill my duties to you as your wife . . . physically . . . if ever we did end up marrying each other. And it will be so unfair to you, Daichi. So please . . . try to understand," Lena said as tears started to form in her eyes.

Daichi looked straight into Lena's eyes. Slowly tears started to fall from his eyes as well.

"Daichi . . ." Lena uttered as she saw Daichi's tears.

Daichi slowly took Lena's hand and kissed it. Lena's heart ached with Daichi's sweet gesture.

"Honestly I understand what you're saying. But my heart tells me that I shouldn't let you go, especially now . . .If Jaejoong doesn't want to love you . . . Please let me take his place. I promise I will never force you to sleep with me. If that is the only thing that is bothering you. I can wait . . . I will wait until the time comes that you can finally give yourself to me. My love for you isn't based on physical needs," Daichi said as the sadness in his eyes was slowly killing Lena deep inside.

"Daichi . . .you're a man. You have physical needs. There will surely come a time that you will need me . . . physically. And what if, by that time I still can't give myself to you? No matter how we look at it, it will be so unfair on your part. Daichi . . . please understand . . ." she slowly spoke. She felt her heart was so heavy and somehow she couldn't breathe.

Daichi shook his head in disapproval. "I will never force you to do something that you don't want to do. And no matter how you try to convince me . . . I'm sorry but I can never let you go. Like what I said before, I can only give you to the man that you love. So if he doesn't want you, then I will take you for myself. I will never let you go . . ."

"Daichi . . ." she uttered.

Daichi smiled, then he slowly caressed Lena's face. "You're very beautiful Lena. And any man will easily fall in love with you."

"Any man? Then why can't he fall in love with me? Why did he just leave me?" she uttered as a tear suddenly fell from her eye.

"Maybe . . . he has his reasons . . ." he answered.

"Daichi . . . just find someone else please," she begged.

Daichi shook his head again and smiled. "I will only give you up . . . if another man comes . . . and I am totally sure that he will take good care of you and he will make you happy."

Lena stared at him. "Are you really sure? You still want to continue with this? I know you're already hurting. If we still continue . . . then you'll end up being more hurt. I may not love you the same way that you love me . . . But I still care for you. And I don't want to see you hurt yourself because of me."

"Don't worry about me. I can handle everything," Daichi said as he tried to put on a smile.

"Daichi . . ." she slowly uttered. She felt pity for him. And she hated herself for hurting him.

Slowly Lena started to cry. She hated herself for so many reasons. But she hated herself the most because she knew that she had brought confusion in Jaejoong's life and pain Daichi's life as well.

"Lena . . ." Daichi uttered with concern. He then slowly embraced her . . . to comfort her . . . to make her feel his love for her.

"I'm sorry Daichi. I shouldn't have entered your life. You would have been much better off if you never met me," Lena uttered as tears fell from her eyes.

Daichi kissed Lena's forehead. "Don't say such things. I am very thankful that you entered my life. Because without you, I may never have learned how to love without any conditions . . . how to be unselfish. Before I met you, I was total jerk with girls. I played around with so many women that I can't even keep track of how many girlfriends I already had. That is how bad I was, before I met you. But you changed me . . . and I am very thankful for that."

"Daichi, I am tired. I'm so very tired of everything. Why can't I love freely? And why is it the man that I love doesn't want to love me back? Why is everything so complicated? I am already tired . . . I just want to give up," she weakly uttered.

"Everything will be all right, Lena. I'll always be your side to help you. So don't worry. I'll take care of you," Daichi said as he slowly tightened his embrace.

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28 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 11th June 2009, 4:35 am

CHAPTER 28


A knock suddenly caught Daichi's attention. He hurriedly opened the door of Lena's room, and was quite surprised to see who was waiting outside.

"Micky . . .what are you doing here?" Daichi asked coldly.

"To visit Lena, of course. Why? Am I forbidden to see her?" Micky answered.

"You shouldn't have come. If she sees you, she will only remember Jaejoong," Daichi uttered.

"Jaejoong? That friend of mine is still in the apartment . . .weeping like a baby. And please let's just get one thing straight. Jaejoong is Jaejoong . . . and I am me. We're two different persons. So don't go around comparing him to me," Micky said.

Daichi couldn't help but laugh. Somehow he liked Micky's character. He was very frank with dealing with things.

Daichi looked back at Lena who was still sleeping on her bed. Then he turned to face Micky again.

Micky was holding a bouquet of beautiful red roses.

"Lena was just put to sleep. You may come in anyway . . . and wait until she wakes up," Daichi said.

Micky nodded and slowly entered Lena's hospital room. He immediately walked up to the side of her bed, and gently placed the flowers he had brought on a table. He then looked at Lena. She was very pale, but still very beautiful. Somehow he couldn't understand how a man . . .especially Jaejoong could possibly have the heart to hurt such a sweet angel.

Daichi carefully looked at Micky. Somehow he didn't like the way Micky was staring at Lena.

"Are you going to wait until she wakes up? It may take a few hours before she wakes up," Daichi said.

Micky stared at Daichi. Then he sat down on an empty chair near the bed.

"If it's all right with you. I would really like to wait," Micky answered.

Daichi wanted to ask Micky something, but somehow he couldn't find the courage to do so.

"Are you really free today? Don't you have an appointment to go to?" Daichi asked Micky.

Micky smiled. "I have nothing to do today. No scheduled interviews, no tv guestings or whatsoever."

Daichi's face suddenly became serious. "Why are you here?"

"What do you mean by that? I'm here to visit Lena. Is that a crime?" Micky asked with sarcasm.

"Let's be honest . . . man to man . . . Are you starting to like Lena? I can see that you treat her with a very special kind of attention," Daichi said.

Micky lightly laughed. "You're really straight to the point, aren't you?"

"Yes . . . and I really would appreciate it, if you would also be the same," Daichi replied.

Micky suddenly stared at Lena. "Honestly, I really do like her. The very first time I saw her, I had already liked her."

Daichi was already expecting that kind of answer from Micky. He was a man and he could easily tell Micky's intentions by his actions.

"Don't you think that you're adding more confusion into Lena's life by liking her?" Daichi asked.

"Confusion? How? It's not as if I'm forcing her to like me back or to marry me . . ." Micky said with a hidden meaning.

"Jaejoong is your friend, isn't he? So why are you liking a girl who is involved with your friend? Don't you think that is way out of line?" Daichi asked.

"Yes, Jaejoong is my friend. But out friendship has nothing to do with Lena. I like her. . . and that is that. Jaejoong isn't even trying to fight for her. He's just letting you have her without any fight at all. He's a coward . . . a big coward in my opinion," Micky said.

"So what are you saying? Are you going to fight with me over Lena?" Daichi asked with a raised eyebrow.

Micky laughed again. "Do I actually look like the type of guy who would fight with another man just for a girl?"

"Yes," Daichi replied.

Micky laughed again."You're right. I'm not the type of guy who would let the girl I like just pass me by."

"So are you planning to court Lena? Is that your intention?" Daichi asked directly.

Micky stared at Lena. "Frankly if she was another girl, I would have already started courting her the moment I met her. But . . . because of Jaejoong, I just tried to set aside my feelings for her . . . and just pretend that I don't feel a thing for her. But . . ." Micky suddenly stopped talking.

"But what?" Daichi asked curiously.

"But . . . after I learned about what happened between her and Jaejoong, it suddenly made me realize that maybe I was wrong to just give up because of Jaejoong," Micky answered.

"Are you sure what you're feeling is love and not just pity? I really suggest that you just forget about courting Lena. Please don't make her life more complicated," Daichi said calmly.

Micky stared at Daichi with a raised eyebrow. "Don't you think you're being biased?"

"Biased? Who? Me? What do you mean?" Daichi asked as if confused.

"I can clearly see that you're practically making Lena and Jaejoong fall into each other's arms. But when it comes to me, you're already stopping me . . . when I haven't even started yet. Don't you think that is too unfair? You're giving Jaejoong a chance . . . but not me," Micky said frankly.

"That's because Lena likes Jaejoong. She has loved him for years. And he's the only reason why she's happy. That is the reason why I'm giving him a chance," Daichi answered.

"Are you really a man? So what if Lena likes Jaejoong? You're really just going to stand on one side and let another man destroy her? And about what you said . . . Jaejoong is the only reason why she's happy? Well . . . tell me honestly . . . is she happy now? Frankly I don't see the point in all of this. She likes Jaejoong, but ends up being dumped. You like her, but ends up feeling hurt over and over again. Jaejoong likes her, but ends up hurting her. Don't you think your love affair is too twisted and complicated?" Micky asked.

Daichi sighed. "You're right. But there's nothing I can do. You can't dictate another person's heart on what to do or whom to love."

"You can't dictate . . . but you can certainly control or try to manipulate," Micky uttered.

"What do you mean?" Daichi asked.

"Just like the way you are trying to set up Lena and Jaejoong. You're trying to make them fall in love with each other right?" Micky said with a smile.

Daichi sighed again. "Yes, but that didn't work. Lena just ended up being hurt."

Micky stared at Lena again. "Frankly I don't understand why Jaejoong is holding out on his feelings for Lena. It's very obvious that he loves her. But somehow there's something that holding him back. By any chance, do you know why he's like that? He's always been straight to the point when dealing with things. Sometimes there are some people who mistakenly assume that he's rude because of his frankness. But now . . . he's like a different person. He's hiding his true feelings for no apparent reason at all," Micky said.

"So you're just concerned about your friend? And I actually thought that you were going to enter our love triangle . . ." Daichi said with relief.

"Who said I wasn't going to enter your love problem?" Micky asked with a grin.

The smile on Daichi's lips suddenly disappeared. "So you're really determined to enter Lena's life now?" he asked nervously.

Micky smiled. "Yes, but not the way that you're thinking."

"What do you mean?" Daichi asked.

"Well I can see that all your efforts to put Lena and Jaejoong into each other's arms is still not enough. So I was thinking . . . maybe I can be of help. Since one man can't seem to push Jaejoong into Lena's direction . . . Then maybe two men will be able to do the trick,” Micky said.

Daichi stared at Micky. He was trying to figure out if what Micky was saying was true.

“I thought you said you liked Lena. So why are you going to help Jaejoong be with Lena?” Daichi asked curiously.

“Almost the same reason why you're also helping Lena and Jaejoong . . . I like Lena so I want her to be happy. And second is Jaejoong is like a brother to me . . . and I would do anything to make him happy as well,” Micky answered with a serious express on his face.

Daichi smiled. “So you're going to sacrifice for your friend?”

Micky nodded. “ I know Jaejoong is hurting because of her . . . and she's hurting because of him. I don't think I have the heart to see them that way.”

“You're a good man. Micky,” Daichi uttered with a smile on his lips.

“You're a good man as well Daichi, “ Micky said with a smile as well.

“So what do you plan to do now?” Daichi asked.

Micky suddenly grinned. “Let's make Jaejoong jealous to the point that he won't be able to take it anymore.”

“And how do you propose we do that?” Daichi asked.

“Just leave it all to me . . .” Micky uttered.

“We don't have much time Micky. My mother won't postpone the engagement. So it's still going as planned. What can you possibly do in such a short time?” Daichi asked worriedly.

“Don't worry . . . I've already thought of a perfect plan . . . Just leave it all up to me,” Micky answered.

Daichi stared at Lena. She was still asleep. “You still have a chance to be happy Lena. Now . . . there are two of us who will be helping you. We both want you to be happy. So we'll certainly do everything to get Jaejoong into your arms.”

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29 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 11th June 2009, 4:35 am

CHAPTER 29



Micky sighed as he slowly closed the door of Lena's room. He didn't get the chance to talk with
her, because she was still sleeping when he left. The hospital's visiting hours was over, and he really needed to go back to the apartment already.

He stood outside of Lena's room for a few minutes. He really wanted to talk with her. He wanted to let her know that he was willing to help her in any way he can.

He suddenly shook his head as if to wake himself up. His feelings for Lena were starting to cloud his mind again. He had already set up his heart and his mind that he was going to help Lena and Jaejoong be together. And even though he liked Lena, he was just going to set it aside for everyone's sake.

He suddenly let out a long sigh again. "Why is life so complicated?" he suddenly asked himself as he slowly walked away.

Only a few meters away from Lena's room, someone was hiding and watching Micky. It was . . .
Jaejoong.

Jaejoong's heart was aching as he watched his friend. Somehow he envied Micky. Unlike him,
Micky had the courage to show his true feelings. And unlike him, Micky had nothing that was holding him back.

"How I envy you Micky! I wish I was as brave as you. I wish I can be true to myself. . . But there are so many things I need to consider. I can't just think of myself or Lena. I still need to think about my family . . . God knows, how much I love Lena, and how much I regret hurting her. But . . . there are a lot of things that sets us apart."

Jaejoong continued to hide until Micky finally disappeared from his sight. He then slowly walked up to Lena's room. He just stood outside staring at the door. He was trying to imagine what Lena was doing inside her room. He didn't have any intention of seeing her. He just wanted to be sure that she was safe. And just being able to close to her again even from a distance was already enough for him.

"I'm sorry, Lena. I'm sorry . . . I broke your heart," Jaejoong uttered.

Suddenly the door of Lena's room slowly opened. Jaejoong was suddenly caught by surprise.
Daichi was already looking at him with serious expression on his face.

"I'm sorry. I . . .I know I shouldn't have come here. Don't worry. I don't want to cause anymore
problems . . .I am going now," Jaejoong uttered. He was already about to leave when . . .

"Wait! Since you're already here . . .I might as well let you see her. Don't worry, she's still asleep. So you don't have anything to worry about," Daichi said.

Jaejoong stared at Daichi, as if trying to find out what Daichi's true intentions were. Somehow he couldn't understand why Daichi was always giving him a chance to be with Lena.

"Why?" Jaejoong asked.

"Why? What do you mean? What are you asking me?" Daichi asked back.

"Why are you always giving me a chance to be with her? Why are you always giving way for me?" Jaejoong asked again.

"Simple, it is because you are the man she loves," Daichi said while his heart was breaking into
pieces.

"But you love her . . . So why are you giving her to another man?" Jaejoong asked.

"Yes, I love her. And that is why I want to give her happiness. And I know that her happiness isn't with me, but with you. That's why I'm willing to give her up to you," Daichi weakly uttered.

"But . . .I've already hurt her. And I am afraid to face her again," Jaejoong said.

"She loves you, and I know she will easily forgive you. The two of you really need to talk," Daichi said.

"I don't think I have the strength and the courage to face her. I'm afraid I will just hurt her again," Jaejoong slowly uttered.

Daichi tried to smile. "She's still asleep. You can still see her before you leave," he then slowly
opened the door fully to let Jaejoong in.

At first, Jaejoong was very reluctant to enter. His heart started beating fast the moment he entered Lena's room. He couldn't explain what he was feeling. He was afraid and also anxious to see her.

He slowly walked up to Lena's bed. And just like what Daichi said, she was still sleeping.
Somehow he couldn't stop himself. He immediately touched her hand.

"Lena . . ." he uttered.

Daichi who was just watching suddenly turned towards the door. "I know you need some time
alone with her. So I'll just be outside, if you need me."

Jaejoong stared at Daichi. He was very thankful for Daichi's kindness and consideration.

"Daichi . . . thank you. Don't worry. I won't take long," Jaejoong uttered.

Daichi smiled. "I'm not rushing you. So just take your time . . . Please do bear in mind. . . this
maybe the last time that you will be able to be close to her. Up until now, I still don't consider her as mine. So basically she's still free. But after the engagement, then that is the only time that I will call her mine. And I'm sorry to say once she's engaged with me . . .I will never let her go. So I'm still giving you this chance to make up your mind. After the engagement . . . she can never be with you again. So think Jaejoong . . . think . . . think, not with your mind . . . .but with your heart," he said and he slowly walked out of the room.

Jaejoong's heart suddenly stopped beating for a few seconds after hearing Daichi's last words.
Somehow he couldn't explain the pain he was feeling, just thinking that he wasn't going to see or touch Lena
ever again.

He suddenly stared at Lena's beautiful face. Then he started to ran his finger down the curve of
Lena's lips. He could still remember the sweetness he tasted while kissing her. Jaejoong smiled. Then he started to caress Lena's face. And suddenly he again remembered everything that happened between them.

"I'm sorry Lena. I didn't mean to hurt you. I really . . . really love you. It's just that . . .there are too many differences that sets us apart. God knows how much I love you. I had been trying to deny everything because I was afraid of the consequences that may arise if I let out my feelings. I tried so hard to be blind and numb with your love. I couldn't let you see what is really in my heart. But . . . I suddenly became weak. I suddenly lost control of my feelings. That's why something happened between us. Do you know how many times I had dreamed that I was making love to you? Before I always thought that it was just a dream . . . a dream that can never come true. And during that special time . . . that special . . .I finally released my true feelings for you. I love you Lena. . . with all my heart and soul. I made love to you . . .because I love you. And I certainly didn't use you . . . not like the others are saying. When I made love to you . . .I finally gave my heart to you. You're the very first girl I ever made love with . . . and the very last girl that my heart will die with," Jaejoong uttered as his heart was breaking into pieces.

"Then . . . why did you leave me?" Lena suddenly asked as she slowly opened her eyes. She then looked straightly into Jaejoong's eyes.

Jaejoong was taken by surprise. "You're awake? So you heard everything that I said?"

Lena nodded. "I had been awake for a few minutes before you arrived. I didn't want to talk with
Daichi so I just pretended to be asleep."

Jaejoong suddenly lowered his head. He was very ashamed of himself. He didn't know what to say to her. He didn't know how to explain what he did.

"Jaejoong . . . why did you leave me? Do you know how hurt I was? I felt like I was a toy that you suddenly threw away after you got bored of playing with. When I woke up and found that you were gone, it was like I wanted to die," Lena uttered as tears streamed down her face.

"Lena . . ." Jaejoong stared at Lena's face. "I'm sorry . . . I'm very sorry."

"Just answer me please . . .Why? Why did you leave me?" she asked again.

Jaejoong's heart was beating wildly. Somehow he didn't want to answer her question. He knew
that once he answered, she would only be more hurt.

"Jaejoong . . .please. . .tell me the truth. If you really love me . . . tell me . . . why you can't be with me," she said as her voice trembled.

Jaejoong stared straight into her eyes. "I love you . . . but I don't think I am fit for you. You have
always been living in luxury, while I just live an ordinary life. Aside from that, your parents will surely
disapprove of me, once they knew about us. And I know . . . even my own parents . . .won't approve of us being together."

"Is that all you're afraid of? Am I not worthy enough for you to fight for me? Yes, I know our
parents won't approve of us being together. But we are talking about our lives . . . our lives . . . Jaejoong. Even though they are our parents, we can't possibly let them run our lives for us. I am willing to forget about my family's wealth and name, just for a chance to be with you. That's how much I love you. Can't you do the same for me?" Lena asked as tears fell from her eyes, one by one.

Jaejoong felt his heart was being shattered into pieces as he watched Lena cry.

"I . . .I'm sorry. But it isn't just about my family anymore. I also have to think about my friends, our group. If we continued with this . . .it will surely affect our group. And honestly, if it was only me who will be affected, I will gladly accept it. But. . . Xiah, Max, Micky and U-Know . . . they don't deserve to be put in the middle of our problem. If we continued with our love, your family, Daichi's family might cause trouble to my family and friends. And I don't want that to happen. So I'm sorry. But what happened between us . . .I know I can never undone it. But believe me when I say that it is something that I will always remember in my mind and keep locked up in my heart," Jaejoong said as tears started to fall down from his eyes as well.

"So . . . you're saying goodbye to me? You say you love me and yet you can't stay with me? How can you be so cruel to me?" Lena uttered as she cried uncontrollably.

"Lena . . . please . . . please understand," Jaejoong weakly uttered.

"Understand what? That I mean nothing to you? That compared with your family and friends . . . you would easily give me up? Is that what you want me to understand? Don't worry, I get it. I understand, that's why it is hurting me so much. Believe me, I understand. That's why I am trying to accept it. I know you're right, and that you have a point. But . . . it hurts! It's making my mind spin and I can't seem to think straight. And it's also making my heart ache so much that somehow I can't breathe. God! It hurts!" Lena suddenly cried out.

Jaejoong couldn't stand seeing Lena in pain. He suddenly embraced her. "I'm sorry . . . I'm sorry . . .I'm very sorry," he uttered as he cried as well.

"You don't have to say sorry over and over again. I understand, Jaejoong. I respect your decision. That's why I will try to accept this . . . So this is goodbye," Lena said as she slowly embraced Jaejoong. She wanted to feel his body next to hers for the very last time.

"Lena . . . I love you . . ." Jaejoong uttered as he held her tighter.

"I love you too Jaejoong . . ." she uttered softly.

They embraced each other tightly like they weren't going to let each other go. They wanted to
remember the feeling of being in each other's arms and keep it locked up in their hearts as long as they lived.

"Jaejoong. . . can you kiss me . . . for the very last time?" Lena asked with a trembling voice.

Jaejoong suddenly stared at Lena. His heart was aching so much that he thought he was going to
go crazy.

"Lena . . . .close your eyes," he weakly uttered.

Lena slowly closed her eyes. She wanted to pretend and just forget for awhile.

Slowly Jaejoong started to close his eyes as he kissed Lena.

Both of them kissed each other with such sweetness and emotion, while tears continued to flow
from their eyes. It was the last time that they were going to be together. And as they kissed, somehow their hearts were already saying goodbye to each other

Lena tried to control herself. She wanted to beg Jaejoong. She wanted him to be with her forever.

She suddenly pushed Jaejoong away from her.

Jaejoong gazed at Lena with a confused and hurt look in his eyes. "Lena?" he uttered.

Lena looked away in a different direction. She didn't want to see the sadness in Jaejoong's eyes.
She knew that she wouldn't be able to take it.

"Just go . . . Jaejoong . . . Let's just end this way . . . . Just remember . . . no matter what happens . . . . I'll always remember you . . . . and I'll always keep a special place for you in my heart," she said as her tears clouded her eyes.

Jaejoong's heart was very heavy and somehow at that moment it had suddenly stopped beating.

"Goodbye, Lena . . . . I wish you happiness . . . ." Jaejoong uttered as he slowly went out of the
room.

Daichi was suddenly surprised to see Jaejoong open the door with his eyes filled with tears.

"Please . . . . take good care of Lena," Jaejoong said to Daichi before he slowly walked away.

Lena finally broke down into an uncontrollable sob as soon as Jaejoong left.

"Jaejoong . . . . Jaejoong . . . . I love you . . . . and . . . . goodbye."

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30 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 11th June 2009, 4:36 am

CHAPTER 30


Jaejoong quietly entered the living room of their apartment. Somehow his mind was still in a mess, and he can't seem to think of anything else except what happened in the hospital.

"Hyung . . . . where have you been? It's late already," Max uttered with concern. He immediately noticed that Jaejoong wasn't himself.

Jaejoong looked at Max, as if trying to understand what his friend just said.

"Have you had dinner yet? If you're hungry, we left some of the food we ordered in the kitchen," U-Know said.

Jaejoong felt very weak. He just sat down on the sofa and stared blankly at the floor.

"What's wrong Jaejoong? Are you all right?" Xiah asked with concern.

"Maybe you're hungry . . . Come on, let's eat," MAx said to Jaejoong.

"I'm not hungry . . ." Jaejoong uttered.

"Then . . . what's wrong with you?" Xiah asked.

"Nothing," Jaejoong replied. He felt like he was in no mood to talk.

Micky suddenly smiled. "So where are did you go? Did you visit Lena in the hospital?"

Jaejoong stared at Micky. He was somehow caught by surprise by his question. "No," he lied.

Micky smiled again. "Well . . . I did."

Shocked . . . Xiah, U-Know and Max immediately looked at Mikcy. Somehow they couldn't understand what Micky was doing.

Jaejoong smiled bitterly. "So?"

"She was asleep when I arrived . . . and when I left. So I have nothing to tell," Micky said coldly.

"Oh . . ." Jaejoong uttered as if he didn't care.

"Daichi said . . . the engagement will still proceed as planned," Micky added.

"Oh . . . is that so?" Jaejoong uttered again.

Micky was starting to get irritated with Jaejoong's reactions.

"Have you really gone numb? Or you're just trying to hide your true feelings," he asked.

Jaejoong stared at Micky, then he suddenly looked away. "I don't want to talk about it," he uttered.

"Really? . . . . I . . . I like Lena," Micky suddenly announced out of the blue.

"Hyung! What are you saying?" Max asked with disbelief.

"Micky . . ." U-Know uttered. He was very surprised as well.

"I like Lena . . . ever since the first time I met her. I just kept it to myself because I know there was something going on between Lena and Jaejoong," Micky confessed.

Xiah, Max and U-Know were totally shocked with Micky's confession. They never expected that Micky would actually like Lena more than a friend.

Jaejoong stared at Micky with a blank expression on his face. "So why are you telling us all of a sudden that you like Lena?" he asked.

"I'm telling you because . . . I'm sick and tired of watching you hurt her. Do you really like her? I mean do you like her as a friend or more than a friend? What's the truth?" Micky asked.

"There's no sense in answering that question now," Jaejoong uttered.

"I like Lena. So if you're not going after her . . . then I just want you to know that . . . I will," Micky suddenly said out loud.

Jaejoong felt his heart was suddenly stabbed.

"Hyung . . . that's not fair," Max said to Micky as he shook his head in dismay.

"Micky . . . why are you doing this?" U-Know asked.

Jaejoong tried to smile. "So . . . you're really going after her? Then be my guest . . . But have you forgotten? She's already slept with me . . ."

"Slept with you? So what? Daichi doesn't mind . . . and I certainly don't care at all either. What matters to me is that I like her, and I want to make her happy," Micky replied.

Jaejoong suddenly let out a laugh. "Honestly . . . I envy you. I envy you because you have the courage to show what you're really feeling. I envy you because you don't have personal reasons to hold you back. I wish I could be like that. I wish I was in a different position . . . I wish I wasn't . . . me," he uttered sadly.

"What you're saying is just useless excuses for me. Why can't you love her? What's holding you back? What are these reasons you are talking about? If you really love her . . . then fight for her," Micky said angrily.

"You don't know my reasons for controlling my feelings for her," Jaejoong weakly said to Micky.

"That's why I'm asking you. Tell me! I want to understand. She loves you Jaejoong. She gave herself to you. Doesn't that mean anything yo you? God! If I were in your position, I would surely have married her by now. She's hurting . . . and you're obviously in pain as well. So please tell me . . . what's the reason why you can't love her back," Micky said with so much emotion.

Jaejoong stared at his friend. He suddenly let out a long sigh. "You've all been my friends for years . . . I guess I should at least be honest with you guys."

"What's wrong, hyung? You can tell us we're willing to listen," Max said.

"Ever since Lena and I were young, my parents had already made me aware of our difference in social status. And there was a time that my mother even talked with me and told me that even though she loved Lena like her own daughter . . . she can never accept her as a daughter-in-law. I was shocked at first. But then she also told me her reason for not accepting Lena. My mother said that Lena was brought up in a very rich family. She isn't used to poverty or any kind of hardship. If she was to end up with me . . . then I will only be putting her in a difficult situation. My family lives an ordinary life . . . so very different from the life she's used to. Somehow it would be like punishing her, if she was to live in my world," Jaejoong tried to explain.

"That's total nonsense!" Micky uttered angrily. he couldn't believe the reason Jaejoong was giving them.

"But hyung . . . you're famous now . . . and you're rich. You can easily give Lena everything she needs. So there's no problem now," Max said with a smile.

Jaejoong smiled bitterly. "Yes, I am famous and rich now. But what happens after our careers are over? We will all return to our ordinary lives. What will I give her then? Compared with Daichi, I can't give even one-fourth of what he can give her."

"Lena's not a materialistic girl. You're already pre-judging her. Do you actually think that she would care about money or material things?" Micky asked.

"I know she would gladly live in poverty with me. But I can't let her do that. I love her too much to see her live in such a pitiful state," Jaejoong uttered.

"Pitiful state? Have you seen her? Because if you have . . . she's already in a pitiful state now . . . because of you," Micky said with sarcasm.

"She will forget me sooner or later. Daichi is a good man. She will easily fall in love with him as time moves on," Jaejoong said as his heart was aching badly.

"Do you actually think that she will ever forget you? Jaejoong . . . are you really human? How can you just give the woman you love to another man just because of petty excuses?" Micky asked angrily. He was trying very hard to understand Jaejoong, but his heart was somehow unable to accept Jaejoong's reasons.

"I'm not just thinking about myself . . . but also about my family . . . my friends . . . our group. Aside from my parents disapproving of Lena and me having a romantic relationship. I know her parents will never accept it as well. They will surely find ways to set us apart. And what I am most afraid of is the fact that they can easily make problems for my family, and they can also cause problems to our group. Have you guys ever thought about what would happen if my relationship with Lena ever got out to the media? If that happens . . . I won't be the only one who will be affected . . . but all of you as well. So you see . . . my situation isn't that simple. There are a lot of people who will be involved and affected if I chose to be with Lena," Jaejoong weakly said.

"Now . . . I understand," Max said as he slowly lowered his head. He felt so sorry for his friend. It was only now that he fully understood why Jaejoong was trying to control his emotions for Lena.

"I never realized . . . your situation was that complicated . . . I'm sorry,' Xiah uttered softly.

"I really can't judge you Jaejoong. But I do hope that you're making the right decision . . . for your sake . . . and especially Lena's," U-Know said seriously.

Micky stared at Jaejoong. "Jaejoong . . . you still have time to think . . . Think hard . . . Try to decide not with your mind alone but also with your heart. Have you ever thought about what would happen to Lena once she's married with Daichi? Do you think she will ever be happy with him? Yes, she may be surrounded by beautiful and expensive things . . . But do you think that would actually make any difference to her? And when she's already married . . . do you think you would actually be happy even for one second?" he then suddenly smiled bitterly. "Look straight into my eyes, Jaejoong. When she's already gone from your life . . . Can you honestly tell me . . . if you will ever find peace . . . even for one second for the rest of your life?"

Jaejoong stared straight into Micky's eyes. "No . . ." he slowly uttered.

Micky slowly shook his head. "Try to decide again, my friend. Frankly . . . you don't have to worry about us. Our group has already gone through so many hardships, but we're still here. . . . together. What is another hardship, if exchange it means that you and Lena will be happy. As for your family, you can still find other ways to help them if problems do arise. There is always an answer for everything, Jaejoong. You just have to open your eyes and your heart. Everybody experiences problems everyday, but they always continue and live on. Sometime the best thing for you may not be the best thing for others. So try to ask your heart . . . can you live without her?" he suddenly stood up and lightly patted Jaejoong on the back before he went to his room.

"Hyung . . . I hope you can make the right decision," Max uttered, then he slowly walked out of the room as well.

"Alway remember . . . we will always support you in everything and every decision you make," Xiah said before he left the room.

"Jaejoong, when the time comes and we all return to our ordinary lives . . . and Lena is no longer by your side . . . Can you ever find happiness? She's your first love. Do you think you can find another girl that can replace her? True love is very hard to find . . . follow your heart, Jaejoong. Your heart will never lead you to a wrong path," U-Know said. He then slowly walked up to Jaejoong and gently patted Jaejoong on the back. "Use your heart . . . not your mind . . . before it is too late."

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31 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 11th June 2009, 4:37 am

CHAPTER 31 Part1



Sunday . . .

Lena sadly looked out of the hotel window. In an hour, she will no longer be free. She will finally be engaged with Daichi. Somehow she couldn't help but feel like she was dying.

Ever since she was young, she had always imagined that she would get engaged then married to the very first man she loved.

She unconsciously smiled. She could still remember all the silly things that she had imagined . . . the rose petals she wanted that was supposed to be scattered everywhere she walked . . . the assorted flowers that was supposed to be used in the wedding . . . the song that was supposed to be playing during and after the wedding.

Lena smiled again . . . bitterly. Suddenly a tear fell down on her cheek. She hurriedly brushed it away. She didn't want anyone to know about the sadness she was feeling.

She then looked at the sky. There were dark clouds forming.

"Even the sky is sympathizing with me and wants to cry with me as well," she said to herself as a joke.

She slowly lowered her head and started to think.

"What are you doing now Jaejoong? Are you also thinking of me? Are we really supposed to end this way?" she asked as she continued to stare at the dark sky.

While in the DBSK boys' apartment. . . .

"Hyung . . . it's all right if you don't want to go, we can just make an excuse for you. And say that you're not feeling well or something like that," Max said to Jaejoong.

The DBSK boys along with all the contract artists of Avex Trax were invited to Lena and Daichi's engagement party at a prestigious hotel.

"I'm all right. Don't worry about me . . . Besides our manager would surely get mad if I don't attend this event," Jaejoong said as he tried to put on a smile and pretend that he wasn't affected at all.

"Come on guys . . . Our manager is already waiting in the van," U-Know said to the other DBSK members.

Jaejoong and Max just nodded and silently followed U-Know out of the apartment.

Thirty minutes later . . .

The DBSK boys had finally arrived at the hotel. They immediately went to the place where the
engagement was being held.

Lena, together with her mother and Daichi's mother were already at the entrance and greeting all the guests that were arriving.

Jaejoong's heart started to beat very fast the moment he saw Lena. He felt like he wanted to just turn back and walk away.

But it was already too late. Lena's mother had already seen him.

"Jaejoong . . ." Lena's mother exclaimed with joy. She immediately walked up to where Jaejoong was standing. "Jaejoong . . . it's been a very long time. It's very nice to see you again," the old woman said with a sweet smile on her lips.

"It's very nice to see you as well . . . Mother," Jaejoong uttered.

"Mother?" Max asked as if confused, while he looked back and forth between Jaejoong and Lena's mother.

The old woman laughed. "Hello boys . . . I am Lena's mother. She has already told me so much about you. And as for Jaejoong . . . he is also used to calling me mother."

"Oh . . . I'm sorry. I was suddenly confused. Please pardon my reaction," Max apologized to Lena's mother.

"Oh . . . It's nothing. You're such a sweet boy. Lena was right. Based on what I can see, you are all very nice. So Jaejoong . . . your best friend is already getting engaged . . . and married soon. Don't you have a special someone in your life too?" Lena's mother asked Jaejoong directly.

Jaejoong tried to smile. "It's . . . It's quite complicated, mother," he answered honestly.

The old woman laughed again. Then she looked back at Lena. "My daughter has already grown up. Somehow I still can't believe that she's no longer the little girl who always comes home . . . with a little boy in tow . . ." Then the old woman stared at Jaejoong. "DO you know I always thought that she would end up marrying you? The two of you have always been so close and unseparable."

Jaejoong was shocked with what Lena's mother had siad. "Mother . . .I . . . I really don't know what to say."

"Frankly I am against this engagement . . . But Lena's father is really determined to keep his promise to his own father. And that is to get Daichi and Lena married to one another. I know she's not happy . . . and that she's hurting. But his father won't allow me to voice out my opinion regarding this matter. So I am left with no other choice but to watch my one and only daughter suffer," the old woman said sadly.

"Mother . . ." Jaejoong uttered again. His mind was somehow blank and he couldn't think of anything else to say to comfort the old woman standing in front of him.

"Look at her . . . Jaejoong. Behind the smile is a heart that is crying. And behind her beautiful face is a heart that is dying . . . Don't you pity her? I wish time can stand still so that she can always be the little girl that I always take care of . . . And so that I can always shelter her from all the pain life brings," the old woman said again with sadness in her eyes.

"Daichi is a good man. He will be a very good husband to her," Jaejoong suddenly said.

The old woman stared at Jaejoong. "Yes, he is a good man. But can you tell me . . . can a person teach his or her heart who to love? I know . . . Lena is in love with someone else. So I also know that she will never be happy with Daichi."

Jaejoong suddenly felt tensed. Somehow he didn't know what to say to Lena's mother. He could easily tell that the old woman already knew about the feelings that he and Lena had for one another.

"Mother . . . I'm sorry," Jaejoong suddenly uttered.

The old woman smiled. "Sorry for what? You don't have anything to be sorry for . . ." the old woman looked at Lena again, then at Jaejoong. "It's a pity. The two of you really look so good together. But I guess . . . it's time that I accept the reality that you and Lena are no longer small children and that both of you have separate lives now."

A woman suddenly came and whispered something to Lena's mother. She then nodded and looked at Jaejoong again.

"Well . . . it is really nice to see you again . . . Jaejoong. The engagement party will start in a few minutes. Lena and Daichi's mother have already gone inside . . . So I have to go now," Lena's mother said.

Jaejoong had totally lost himself. he couldn't think and he couldn't find the right words to say. he just tried to smile and nodded.

Lena's mother smiled as well. Then she bade goodbye to the other DBSK members.

Several minutes later . . . .

All the guests were already sitting on different tables. And as for the DBSK boys they were already sitting and waiting for the start of the engagement party.

Xiah, U-Know, Micky and Max noticed that Jaejoong wasn't himself. He just kept on staring at the empty glass in front of him.

"Hyung . . . are you all right?" Max asked worriedly.

Micky suddenly laughed. "How can a man be all right if the woman he loves will be engaged with another man in a few minutes?" he said sarcastically.

"Hyung . . . you're being too harsh," Max uttered.

"Sorry . . . I just can't help it. Especially now . . . that we already know that even Lena's mother knows that both he and Lena have special feelings for each other. Somehow the way she was speaking earlier . . . it was like she was telling Jaejoong to stop this engagement," Micky uttered as he shook his head in total dismay.

"Micky . . . that's enough!" U-Know uttered with a serious tone.

"Micky . . . let's just respect Jaejoong's decision . . . please," Xiah said.

"If I didn't respect his decision . . . I would be more brutal and sarcastic than this," Micky replied.

"Hyung . . . ." Max uttered.

Suddenly . . . . the announcement of Lena and Daichi's engagement was started. Daichi and Lena along with their parents were standing in front of all the guests.

"Friends . . . I would just like to thank everyone of you for coming today. This is a very special day for all of us . . . espcially for our one and only son . . . ." Daichi's father said with a very happy smile on his lips.

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32 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 11th June 2009, 4:38 am

CHAPTER 31 Part 2


Lena couldn't help but stare at the people before her. Daichi's father continued to talk, her heart was beating very fast that somehow she couldn't breathe. She still couldn't believe that she was finally getting engaged with Daichi. And the thought alone was enough to shatter her heart into pieces. She felt so lost and alone. Among the crowd, she was trying to find a familiar face . . . . a face that her heart was calling out for.

"Jaejoong . . . " she kept on repeating in her mind. But there were too many people and the tables were too many for her to see everyone clearly. She had seen him earlier, while talking with her mother. She wanted to get close to him as well. But Daichi's mother prevented her from leaving. Lena stared at Daichi. He was a very nice man. Any woman was lucky to have someone as special as him. But even though how hard she tried to get herself to like him more than a friend . . . . the more her heart was screaming out for Jaejoong.

Lena lowered her head. She was very confused. Jaejoong was really determined to give her to Daichi. But her heart was still longing for him. She still loved him. And even though she had tried hating him. She just realized that she couldn't do it. She loved him too much.

Slowly . . . .her tears started to fall. She was feeling so alone.

Daichi immediately noticed that Lena was crying. He gently took her hand and held it tightly.

Lena looked at Daichi with tears in her eyes. "Daichi . . . .I'm sorry," she said weakly.

Daichi stared at lena with a confused look on his face.

"I'm sorry . . . . " Lena repeated with a trembling voice.

Daichi's father had already stopped talking, and now was just staring at Daichi and Lena, as if confused on what was happening.

Everyone had also suddenly focused their attention on the two as well.

"Lena, what are you doing?" Daichi's mother asked as she tried to control her anger.

Lena looked at Daichi's parents. "I'm sorry . . . . please forgive me. But I . . . I can't do this," she then slowly bowed down her head as she asked for their forgiveness.

"Lena, stop your craziness this instance!" Lena's father uttered angrily.

Lena then faced her father. "I'm sorry father . . . .mother. But this is my life. I don't think I can do this. I want to be with the man I love . . . please understand," she said as tears rolled down her face.

"No!" Lena's father shouted.

Lena's mother suddenly touched her husband's hand. "Dear, give your daughter her happiness. She's already suffered enough. I can no longer bear to see her in so much pain. Just set her free . . . Please I beg you," the old woman said as tears started to fall from her eyes as well.

"Mother . . ." Lena uttered as she saw her mother crying.

Lena's father stared at his wife . . . then at his daughter. The tears in their eyes had suddenly softened his heart. And somehow his love for them had already taken over. The old man slowly lowered his head as if in defeat.

Lena's mother suddenly smiled at Lena. "Follow your heart Lena . . . . Find your happiness."

Lena nodded. She was very happy. Her parents had finally given her freedom back. She then faced Daichi.

As soon as she faced Daichi, her heart suddenly ached. Tears were already forming in his eyes. She knew he was hurt. And it was all because of her.

Daichi tried to smile. Then he gently squeezed Lena's hand. "I love you . . . so I'm setting you free. Just promise me one thing . . . always be happy."

Lena's heart suddenly stopped beating. Daichi's love for her was indeed uncomparable. How she pitied him.

Slowly . . . Lena faced Daichi, she stared straight into his eyes. "Thank you Daichi . . . for everything . . ." she then lightly kissed him on the lips.

Daichi tried to control himself. He felt like he was going to cry uncontrollably any minute. He gently kissed Lena on the forehead. "Just go . . . Go . . . and be happy."

"Thank you . . ." Lena uttered. She then faced her parents again. "Thank you . . ." she uttered again.

There was already a great confusion among the guests. Everyone was shocked with what they were witnessing.

Lena looked at the crowd. Then she smiled. She was finally free . . . she thought happily. She then started to walk away from Daichi. . . Then she started to run. It was over . . . She wanted to leave that place as soon as possible.

The people who were there started to talk and ask questions. The whole place was filled with questions and different expressions.

Jaejoong was still shocked with what was happening. His heart was screaming out Lena's name. He wanted to ran after her . . . and be with her.

Micky lightly tapped Jaejoong's shoulder. "Aren't you going after her?"

It was only then that Jaejoong snapped out of what he was thinking. He then looked at Micky with confusion in his eyes.

"Please stop worrying about everything. Just set yourself free . . . She's already waiting for you," Micky said with a smile.

"Hyung . . . you deserve to be happy," Max uttered.

"Follow your heart," U-Know said with a smile as well.

"Jusrt forget about everything, and try to find your happiness," Xiah said.

"You better stand up already and ran after her. Because if you don't . . . . then I will," Micky said jokingly.

Jaejoong looked at his friends . . . .one by one. He then nodded. "Yes, thank you," he replied with a smile. His heart had finally taken over his mind. He had finally decided to give his love for Lena a chance.

Lena had shown him her courage in fighting for her love. And it was time for him to do the same.

Jaejoong quickly stood up and started to ran. He needed to find her fast.

The people attending the engagement became more confused, after they saw Jaejoong quickly leaving.

Daichi smiled as he saw Jaejoong leaving. "Take good care of her Jaejoong . . . ." he said in his mind.

Lena was ranning as fast as she could. Daichi's mother had ordered several men to ran after her. The men were only a few meters away from her and were already closing in on her. She was already tired. She felt she couldn't ran anymore. She was already running out of breath. But she knew she needed to get away. She continued to ran . . . but her legs were already weakening. She was about to stop ranning when . . . . someone suddenly grabbed her hand, and started to pull her. Hand in hand . . . . .they started to ran.

Lena slowly looked at the warm hand that was holding her hand. Then she slowly looked up at the man that was ranning beside her.

Her heart suddenly jumped with joy as soon as she saw who the man was. It was . . . . Jaejoong.

"Jaejoong . . . ." she uttered as if surprised. Somehow she couldn't believe that he was beside her.

Jaejoong took a quick glance at Lena, then he smiled sweetly. "Come on . . . . Let's get out of here," he then tightened his grip on Lena's hand as they continued to ran out of the hotel. Lena suddenly thought that her whole world had suddenly lit up and there was a sweet music playing in the air. She was very happy that Jaejoong was finally by her side.

Lena and Jaejoong were already out of the hotel lobby and were ranning out farther and farther away from the hotel. But the men Daichi's mother sent were still pursuing them.

"I . . . .I can't ran anymore, Jaejoong," Lena uttered. She was already very tired.

"You've got to hold on. We can't stop now. I can't lose you now . . . ." Jaejoong uttered as he also tried to catch his breath.

Suddenly a car stopped in front of Lena and Jaejoong.

"Get in . . . ." the driver shouted.

Jaejoong and Lena looked at each other. They were both wondering who the man was.

The elderly man suddenly smiled. "Don't worry. I'm here to help. Daichi sent me."

As soon as Jaejoong heard Daichi's name being mentioned, he immediately led Lena into the car.

Within minutes . . . . the car was already speeding away from the hotel.

"Jaejoong . . . ." Lena uttered.

Jaejoong was still holding Lena's hand. And as soon as he heard her say his name, he immediately looked at her.

"I'm sorry if it took me so long to find the courage to love you back. But I promise . . . starting from today . . . . I will never let anyone or anything separate us ever again. . . . Can you find it in your heart to forgive me?" Jaejoong asked sweetly.

Lena smiled. "I love you Jaejoong. And no matter what you do . . . . I will still love you."

Jaejoong's heart was jumping with joy. He quickly embraced Lena. "I promise I will always be by your side . . . and from now on . . . . I will never let you go."

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33 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 11th June 2009, 4:39 am

CHAPTER 32


"Here we are . . . ." the driver suddenly announced.

Lena and Jaejoong carefully stepped out of the car. They were infront of a huge mansion. "Are we really going to stay here?" Lena asked the old man.

The old man suddenly smiled. "Yes, don't worry. This place is very secure. They will never expect that you will be staying in a place like this. I also have several men working with me. We will be keeping an eye on everything. So you don't have to worry."

Lena smiled at the old man. "Thank you very much," she uttered.

"So Daichi arranged all of this? So does this mean that he was really expecting something like this to happen?" Jaejoong asked the old man curiously.

The old man just nodded his head.

"If by chance . . . you get to talk with Daichi . . . can you please say thank you to him . . . for me?" Lena suddenly said.

The old man just shook his head. "I'm sorry but I won't be able to talk with him . . . not until this is all over. He had strict instructions to never contact him, once we were in hiding. And before I forget . . . I would just like to tell you some important rules that both of you have to follow."

"What rules? Why?" Jaejoong asked.

"First . . . if you have your cell phones with you, please turn them off at all times. Second, never contact anyone. . . no friends, no families . . . noone. Third, both of you are not allowed to leave this place, not until everything is already cleared. And fourth, just try to enjoy your stay here. Just think of it as your honeymoon," the old man said with a smile.

"So we're supposed to just stay here? Until when?" Jaejoong asked.

"As of now . . . I can't really say how long. But if I were to calculate . . . at least two weeks maybe enough before the two of you can return to your homes. My men have already informed me that Daichi's mother has hired a new set of men to look for the two of you. And they also told me that the order was to get Lena back and to hurt you . . .Jaejoong. So it is very important that you follow all the things that I have said . . . for your own safety," the old man said again.

Lena and Jaejoong looked at each other, then at the old man. Then both of them just nodded.

"Thank you very much for all your help," Lena said as she bowed to the old man.

"You're a very sweet girl. Now I am beginning to understand why Daichi is madly in love with you. So Jaejoong . . . you're a very lucky man. Take good care of her," the old man said with a warm smile.

"Don't worry. I will surely take care of her. And I will protect her with my life," Jaejoong uttered.

"The two of you can go in now. All my men are already scattered all over the mansion. So the place is safe. I know both of you are very tired. We had a very long drive to get here. Have some rest . . ." the elderly man said.

"Yes, and thank you," Jaejoong uttered again before he and Lena slowly entered the mansion.

An hour later . . . .

Lena quietly stared out of the window in her room. It was already night time. And somehow she couldn't stop herself from wondering what was happening back in Tokyo, especially after she left the engagement party. She knew she made such a big scene. Her entire clan will surely have a lot of things to say once she returned. She also knew that she had caused such a big embarrassment, both to her family and Daichi's family as well. She suddenly let out a long sigh.

"What are you doing now . . . Daichi?" she suddenly asked while staring at the sky. She was very worried about Daichi.

Suddenly someone hugged Lena from behind. "I'm jealous . . . " Jaejoong uttered.

Lena lightly laughed. "Jealous of what?"

"You're here with me . . . but you're thinking about Daichi. Don't I have a right to be jealous?" Jaejoong uttered.

"I'm just worried about Daichi. I know his mother wouldn't let him off so easily. I'm imagining that she's still lecturing and nagging him up till now," Lena explained.

"Oh! That's harsh. Daichi is such a good man. Aren't you regretting that you just let him get away?" Jaejoong asked jokingly.

"No! Because I got the man I really wanted," Lena answered with a smile.

"I'm not rich like him. And I don't belong to a well-known family like him . . . and I have no educational attainment to be proud of. Are you really sure . . . you still want to be with me?" Jaejoong asked seriously.

"Jaejoong are you still doubting my love for you? Even if you end up being the poorest person on earth . . . I would still love you, and I would still choose you over Daichi," she answered softly.

Jaejoong was still feeling jealous of Daichi. But after hearing Lena's words, his heart has suddenly calmed down and was somehow finally contented.

"Do you have any idea how happy I am to hear that? Thank you for loving me and accepting all my short comings," Jaejoong uttered weakly.

Lena laughed again. "You don't have to say that . . . "

"You're right . . . Besides I know something that I possess that Daichi doesn't," Jaejoong suddenly said with a grin.

"What?" Lena asked curiously.

"Well . . . I am way more beautiful than Daichi . . . At least in that aspect, he can't win. And no one can deny it," Jaejoong answered with a laugh.

Lena suddenly bursted out laughing as well. " Yes, you are quite right. Frankly . . . you're even more beautiful than me,"

Jaejoong suddenly became serious. "No one can ever compare with you. And for me, you are the most beautiful woman I have ever met.

"Jaejoong . . ." Lena uttered. Her heart was pounding very hard.

"Lena . . . do you know that Micky likes you?" Jaejoong suddenly asked.

"Micky? What do you mean?" she asked as if confused.

"Micky likes you more than a friend. He already confessed to me and the others," Jaejoong answered.

"Really? No, sorry I had no idea," she said softly.

"Honestly, he was the one who made me realize that I shouldn't let you go. He was the one who kept on reminding me of what I was going to lose . . ." Jaejoong said with a smile.

"What you were going to lose? What do you mean? What is it?" Lena was suddenly confused and curious as well.

Jaejoong smiled. "Because of him, I realized that once I let you go, I wasn't only going to lose you . . . but I was also going to lose myself as well. You are my life and my happiness, Lena. Without you, my life will never be complete. Without you, I would be nothing. I'm sorry for all the pain that I brought you. And I am sorry for all the hurtful words that I might have said before. Let's start over. This time I promise I will never make you cry again, and I will always be by your side to protect you."

Lena suddenly turned around to face Jaejoong. "Then I guess I owe a lot to Micky. I would surely thank him the next time I see him," she said sweetly.

Jaejoong suddenly cupped Lena's face with his two hands. "You can say thanks to Micky . . . but please . . . don't ever kiss another man again. Do you know how hurt I was when I saw you kissing Daichi? It was like . . . I wanted to go crazy . . ."

Lena lightly laughed. "So you were jealous?"

Jaejoong suddenly laughed as well. "Jealous? More like going crazy with jealousy is the right description."

Lena then lightly kissed Jaejoong on his lips. She had already finished kissing him when he suddenly drew her closer. She immediately felt the warmth of Jaejoong's body next to hers.

"I missed you . . ." he suddenly uttered as he sweetly kissed her back.

As the two lovers kissed each other, it was like their whole world had suddenly stopped. There was nothing separating them anymore. All the differences and barriers were finally forgotten. There was only love . . . love between two souls that had been searching for one another . . . and were finally back into each other's arms.

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34 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 24th June 2009, 8:53 pm

CHAPTER 33


The next day . . . .

Lena suddenly woke up. She suddenly saw that Jaejoong wasn't beside him. She immediately got up and sat on her bed. Fear instantly filled her heart.

"Jaejoong . . . ." she called out. But there was no answer.

She wanted to get out of their room, but she was afraid. Different thoughts were already rushing into her mind.

"Did he leave me again?" she started to ask herself over and over again.

Slowly the tears started to fall. She then started to remember the day that Jaejoong left her after making love with her. She couldn't stop herself, but her heart was pounding very hard. She then started to sob . . . .

"Lena . . ." Jaejoong uttered with concern as he entered the room. He was holding a tray with different dishes he prepared for Lena's breakfast.

"Jaejoong . . . . Jaejoong . . . ." Lena suddenly glanced at him. She was very happy to see him.

Jaejoong immediately placed the tray he was holding on a table near him, and he hurriedly went to Lena's side. He then gently wiped away her tears as he looked straight into her eyes.

"What's wrong? Why are you crying?" he asked with concern.

Lena suddenly embraced Jaejoong. "I . . . I thought . . . you left me again," she cried out as she buried her face in Jaejoong's chest.

Jaejoong suddenly felt his heart skipped a beat. He knew what he had done before was very painful for her. And he understood why she suddenly became afraid that he had left her again, after she didn't find lying next to her when she woke up.

He gently caressed Lena's head. Then he lovingly kissed the paths that Lena's tears made on her face.

"I'm sorry . . . . if I scared you . . . I know I was a fool before . . . . when I just left you alone, after we made love. But I've changed . . . I'm no longer afraid to fight for you . . . and for our love. So please . . . trust me . . . whatever happens I will never . . . . ever leave you alone again. I will always be by your side . . . . protecting you, taking care of you and loving you," Jaejoong uttered as he stared deep into her eyes.

"Are you sure . . . . you will never leave me again? Are you sure . . . you're willing to give everything up? Are you sure . . . ." she said when Jaejoong suddenly placed a finger on her lips to stop her from talking.

"You don't have to ask such questions . . . . . I have already decided to give up everything and forget everyone . . . the moment that I ran after you . . . You're the most important person in my life. I can live without money, stardom, material things . . . even my family and friends . . . but I can't live without you . . . . If I lose you, then it would be much better that I die. I can't live without you, Lena. I love you. . . ." Jaejoong said with love in his eyes.

"Jaejoong . . . I love you too . . . . And I can't live without you too," she uttered.

Jaejoong suddenly tried to put on a smile. "Next time . . . call out for me or just look for me. Don't go assuming things like this and like that . . . and then just go crying in a corner . . . like what you did today."

"But I called out for you . . . you didn't answer," Lena replied.

"I was in the kitchen . . . cooking," Jaejoong said with a laugh.

Lena lowered her head. She suddenly felt very embarrassed.

Jaejoong suddenly laughed again. "I'm sorry. I wasn't scolding you or anything like that," he then embraced her again. "Don't worry. . . I will never leave you . . ."

Lena just snuggled close into Jaejoong's arms. Her heart had already calmed down. All the fears and worries in her heart had suddenly disappeared. Jaejoong was beside her and had promised to never leave her again. She felt like she was the happiest girl in the world. She didn't care about the things she had left behind. The only thing that she cared about was being with the man she loved. And she was willing to do anything just to keep it that way.

Three days passed . . . .

Jaejoong was sitting alone in the living room. He was staring blankly at the widescreen tv infront of him. He was already very worried about his family and friends. How he wanted to call them and see what was happening with them

He then sighed heavily. He knew he wasn't allowed to call them. He knew that he couldn't disobey the old man that was helping them.

He suddenly grabbed the bottle of wine and wine glass infront on the table infront of him. He then poured himself a drink. Somehow he wanted to forget his worries and just pretend that nothing was wrong.

The passed three days with Lena had been the most happiest days of his life. And somehow he wanted that happiness to never end. Both of them had already started acting like husband and wife, and deep inside his heart . . . he wanted it to go on forever.

"Jaejoong . . .what are you doing?" It's only 4 in the morning. Why are you drinking?" Lena asked as she entered the room.

Jaejoong suddenly glanced at Lena. She was wearing a white night dress that showed her full figure. Somehow he still couldn't believe that the beautiful woman standing infront of him belonged to him.

"Jaejoong . . . why are you drinking?" Lena asked again.

He tried to put on a smile. "I couldn't sleep. So why are you awake too?"

"I woke up and found you gone . . . So I went out of the room to look for you," she answered.

Jaejoong laughed. "That's good. And I actually thought that you were going to look for me and was going to cry again," he said with as a tease.

Lena suddenly gave Jaejoong a pout. "I wasn't going to cry, you silly . . ."

Jaejoong lightly laughed. "Come here . . . and let me hold you," he said as he drew her onto the couch he was sitting on. Then he lovingly embraced her.

"Why are you drinking?" Lena asked again.

"Frankly . . . I don't know. I just felt I needed a drink," he answered.

"Oh I see! Well can I have a drink too?" she asked jokingly.

"No!" Jaejoong immediately replied.

Lena suddenly bursted out laughing. "Why not?" she asked.

"You know I don't like it when you drink," Jaejoong answered.

"Just a little sip . . . please," Lena begged.

"No . . ." Jaejoong uttered.

"Fine . . . so what are we going to do now?" she said with a laugh.

"Well, what do you want to do?" he asked back.

"Uhmmm . . . how about we just watch some movies or shows perhaps?" she asked.

"What do you want to watch?" Jaejoong asked.

"Anything . . . Just open the tv and let's see what's being shown," she answered.

Jaejoong took the remote control beside him, and opened the television. He then started to search through the different channels that was on.

"Hey! Stop, let's just watch some news," she said to Jaejoong.

Jaejoong suddenly stopped switching channels. He then placed down the remote control. He also wanted to watch the news channel.

Both of them were already watching for more than fifteen minutes when . . . .

"And now for the entertainment section . . . A big news is making the headlines today . . . The group Dong Bang Shin Ki seems to be experiencing a sudden downfall. All the group's TV guestings and scheduled performances have all been cancelled. The group's fans are already making an uproar and are demanding that the group's activities be resumed. But a reliable source has informed us that the sudden cancelling of DBSK's activities maybe due to the rumored disappearance of one of the members namely Kim Jaejoong. We have not fully confirmed this news yet since Avex Trax and Sm Entertainment are both unavailable to give out any comments or official statements. But rest assured we will be following up on this news on the days to come. So this is . . . ."

Jaejoong suddenly turned off the TV before the news ended. He didn't want Lena to be worried.

"Why did you turn it off? We haven't finished the news yet . . ." she exclaimed.

"There's no need to finish the news. There's nothing we can do anyway," Jaejoong uttered.

"I'm sorry . . ." Lena uttered as she slowly lowered her head. She had a feeling that something like this was going to happen.

Jaejoong tried to put on a smile. "What are you saying sorry for?"

"Your group's current situation . . . I think it is connected with what we have done. I have a feeling Daichi's mother is already taking her grudge on your group. That's why I am saying sorry to you," Lena said sadly.

"You don't have to say sorry. It's not your fault. We have to be strong Lena. Daichi's mother maybe trying to lure us out of our hiding. That's why she's making problems. Honestly . . . I'm worried about Xiah, Micky, U-Know and Max. But I believe that they can face this kind of problem on their own. They already knew that our group may face different problems once I got involved with you. But they still tried to convince me to just forget about all my worries and just go after you. Have faith, Lena. Everything will be all right," Jaejoong said.

"I hope everything clears up soon. I really don't want your group to suffer all because of me," Lena said with a sigh.

"Don't worry . . . Everything will be fine. We just have to hide for a few days more," he said softly.

"But how much longer Jaejoong? How long are we supposed to hide? I'm already feeling sorry about your friends," she asked with a weak voice.

"Sssshhh . . . . Just forget about that news. Let's just pretend that we didn't see it. Please just put your mind at ease. I don't want you to be troubled," Jaejoong said lovingly.

"But Jae . . ."

"Sssshhhh. . . . ." he then hugged her tighter.

Lena just decided to stop talking. She knew that Jaejoong really didn't want to talk about his group's problem anymore. She let out a long sigh. All the things that Jaejoong was afraid of was starting to come true. And eventhough she wanted to be with him, after learning about DBSK's current situation . . . she was starting to have second thoughts.

"Are we really doing the right thing?" the question started to echo in Lena's mind.

Lena and Jaejoong silently sat on the couch until the sun appeared. Both of them had different things running through their minds. And eventhough no words were spoken, their hearts were doing all the talking. They were both afraid of the horrible things they knew were still going to come. . . .

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35 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 24th June 2009, 8:56 pm

CHAPTER 34


Two days passed . . .

Lena had been silently observing Jaejoong. She knew he was very worried about his friends, but was just trying to hide it. There were times she would catch him staring blankly into open spaces.

She had asked him many times if something was bothering him, but he would always answer with a lie. Somehow this made her feel more guilty and confused.

She was silently hurting as she continued to watch Jaejoong keep his feelings all to himself. She somehow understood why he wouldn't tell her the truth. She knew he was just trying to protect her. She knew he didn't want her to get upset.

Jaejoong had even asked her to avoid watching the news. He told her that it would only add more confusion into their already complicated situation. She just agreed without any further discussion. She didn't want to add more worry to Jaejoong.

It was already three in the afternoon . . . Jaejoong was standing near the window in the living room. he had been standing there for almost half an hour. He then let out a long sigh. He was obviously having deep thoughts about something.

Unknown to him, Lena was watching him from one of the rooms where their body guards had access to all the cameras installed in the house.

Lena had asked the men in the room to let her watch what Jaejoong was doing in the living room. They all agreed and just left her alone in the room.

As she continued to watch him, it was as if someone was slowly crushing her heart. She couldn't stand seeing Jaejoong so troubled. How she wished she could make things all better.

Suddenly . . . Jaejoong carefully took out his cell phone from his pocket. He then stared at it for several minutes . . . before finally opening it.

Lena just watched what Jaejoong was going to do. She had been expecting him to break the rules and just call his friends. She suddenly smiled. She was happy that Jaejoong finally had the courage to call his friends.

Jaejoong stared again at his phone. He then started to check his messages and the calls made to his phone.

There were more than a hundred messages waiting for him and more than fifty or more calls from different numbers. Most of the messages were from Micky, Xiah, U-Know and Max. While some of the other messages were from their manager. And some other messages were sent by unknown numbers.

But what caught his attention was a certain number . . . a number that had sent him more than twenty messages and had called him more than ten times. Curiously he opened one of the messages that the unknown number had sent him.

Jaejoong, you have totally ruined my family's reputation. Do you really think that I will let you have Lena so easily? Bring her back now! Or else I will be forced to use any means necessary to draw you out. Do you think you have the heart to see your friends and family suffer? Give Lena back to my son. You don't deserve her. I suggest you try to think fast before it is too late. I don't have much patience and I am certainly not fond of waiting.

As soon as he read the message, he felt as if his heart had suddenly stopped. And his whole body had suddenly turned cold.

Lena saw the sudden change in Jaejoong's facial expression. Fear suddenly filled her heart. She suddenly became curious as to what Jaejoong had read in his cell phone.

Then without any hesitation, Jaejoong dialled for Max's number. He needed to know what was happening with his friends and family.

Lena was suddenly surprised, because as soon as Jaejoong dialled a number on his phone, a ringing sound immediately came on one of the speakers in the room.

"Hyung . . ." Max happily uttered as soon as he answered his phone.

"Max . . ." Jaejoong uttered.

Lena was silent as she stared at the monitor and listened to the speaker. She immediately understood that both their phones were already tapped by the people who were protecting them.

"Hyung . . . how are you? How is Lena?" Max asked worriedly.

"I should be the one asking you guys . . . how all of you are doing . . ." Jaejoong said seriously.

"Well . . . " Max was hesitant to answer.

"Max, I already know that all of our group's activities have either been canceled or postponed. So you don't have to lie to me," Jaejoong said.

"Hyung . . .I really didn't want to say anything. But since you already know the truth about our group, I might as well tell you about . . ."

"Max!" a voice suddenly called out in the background as if trying to warn Max.

"Who was that?" Jaejoong asked curiously.

"It's Micky," Max answered with a low voice.

"Why? What's wrong? What else do I need to know? Tell me Max, please. . ." Jaejoong said with a trembling voice.

"HYung . . .I . . . I don't think it's a good idea to tell you . . .It might just add more burden on you," Max replied.

"Max . . ." Jaejoong uttered.

"Hyung, I really can't," Max uttered again.

"Put Micky on the line. I want to talk to him," Jaejong said.

"Okay . . ." Max uttered. "Micky, hyung wants to talk to you," he said in the background.

"How is Lena?" Micky immediately asked as soon as he went on the line.

"She's fine. Don't worry. I am taking good care of her," Jaejoong replied.

"That's good," Micky uttered.

"Micky, please tell me what's going on. Please tell me the truth. I want to know everything . . .I need to know," Jaejoong begged.

Lena suddenly felt pity for Jaejoong as she heard him beg.

"Jaejoong . . . I thought you already decided to just leave everything behind . . . and everyone as well? You're supposed to be taking care of Lena . . . and stop worrying about us," Micky said angrily.

"But all of you are my friends . . . and our group is important to me too. How can I not be concerned with what is happening to you guys?" Jaejoong replied.

"Just take care of Lena. She's your responsibility now. We will take care of the problem regarding our group. So don't worry," Micky said seriously.

"Micky . . ." Jaejoong uttered.

"You shouldn't be calling us. You might get traced or something," Micky said worriedly.

"Micky . . . do you guys . . . by any chance have any news about my family?" Jaejoong asked.

"I'm sorry . . . but I don't think I have any right to say anything," Micky said weakly.

Jaejoong immediately noticed that Micky was hiding something.

"Okay. . .I won't force you to say something you don't want to," Jaejoong said seriously.

While she was listening, Lena felt that her heart was getting heavier by the minute. Somehow she felt so guilty and responsible for everything that was happening.

"Bye . . . Jaejoong, Take care of yourself and especially Lena," Micky said.

"Don't worry. I'll take good care of her," Jaejoong said as he closed his phone.

Jaejoong kept on staring at his phone. for more than ten minutes after talking with Max and Micky. Then she suddenly sighed. He was feeling totally helpless and worried about everything.

He then started to dial another number. He was determined to know what was going on with his family.

"Hello . . ." an old woman's voice answered.

"Mother . . . ." Jaejoong uttered.

"Jaejoong is that you?" the old woman asked excitedly.

"Yes, mother. How are you?" Jaejoong asked worriedly.

"Where are you Jaejoong? Do you know I am worried sick about you?" the old woman said while crying.

"Mother . . . please don't cry," Jaejoong uttered as tears started to form in his eyes as well.

"How are you? How about Lena? Are you both all right? Your father and I already know about everything that happened . . ." Jaejoong's mother said.

"How? Who told you?" Jaejoong asked curiously.

"It's all over the news Jaejoong. You haven't been watching the news, have you? So I guess you still don't know about what is happening with your group?" the old woman asked

"About my group? I know all of our activities have been canceled . . . that's all I know. Mother, is there something . . . more important I should know about? I have already called Micky and the others . . . but they wouldn't tell me anything . . ." Jaejoong said with a trembling voice. He was afraid of what he might suddenly find out.

There was a long silence before Jaejoong's mother finally spoke.

"Jaejoong, my son . . . I . . . I really don't want to say anything but . . . I think you have a right to know . . . Your group Dong Bang Shin Ki is being disbanded," the old woman said.

"What?" Jaejoong exclaimed

"There had been rumors going around that your group is going to be disbanded by SM Entertainment, if you don't appear within the next few days. But they have already made a formal announcement yesterday. And they are giving you a week to return to Tokyo to clear everything out," the old woman said.

Jaejoong felt like a bomb had suddenly exploded infront of him. He totally became speechless.

"Jaejoong . . . Jaejoong . . ." his mother kept on calling his name.

Lena suddenly bit her lower lip to stop herself from crying out. Somehow she could feel the pain that Jaejoong was experiencing.

"Jaejoong, are you still there?" the old woman asked.

"Yes, mother," Jaejoong answered as he tried to control himself.

"What are you planning to do now? You and Lena can't possibly go on hiding forever. Sooner or later the two of you have to return and face everyone. But I suggest before you do that . . . try to explain everything first to Lena. I believe there are a lot of things she has to be responsible for when she returns. And I know it would be very hard for her. Her entire clan is outraged by what the two of you have done. And the mother of her fiancee . . . well she's basically threatening everyone," Jaejoong's mother said seriously.

"Threatening everyone? What do you mean?" Jaejoong asked as if confused.

"Frankly . . . I . . . I don't want to tell you this . . . But you know I don't keep secrets from you," the old woman started to say.

"What is it mother?" Jaejoong asked worriedly.

"Your father . . . and five of your sisters have all been fired from their work," the old woman weakly uttered.

"What?" Jaejoong asked. He felt his whole body was slowly weakening.

"We know it is connected with what is happening with you," the old woman said.

"I . . . I'm sorry, mother . . . I'm sorry," Jaejoong uttered as he slowly cried. He couldn't control himself anymore. Everything that he had learned had totally made him weak inside and out.

Lena was already crying as well as she continued to watch and listen. She couldn't think of anything else but the fact that everything was her fault.

"I'm sorry, Mother. I'm sorry . . . I didn't follow your advise. I know this was what you were afraid of when you told me that I should just be friends with Lena . . . nothing more, nothing less. I . . . I love her too much, Mother. I don't think I can live without her. Please forgive me," Jaejoong uttered as tears continued to fall from his eyes.

"It's okay, son. We all know that you love her. We have already known about it . . . for years now. We know how much you have tried to control your feelings. So don't worry about us. We still have some savings to live on . . . while your father and sisters find other jobs. You don't have to worry. Just take care of yourself and Lena. Make sure you take extra good care of her . . . You know how weak she is . . . She easily gets sick . . . Are you two eating on time? Make sure you cook nutritious foods for her okay . . ." the old woman said with concern.

"Yes, mother . . . I . . . I have to end my call now. Maybe I . . . I can call again some other day. Take care of yourself . . . and please say sorry to father and to my sisters . . . for me," Jaejoong uttered.

"Jaejoong . . .take care," the old woman uttered.

Jaejoong slowly closed his phone. And as soon as he closed it, he weakly leaned on the wall . . . and slowly he fell down on his knees. Then he started to cry uncontrollably. How he pitied his friends and family. Eventhough he didn't want to, he was somehow regretting everything he had done.

As Lena watched Jaejoong cry, somehow she wanted to comfort him. But she knew she couldn't let him know that she had heard and seen everything. She needed to pretend.

As Jaejoong cried in the living room, Lena was crying in a hidden room as well. Both of them were in so much pain. And eventhough how much they tried to stop it . . . regret was slowly creeping into their minds and into their hearts.

"Jaejoong . . . I'm sorry . . . I'm sorry . . . I know this is all my fault. I'm sorry for making your life so miserable. I'm starting to think that I shouldn't have entered your life . . . I'm sorry . . . Please forgive me . . . for ruining your peaceful life," Lena uttered as she cried.

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36 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 24th June 2009, 8:58 pm

CHAPTER 35 Part 1


The next morning . . .

Lena slowly woke up and stared at Jaejoong. He was still sleeping soundly. She carefully arranged a lock of hair that covered Jaejoong's face. And little by little, her heart started to ache.

After Jaejoong's phone calls to his friends and mother yesterday, he continuously wept in the living room for almost an hour. Then he tried to calm himself down afterwards, and pretended that nothing was wrong.

She tried to ask him why his eyes looked like he had cried. But he just told her that he had a headache. Then he noticed that her eyes were swollen as well. And she just replied that she too had a headache.

Both of them lied to one another for the main reason that they wanted to protect each other's feelings. And somehow their act was slowly killing Lena.

"I'm sorry, Jaejoong," Lena weakly uttered as she continued to stare at him.

Half an hour passed . . . Lena decided to get out of bed and prepare breakfast. She carefully slipped out of bed and went straight to the kitchen.

She couldn't explain the strange feeling that she was having. Somehow she could sense that something terrible was going to happen. She didn't know what it was, but she was sure that it was going to come.

She silently continued to cook silently. And she just tried to brush away the fears that she was having. She tried to focus on what she was cooking. She wanted to make a delicious breakfast for Jaejoong.

Somehow she wanted to see him smile when he sees the different foods sh had prepared for him. She wanted to make him happy and she wanted to make him forget all his worries even for one moment.

She had finished working and was already setting the table when Jaejoong walked into the kitchen.

"What are you doing?" Jaejoong slowly asked.

"Preparing breakfast," she answered.

Jaejoong slowly walked up to Lena. Then he lovingly embraced her from behind.

"I should be the one doing all the cooking. I'm the one who's supposed to be taking care of you," he said sweetly.

Lena couldn't help but smile. "You're so sweet, Jaejoong. But I also want to take care of you too. I also want to do things for you. I want to make you happy."

Jaejoong slowly turned Lena around to face him. "You don't have to do things just to make me happy. Having you near me is enough to make me overflowing with joy."

Lena stared straight into his eyes. "Are you really happy Jaejoong?" she asked seriously.

Jaejoong tried to put on a smile. "Of course, why do you ask such a silly question?"

Lena smiled bitterly. "You can't hide your true feelings. Your eyes can't lie. Even since we were young, I can easily tell what your feeling through your eyes."

Jaejoong felt like a little boy suddenly caught with his crime. He slowly lowered his head as if ashamed of what he had done.

Lena slowly touched Jaejoong's face. And then she cupped his face with her hands.

"Do you know when you're sad . . . I am sad too. And when you're hurt . . . I am hurt too? What's wrong Jaejoong? Tell me what's on your mind?"

Jaejoong looked straight into Lena's eyes. Somehow he wanted to tell her everything. But a voice inside him was preventing him and was telling him to just keep quiet. He didn't want to give her any problems or worries. He wanted to just stay happy and contented in their new life together.

"Nothing . . . nothing's wrong. What makes you think that something is wrong?" he asked nervously.

Lena just smiled bitterly and shook her head in disappointment. She was somehow hurt that Jaejoong still wouldn't tell her the truth. Her hands that was holding Jaejoong's face suddenly lost all its strength and just fell down.

Jaejoong immediately noticed the hurt look on Lena's face. He hurriedly drew her closer and embraced her tightly.

"I'm sorry . . . Please forgive me," he uttered.

"Forgive you . . . for what reason?" she slowly asked.

"I . . .I . . ." he started to say when . . . .

A loud crashing sound was heard . . . .

"What was that?" Lena asked worriedly.

"I think it came from the living room," Jaejoong answered.

Hurriedly, Jaejoong and Lena went to the living room. Shock and fear suddenly entered their hearts as soon as they entered the room.

Lying unconscious on the floor were three of the men that were guarding them . . . and standing infront of them were several men . . . and a very familiar figure.

"Hello Lena . . . I've come to fetch you my dear," the old woman uttered.

Lena was about to turn back when two men suddenly appeared out of nowhere and immediately held her arms. She tried to break free but the men just tightened their grip on her.

Jaejoong saw the men who immediately grabbed Lena. He was about to help her when three large men suddenly blocked his way. One of the men instantly punched him straight in the face. Then the other men gave him a strong punch in his stomach. And the last man suddenly gave him a strong blow on his back.

"No! Please stop!" Lena suddenly screamed.

Jaejoong immediately fell down on his knees. Blood was oozing from his mouth.

Then one of the men suddenly picked Jaejoong up and started to punch him over and over again. Jaejoong tried to fight, but the men were larger and were much stronger than him.

The three men continuously gave Jaejoong different punches on different parts of his body. His face was already swollen and full of blood.

"No . . . please don't hurt him," Lena continuously begged.

She tried to break free, but couldn't. So she just cried as she watched Jaejoong being beaten to death.

Jaejoong was already very weak. He was already lying on the floor, but the men still continued to kick him over and over again.

Lena screamed. She couldn't take the pain anymore. She gathered all her strength and tried to break free again. This time she was able to set herself free. She immediately went to Jaejoong's side.

One of the men was about to kick Jaejoong, so Lena hurriedly embraced Jaejoong as if to shield him from the attack. She wanted to protect him. She didn't care whether she was going to be hurt or not. All she could think about was she needed to protect Jaejoong as much as she could.

The man who was about to hurt Jaejoong suddenly stopped. He didn't want to hurt Lena. They had strict instructions to never hurt her in anyway.

"Lena . . . get away from me. They might hurt you as well. Please . . ." Jaejoong slowly uttered as he tried to get up.

"No! I will always stay beside you. No matter what happens," Lena replied.

Lena carefully helped Jaejoong to stand up.

"Get away from her Lena," the old woman said.

"No! Please Mother . . . stop this," Lena begged again.

"Do you really think that I would let that man get away so easily? He has to suffer first," the old woman said.

Jaejoong tried to get Lena behind him. He was very concerned that she was going to get hurt if she continued to get in between him and the men who were hurting him.

"How . . . how did you find us?" Jaejoong asked Daichi's mother as he tried to control the pain he was feeling.

The old woman suddenly laughed. "Ah . . .yes! I should thank you for giving out your location. You basically told us where you were when you called your friends using your phone. Not a very clever move. And I actually thought you were smart. I guess I was wrong."

Jaejoong suddenly looked at Lena. He immediately became afraid of what she was going to say.

"Lena . . .I'm sorry . . .Please understand! I needed to call them. I was so worried . . ." Jaejoong tried to explain.

Lena just shook her head, then smiled. "It's all right. I understand. You don't have to explain."

"Lena . . ." Jaejoong uttered as he was about to say something else.

"Enough with your sweet talks! Lena . . . let's go," the old woman shouted.

"No! Please Mother, can't you understand? I don't love Daichi . . . and Jaejoong is the only man that I will ever love. I've already slept with Jaejoong . . . I'm no longer suited to be Daichi's wife. Please . . . I'm begging you. Please let me go," Lena said.

"But Lena . . . Daichi loves you. I've never seen him give so much to a girl before. That is how I knew how much you mean to him. He's always been the type to play around and leave the girls he's been with . . . without any reason. But with you . . . he's changed. totally changed. What does that Jaejoong have that my son doesn't? Why can't you just forget him and leave him?" the old woman said.

"Mother . . . I've loved Jaejoong since I was young. He's the only man I've been dreaming of since I was young," Lena replied.

"I'm sorry. But I can't let you be with him. You belong with my son and not that useless man," Daichi's mother said.

"No . . .I won't leave him! I love him! I want to be with him!" Lena shouted.

Daichi's mother smiled devilishly. "Take Lena away from that man," she instructed some of the men in the room.

Jaejoong tried to block the men who were trying to get Lena. But one of the men instantly gave him a punch on his stomach. He immediately cried out in pain.

"Jaejoong," Lena uttered.

Two men hurriedly took Lena away from Jaejoong.

"No, please . . . let me go," Lena screamed.

"Give that Jaejoong a lesson . . . a lesson he will never forget" the old man said to the men in the room.

Four men immediately drew in closer to Jaejoong. Two of the men her him by his arms, while the other two kept on punching him.

Lena cried uncontrollably as she watched in horror. "Please let us go . . . Stop hurting Jaejoong please," she continuously begged.

Jaejoong felt like his entire body was already getting numb. But he didn't care about the physical pain that he was experiencing. All he cared about was Lena. Somehow he couldn't stand seeing her crying so uncontrollably. He was more concerned about her than himself.

"Lena, please don't cry. Don't worry about me. I'm all right. . . I can take this," Jaejoong tried to utter.

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37 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 24th June 2009, 8:58 pm

CHAPTER 35 Part 2

Lena suddenly bit her lower lip as she tried to control herself. She could feel that her heart was already very heavy and she was somehow running out of air. She felt like she couldn't take seeing Jaejoong suffer anymore. She felt like she was going to lose her sanity any minute, if she continued to see him in so much pain.

Then one of the men suddenly appeared with a baseball bat. He immediately went straight to Jaejoong and gave him a strong blow to his back.

"Aaaaahhhh . . ." Jaejoong cried out in pain. He felt like he was about to fall down, but the men who were holding him still kept him standing.

Lena just watched in total horror. Her entire mind was already spinning. She was trying to think of a way to help him. How she wished she could help him . . . and comfort him. She could see that Jaejoong was already in so much pain.

"Please leave him alone," she uttered as tears fell down her face.

Then Lena noticed that the man holding the baseball bat was looking at Jaejoong's legs. Somehow she immediately sensed that the man was going to hit Jaejoong's legs next. Her mind started to think. She knew she needed to help him. Jaejoong had a knee surgery before and it would be totally bad for him, if he was to be hit on his legs.

The man was already making a move. He was smiling devilishly, as if he was having a good time making Jaejoong suffer. He had already raised his bat again and was about to hit Jaejoong when . . . .

Lena pulled herself free from the men who were holding her. And then she immediately rushed to where Jaejoong was. Without any concern about herself, she then blocked the bat that was about to hit Jaejoong's legs. The man was suddenly taken by surprise by what Lena had done. He tried to control his hands, but it was already too late. He had already hit Lena on her back.

Lena cried out in pain. Blood immediately rushed out of her mouth. Then she suddenly fell down on her knees.

Jaejoong couldn't believe what he was seeing. "Lena!" he cried out. Slowly tears started falling down his eyes.

During the time that the men were hurting Jaejoong physically, not even a single tear dropped from his eyes. But after he saw Lena being hurt, it was only then his tears appeared. He didn't care about how much pain they inflict on him, but what he couldn't take was seeing the only woman he loved suffer.

Lena stared back at Jaejoong. Her heart was somehow crushed as she saw him crying for her. Jaejoong's beautiful face was already ruined and his entire body was already covered with blood and bruises.

Lena's heart and soul was already crying out in pain, not for herself but for Jaejoong. She wanted everything to stop already. She then slowly looked at Daichi's mother.

"Look at you dear . . . You're not supposed to get hurt . . . Why do you have to be so stubborn? why do you have to sacrifice yourself for that man," the old woman said with pity in her eyes.

"Enough please! I can't take it anymore. I'll go with you . . . I'll do everything you want . . . Just let Jaejoong go . . .please," Lena tried to utter. She was trying to ignore the physical pain that she was feeling.

The old woman stared at Lena seriously. "Do I have your word?"

Lena nodded. "Yes, I'll do anything you want . . .I'll go with you . . . I'll leave him . . . I'll never try to see him ever again . . ." she suddenly stopped talking. She was already crying uncontrollably. "I will even kill myself . . . if you ask me to . . . just leave him alone."

"Lena, what are you saying? Please don't leave me. I . . . I can't live without you," Jaejoong uttered.

Lena stared at Jaejoong. Tears were continuously flowing from his eyes.

"Jaejoong . . . we can't do this anymore. Too many people are already getting involved. I know eventhough you're not saying anything . . . you're still hurting because of what is happening to your friends and family. I can't bear to see you suffer anymore. So we should stop here," Lena uttered sadly.

"No . . . I love you . . . I love you . . . That is all that matters to me," Jaejoong shouted.

Lena shook her head. Then she faced the old woman again. "I promise . . .I'll do everything you want. I'll marry Daichi. In exchange, leave Jaejoong alone and fix all the problems regarding his group and return the jobs that his family members lost. I know you're the one responsible for all of it."

The old woman smiled. "Clever girl! All right! I promise, I'll leave your precious man alone and arrange everything back to the way it used to be. But make sure you keep your promise as well."

Lena nodded.

"No! No! No!" Jaejoong continuously screamed. He couldn't accept what he was hearing.

Lena looked at Jaejoong as tears continued to fall down her eyes. She really didn't want to leave him. But she knew it was the only way to save him.

"Mother . . . can you please give us some time alone? Please . . . please . . . I want to say goodbye to him . . ." Lena begged.

Somehow the old woman's heart softened. "Very well. I'll be waiting for you in the car outside. I hope you keep your promise. Don't try to run away or else worst things might happen."

Lena smiled bitterly."Don't worry. I won't run away. I'll keep my promise. I just want to have some time alone with him . . . before I go."

The old woman stared at Lena. Then she looked at Jaejoong. "Let him go," she uttered to the men who were holding Jaejoong.

The men immediately released Jaejoong. He was already very weak that he just fell down on his knees.

"Let's go . . ." the old woman said to her men.

Within minutes, Lena and Jaejoong were finally left alone.

Lena immediately went to Jaejoong's side.

"I'm sorry . . ." she quickly uttered as tears fell from her eyes. She then pulled out a handkerchief from her pocket and started to wipe away the blood that was oozing from Jaejoong's wounds. But Jaejoong suddenly grabbed her hand and stopped her from what she was doing.

"Why? Why did you do it? I thought you said you loved me . . . so why are you leaving me?" Jaejoong asked as he stared straight into Lena's eyes.

"I can't stand seeing you suffer anymore, Jaejoong. I've been watching you these passed few days. I know . . . you're very worried about your friends and family. And . . . and after I heard the phone calls you made to them . . . it was only then I started to realize that what we did was really wrong. I'm sorry . . . for ruining your life," Lena uttered in between sobs.

"How . . . how did you know about the calls I made yesterday?" Jaejoong asked as if confused.

"I'm sorry . . . but I've been observing you using the cameras installed in the house," Lena confessed. "And I heard everything about your phone calls to Micky, Max and your mother with the use of the wiretapping device they installed on our phones."

"Lena . . . we can still get away. Let's run away again," Jaejoong said as he held Lena's hard. Somehow he was losing sanity and he couldn't think straight.

Lena slowly shook her head. "No, Jaejoong. This is where we've got to stop. No matter where we go, they will still find us. And while we are hiding, we'll be making a lot of innocent people unhappy. I don't want that kind of burden on you . . . So let's just stop . . . and say goodbye now," she said sadly.

"Don't you love me anymore?" Jaejoong asked. He was hurting so badly, that he had released Lena's hand.

Lena looked straight into Jaejoong's eyes. "Look at me . . . Jaejoong," she said as she suddenly cupped his face with her hands. "Always remember . . . I love you . . . I will always have you in my heart. No matter where I go . . . no matter whom I'm with . . . you will be the only one in my mind, in my heart and in my soul."

Jaejoong suddenly embraced Lena. "I don't think I can live without you. What am I supposed to do when I am missing you? What am I supposed to do when I want to see you and talk to you? I'll go crazy without you, Lena. Please don't leave me," he begged.

Lena bit her lower lip to stop herself from crying out loud. Somehow she couldn't bear the kind of pain that Jaejoong's words were giving her.

"Sooner or later . . .you'll learn to forget me, Jaejoong. A girl . . . more worthy of your love will come your way. You will fall in love again . . . and you will forget me," she said as tears raced down her cheeks. Her own words were like thorns being stuck into her heart. The pain she was feeling was making her mind spin.

Jaejoong tightened his embrace. "No! I will never fall in love with someone else. If you leave me . . . I will never open my heart to someone else . . . ever again. You are the only one in my heart and that is the way it will stay . . . forever."

Lena sobbed. "God Jaejoong! It's so painful . . . but there's no other way. We've got to let go of each other. We've got to accept this. We don't belong with each other . . . ."

"No! I love you . . . I can't live without you. Before, I was afraid to love you . . . but you gave me strength to open myself and my heart. Before, I knew how to live without you . . . but after I experienced living my life with you . . . now I'm not so sure if I can ever live without you. You're my love . . . you're my life . . . you're like the air that keeps me alive . . . Without you, I won't be able to last a day. You say . . . another girl wil come my way and I will fall in love again. Well I say . . . no matter who comes along . . . I wil always stay in love with you," Jaejoong uttered.

Lena couldn't take the pain of hearing Jaejoong's words. She slowly broke free from Jaejoong's embrace. Then she stared at his face . . . one last time. She wanted to remember him forever.

"Goodbye . . .Jaejoong," she slowly uttered. Then she slowly kissed him for the very last time.

As their lips met, their tears started to fall continuously. They kissed each other with so much love and passion . . . while their hearts were slowly bleeding.

Lena suddenly stopped kissing Jaejoong. Then she drew herself away from him.

"Lena!" Jaejoong cried out.

Slowly Lena tried to stand up. "Goodbye, Jaejoong . . . Take care of yourself . . . Always remember I won't forget you . . . Goodbye," she said as she stood before him.

Jaejoong suddenly grabbed Lena by her waist, and then he embraced her while he was still kneeling down.

"Don't leave me! I beg you! Please I love you! I love you!" Jaejoong continuously cried out.

Lena cried uncontrollably. Then she slowly tried to set herself free from Jaejoong's embrace.

Jaejoong looked up at Lena with tears in his eyes. "Don't leave me!" he uttered.

Lena slowly shook her head. "I'm sorry, but we've got to say goodbye . . ." then she slowly turned and started to walk away from Jaejoong.

"Goodbye . . .Jaejoong . . . I love you . . . That's why I am doing this . . . It's all because I love you," Lena uttered before she finally left the room.

Jaejoong just stared at the door where Lena disappeared. Somehow everything was just like a dream. He couldn't believe that Lena had left him. He couldn't accept that she no longer belonged to him.

"Aaaaaaahhhhhh!!!" Jaejoong screamed. He wanted to get all the pain out of his heart. He then started to cry uncontrollably.

"Lena . . ." he uttered continuously as his heart was slowly dying.

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38 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 24th June 2009, 8:59 pm

CHAPTER 36


Night time . . . .

A knock on the door suddenly attracted the DBSK boy's attention.

"Who could it be?" Max asked as he hurriedly opened the door, while the others followed him.

As soon as the door opened. Xiah, Micky, U-Know and Max were immediately shocked by what they saw.

"Hyung!!!" Max exclaimed.

Jaejoong was standing infront of them. His whole face was swollen and his arms had cuts and bruises. He was staring blankly at his friends. An old man was standing beside him and was holding him.

"Who are you? What happened to Jaejoong?" Micky asked the old man.

"He was beaten by the men who were following us," the old man replied.

Hurriedly . . . the other boys helped Jaejoong into the apartment. They were all very concerned about him. They carefully placed him on his bed. While he just stared blankly . . . at them. It was as if he wasn't himself. Somehow his mind and soul were somewhere else.

The old man and the other DBSK boys silently left Jaejoong's room. They wanted to give him some time alone. They all went to the living room, and there the boys started to ask the old man.

"What happened to Jaejoong? And where is Lena?" Micky asjed worriedly.

The old man just shook his head. "Jaejoong called you guys, didn't he? That's how the men who were chasing us was able to find out where we were . . . They arrived early in the morning. They took care of me and all of my men. Then they went after Jaejoong. Frankly me and my men were all unconscious when they confronted Jaejoong. And as you can see, he is badly beaten. I was only able to watch everything that occurred because of the camera that was installed in the room where everything that happened. Daichi's mother was able to find us . . . and she brought so many men with her that it was very easy for her to put us all down. Her men beated Jaejoong, over and over again. They even made a mistake of hitting Lena with a bat," the old man narrated slowly.

"Lena was beaten with a bat?" Micky asked angrily. He couldn't believe what he was hearing. "How is she? Where is she?"

"Lena willingly left with Daichi's mother. It was the only way she could save your friend," the old man answered. "Here take this . . . It's the video of everything that happened. Your friend still can't accept that Lena left him. I know there is a big possibility that he's angry with her. But please try to make him understand that if Lena didn't do what she did. He might be dead by now. So he should still be thankful. . . Try to help your friend . . . Frankly I don't want to say this. From now on, try to help your friend to forget Lena. She's someone he can never have in this lifetime. I should be going now. I still have my own men to take care of," the old man said.

The four DBSK boys just nodded. Then the old man silently left the apartment.

"Should we watch this?" Micky asked the others as he looked at the CD that he was holding.

"We should know everything, Micky. So we can help hyung," Max uttered.

Micky just nodded. Max was right. They needed to know what happened to their hand.

Minutes later . . . .

The four DBSK boys all watched in horror everything that happened to Jaejoong that morning. Their hearts were somehow being crushed and torn into pieces as they heard all the pitiful cries that Lena made.

They all felt that they somehow couldn't take what they are seeing . . . . It was such a horrible sight for all of them, especially when they saw Lena being hit by a baseball bat. It was like they all wanted to scream and shout . . . just like what Jaejoong was doing at that time.

They all continued to watch . . . until the very end. When Lena was already saying goodbye to Jaejoong. They all felt the pain that Jaejoong and Lena was feeling. Somehow they couldn't understand why such an extraordinary love have to end.

After watching, tears were all in the boys' eyes. They couldn't help but cry for their friend and Lena. . . . Such a beautiful love story suddenly turned inot such an unhappy ending.

"What do we do now?" Max asked.

"Just like the old man said. There's nothing else we can do . . . but help him . . . help him to forget Lena," Xiah answered.

"Do you really think that he would actually forget Lena that easily?" Micky asked.

"I know it won't be easy . . . but we've got to try . . . for his sake," Xiah answered again.

"I wonder . . . if Lena's all right . . . that blow she received was quite strong. She even coughed out blood," Max uttered.

"I know Daichi's mother will surely take care of her. Don't worry, she'll be fine. The one who we should be worried be about is Jaejoong. He's totally lost himself," U-Know said seriously.

Xiah and Max looked at the direction of Jaejoong's room. U-Know was right. Jaejoong was totally not himself. He had no reaction and just kept on staring blankly at everything and everyone.

The four DBSK boys suddenly felt so helpless. They wanted to help their friend, but there was nothing they could do. They knew what Jaejoong was going through was quite tough. They couldn't even try to imagine themselves being in the same situation that he was in.

Morning came . . . .

Jaejoong slowly opened his eyes. He immediately looked at the other side of the bed. Somehow he was expecting to see Lena still sleeping beside him.

But . . . no one was there.

"Where am I?" he uttered as if confused.

He then got up and started to look around. He was in his room back in their apartment. Somehow his head started to ache.

"How did I get here?" he asked again.

Jaejoong tried to think very hard what was going on. Somehow he couldn't remember how he was able to return to their apartment. All he could remember was . . . Lena.

"Lena . . . Lena . . . I've got to find her. I've got to bring her back," he uttered. He then slowly got out of bed, and went out of his room.

The other DBSK boys were already in the living room watching a show.

"Hyung . . . you're up all ready?" Max asked worriedly.

"You shouldn't be moving around. Go back to bed and rest," U-Know uttered.

Jaejoong shook his head. "No! I've got to find Lena."

Xiah, Micky, Max and U-Know exchanged glances with one another. U-Know and Micky quickly stood up and walked towards Jaejoong.

"Go back to bed. You're still very weak. Look at yourself. Have you seen your face? Try looking at a mirror . . . you wouldn't even recognize your own face. You can't possibly go out looking like that," Micky said.

Jaejoong looked at Micky. "How did I get here?" he suddenly asked.

"An old man brought you here. He said that he was the one protecting you and Lena these passed few days," U-Know answered.

Jaejoong smiled bitterly. "Yes, the old man. Was he beaten too?" he asked with concern in his eyes.

Micky just nodded. "He also said that you should rest . . ."

"I've got to find Lena. I know she's hurt. I can feel it. I know something's wrong. I've got to find her," Jaejoong uttered.

U-Know suddenly shook his head. "Let it go, Jaejoong. She's already left you. Even if you find her . . . there is no guarantee that you will see her or even talk to her. She's probably in a well guarded place right now . . . Just let it go . . . Try to forget her . . . for your sake."

"No! I love her and I promised her that I will never leave her. I've got to find her. I need her! She's my life! I can't live without her," Jaejoong uttered.

The other DBSK boys felt like their hearts were being pricked with thorns. They all pitied their friend. How they wished that all the pain and suffering he was experiencing would all go away.

"Hyung . . . she loves you very much . . . That's why she decided to leve you. Please try to respect her decision," Max uttered slowly.

"And besides, Daichi's mother is quite ruthless. you can't possibly fight against her. She's too powerful," Xiah added.

Jaejoong suddenly felt very weak. Daichi's mother was really too powerful. She was rich and had many men that followed her every command.

Feeling totally beaten, Jaejoong leaned against a wall. His gaze was straight at the floor he was standing on.

"I'm totally useless," Jaejoong said bitterly.

"Hyung . . ." Max uttered.

"I can't even protect the woman that I love," Jaejoong said as tears started to fall from his eyes.

"Maybe the two of you aren't really meant to be together . . . So just forget her," Xiah uttered.

Jaejoong looked at Xiah with tears in his eyes. "Yes, I know don't deserve her. I am just a stupid useless guy with a pretty face and knows nothing but to sing. I've already told myself that . . . a million times already. But my heart still longs for her. Can you guys tell me . . . how I can forget her? She's inside me . . . in my head . . . in my heart . . . in my soul. So tell me how am I supposed to forget her?" Jaejoong asked.

Xiah felt that there was a huge lump in his throat. Somehow he didn't know what to say.

Slowly Jaejoong fell down on his knees. "I would trade everything I have just to have her back. That is how much I love her. . . But I know it's over. I lost! But the pain I am feeling is too maddening. I think I'm going crazy with the pain in my heart. Do you guys know what kind of pain I am going through? How I wished I could just die right now . . . so all the pain would go away. I can't forget her . . . I will never forget her. So please stop telling me to just try to forget her . . . Because I will never be able to do that! I love her and that is the way it is will always be," he uttered as tears continuously flowed down his face.

The other DBSK boys just silently watched as their friend cried uncontrollably. How they pitied him. They were all wishing that there would be a time that all their friend's suffering would eventually end.

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39 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 24th June 2009, 8:59 pm

CHAPTER 37

At Daichi's home . . . .

"Mother! What have you done?" Daichi shouted angrily as he threw the wine glass he was
holding in front of him.

The wine glass immediately shattered into tiny pieces and scattered all over the floor between him and his mother.

"I did it all just for you, Daichi. I know how much you love Lena. You're just too kind to take her away from that Jaejoong. So I decided to do it for you," the old woman answered.

"Mother . . . are you really going out of your mind? I'm beginning to think you're already
obsessing with this marriage thing," Daichi said angrily.

"Daichi! How could you talk to me in such a harsh manner?" the old woman angrily shouted as
well.

"Mother, I love you. But because of what you did . . . I'm starting to lose my respect for you.
How could you do such a cruel thing to Jaejoong and Lena? You almost beated Jaejoong to death and . . . and even Lena," Daichi said as he shook his head as if to wake himself up from the nightmare he was
experiencing.

"I didn't do it. . . My men did. And as for Lena, she wasn't supposed to get hurt. But she
interfered, so she was accidentally hit as well," the old woman replied as if everything she had done was normal for her.

Daichi angrily glanced at his mother. At that exact moment, he couldn't stop himself from
thinking that his own mother had suddenly turned into a monster.

"Mother . . . do you even realize what you've done? Lena doesn't love me! That's why I released
her! I wanted her to be happy with the man she really loved. And that man is Jaejoong, not me!" Daichi said angrily.

"Jaejoong? That man is nothing! He doesn't deserve Lena," the old woman uttered.

"What now? Are you happy now, Mother? Are you happy now . . . that you've finally succeeded
in getting even with Jaejoong? Are you happy now . . .that you've finally succeeded in getting Lena back?" Daichi asked while he tried to control his emotions. "Are you happy now . . . that Lena is still unconscious? Are you happy now . . . that Lena is in danger?" he slowly uttered as tears fell down his eyes.

"Daichi . . . it was an accident . . . What happened was just an accident. She wasn't supposed to
get hurt. Believe me, I had no intention of hurting her," the old woman slowly uttered.

"Why don't you just kill me, Mother? If you're doing all of this just for me . . . then just kill me.
So all of this would end. I don't want this! I don't want Lena to be hurt over and over again. I want her to be happy. Can't you even try to understand that? What's the use of having her with me . . . when I already know that her heart is somewhere else? Mother, I'm begging you. . . Please stop forcing Lena to marry me. Just let her go," Daichi slowly uttered.

Daichi's mother slowly looked at her son. Somehow she could feel the pain that her son was
feeling. Then she slowly lowered her head.

"I only did it for you," the old woman uttered.

"Mother . . . Lena is still unconscious. Maybe it is caused by the blow that she received
yesterday. Have you even thought about what would happen once her parents . . . her entire clan . . . knows about her condition? Aren't you even one bit afraid of what would happen . . .of what they would do?" Daichi asked her mother worriedly.

The old woman's cold expression softened. "She wasn't supposed to get hurt. It was all
an accident," she continuously uttered.

"Mother, you know very well that Lena's family is richer and more powerful than us. They can
easily shut down all our businesses in one night. . . if they wanted to. How could you possibly do such a foolish act without even thinking of the consequences that may arise," Daichi slowly said with concern.

"We just have to take care of Lena. . . until she finally wakes up. No one needs to know about
her condition. We can just keep her until . . . until she well again," the old woman said as she tried to brush away the fears that she was having.

Daichi suddenly shook his head in disbelief. "Mother, how can you even think of such an idea.
That's totally absurd."

"Then what do you suggest we do? If we tell Lena's parents about what happened to her, they
will surely blame me. And they may even file a case against me. Would you like your mother to go to
prison?" the old woman said with a raised voice.

Daichi's head was spinning. And somehow he felt like it was going to explode any minute. He
wanted to help Lena, but he couldn't possibly let his mother down. He felt so torn between doing the right thing and the obviously wrong one.

Daichi sighed heavily. "For now Mother . . . first, I want you to leave Japan as soon as possible.
If things get out of hand and Lena's family suddenly learns the truth, at least you would be safe in another country."

The old woman nodded. "Yes, I was also thinking of the same thing. But what about
Lena? who's going to take care of her?" she suddenly asked. It was very obvious that she truly cared about her.

"Don't worry, Mother. I'll take care of Lena. Just follow what I said. Leave Japan," Daichi
uttered.

"Fine, I'll leave Japan as soon as I finish putting things back in order," the old woman uttered.

"What do you mean?" Daichi asked curiously.

The old woman suddenly smiled bitterly. "I still have a promise to keep. I promised Lena that I
will arrange all the problems that I made for Jaejoong and his family once she returned with me."

Daichi closed his eyes for a few seconds. He really felt like he was going to lose his
sanity any minute. Somehow he couldn't think straight. He knew his judgment and reasoning were all clouded and were incorrect. Somehow he didn't want to think about the problems that were waiting for them. His heart was telling him to give priority to Lena's condition rather than his mother's situation. But his mind was telling him to do the opposite. He was totally confused on what he should do.

An hour later . . . .

Daichi carefully arranged the bedsheet that covered Lena. His mother had told him that Lena had been crying continuously from the moment she left Jaejoong up to the time that she arrived at Tokyo. Then she suddenly fainted and that was when his mother immediately called him.

Daichi had called a doctor to examine Lena. And somehow what the doctor said was still playing in his mind.

"I'm sorry, but I can't help her here. She needs to go to a hospital to have a proper examination.
She needs to undergo several examinations first before I can give out a final diagnosis regarding her real condition. But . . . I am already telling you that her situation now is really bad. As of now, there is a huge bruise on her back and a part of her back is swollen. I'm afraid that there is a big possibility that her spinal cord might have been injured during the attack that she received. And if this is the case . . . then there is also the possibility that she may never walk again."

" . . . .she may never walk again . . . she may never walk again . . . she may never walk again . .
." the doctor's words kept on repeating in Daichi's head.

"God! Please don't do this to her," Daichi uttered. Then he sighed heavily. Again he stared at Lena's beautiful face. Somehow his heart was aching as he silently looked at her.

"I'm sorry, Lena. I'm sorry for all the things my mother did. I'm sorry. . . I promise I'll make it up to you. I'll be the one paying for all my mother's sins. I'll take care of you. Whatever it takes . . . I will find a way to help you. Please open your eyes . . .I can't stand seeing you like this. You're breaking my heart, Lena. Please wake up . . . tell me what you want. I'll do everything you ask me to. I'll do everything for you. Please wake up. You have been unconscious for more than 24 hours now. I'm very worried now, Lena. I can't eat . . . I can't drink . . . I can't stop thinking about you," slowly tears fell down Daichi's face. "You can open your eyes now, Lena. Mother has already left Japan. She will be gone for a very long time . . . You don't have to be afraid anymore. Please wake up. I'm already going crazy, Lena. Please . . . please . . . open your eyes and look at me!"

The next day . . .

"Daichi . . ." a voice weakly uttered.

Daichi slowly opened his eyes. He was sleeping on a chair near Lena's bed. He immediately
looked at Lena.

"Lena . . ." he uttered as he hurriedly went to her side.

"Daichi, what happened? Where am I?" she asked softly.

"Everything is fine now, Lena. You're in a mansion I rented . . . You'll be safe here. And besides
Mother has already left Japan. She was so scared with what happened to you. You were unconscious for
more than a day. You really scared me too . . . do you know that?" Daichi uttered with a smile.

"I'm sorry . . .if I scared you. But why did your mother leave Japan?" Lena asked curiously.

"She was so afraid of what your family might do to her if they found out that you got hurt. She
knew it was her fault . . ." he answered.

"So she's gone?" Lena asked again.

Daichi nodded. "Yes, so you don't have to be afraid anymore.”

Lena was about to smile when she suddenly remembered someone. "What about Jaejoong? Do
you know what happened to him? He was beaten badly. How is he?" she asked worriedly.

Daichi tried to smile. "He's already returned to his apartment . . . And don't worry about the
problems my mother caused . . . She already fixed everything before she left."

Lena smiled happily. "That's good. I'm glad that Jaejoong's problems are finally solved."

Daichi slowly caressed Lena's face. "I'm also very happy that you're finally awake. I was really
planning to bring you to the hospital, if you still didn't wake up by tomorrow morning. Lena . . . I'm sorry if I just kept you here. I couldn't bring you to a hospital . . .because I was afraid that your parents might suddenly find out what happened to you. I'm sorry . . . I'm really sorry."

Lena smiled. "Don't worry. I understand. I know you're also thinking about your mother's
situation. Frankly I'm also glad that you didn't bring me to a hospital. Because I also don't want my parents to be worried about me. And I certainly don't want them to get involved in this mess that I am in," then she suddenly laughed lightly. "Believe me . . . I wouldn't want my father to get involved in this situation. My father is ten times more ruthless than your mother . . ."

Daichi laughed as well. "Thank you . . . Thank you for understanding. You're truly a very
extraordinary woman."

"Oh! Stop with the flattering . . .I'm hungry," Lena said with a smile.

"What would you like to eat?" Daichi asked sweetly.

"Anything . . . I'm starving!" she answered cheerfully.

Daichi immediately turned and was about to leave the room when . . . .

"Daichi . . . I just noticed something . . . Why can't I move my legs? And why is half of my body
numb?" Lena asked innocently.

Daichi suddenly turned around to face Lena, with horror in his eyes. And at that exact moment,
he felt that his heart had totally stopped beating . . . and his whole world had turned black.

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40 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 24th June 2009, 9:00 pm

CHAPTER 38


The next day Jaejoong went out of his room. It was already 7 in the morning. He knew he
needed to prepare breakfast. He was still not feeling well, but he needed to do something just to stop himself from thinking about Lena. Eventhough his wounds were already healing . . . his heart was still hurting.

He weakly entered the kitchen. But was quite surprised to see who were already up. All the other DBSK boys were already in the kitchen and were already having breakfast.

"Good morning!" Max greeted.

"You're up already? Sorry if we didn't wake you up to have breakfast with us. We figured that
you might not want to have breakfast yet . . . and would just want to sleep and rest instead," Micky
explained.

"It's okay . . . But why are you guys up so early anyway?" Jaejoong asked curiously.

Xiah, Micky, Max and U-Know suddenly exchanged glances with each other. Somehow they
didn't know if they should tell him the truth.

U-Know stared at Jaejoong seriously. "We're supposed to do a radio interview today at noon,"
he suddenly said.

"A radio interview? How? Oh . . . I remember . . .so Daichi's mother followed Lena's conditions.
So now I'm guessing that my father and sisters have their jobs back. I should be happy right?" Jaejoong tried to put on a fake smile.

"Our manager said that you need to see a doctor. So that your wounds would heal without any
scars, especially those on your face. He also said that he will bring you to a doctor this afternoon after the radio interview," U-Know said slowly.

"So does this mean that I'm not being removed from the our group anymore?" Jaejoong asked
sarcastically.

Xiah slowly shook his head. All of them could sense the unhappiness that their friend was feeling.

Jaejoong suddenly stared at the food infront of him. He then smiled bitterly.

"Lena cooked me a wonderful breakfast . . . and I wasn't able to eat it . . . even one small bite.
And now I don't know how it tasted. She must have spent hours making me those dishes . . . and it just all went to waste. I wonder what kind of food she's having now . . . or maybe she's still sleeping . . . or maybe . . ."

"Hyung . . . stop it! You're just hurting yourself. Stop thinking about her. For your sake and her
sake . . . stop it. Just let her go," Max slowly uttered.

Jaejoong tried to smile. "Don't worry. I'm fine. I can live without her . . . like the way she can live without me. I'm hungry . . .I want to eat," he said as he quickly sat and started to fill a bowl with different kinds of foods.

He had already swallowed a spoonful of food when his tears started to fall. As he continued to
eat, his tears continued to stream down his face.

The other DBSK boys just watched helplessly as their friend tried to eat. How their hearts ached
as they watched his tears slowly fall.

A week passed . . . .

All of Jaejoong's wounds had already healed perfectly well. No one could even tell that he had
been beaten badly just a few days passed. His total appearance was back to normal.

All of the DBSK boys' activities have been resumed and all of the reports and rumors about their group being disbanded were finally cleared out. They were all back to their normal busy schedule.

But despite of all the work that was keeping the DBSK boys busy . . . there were still times that
Jaejoong couldn't stop himself from thinking about Lena.

He was still wondering how she was doing . . . where she was . . . and if she was thinking of him too.

How his heart ached everytime he remembered her. How he wished that all his feelings would
just go away. He wanted to be free of the pain. He wanted to forget. He wanted to let go . . . But his heart was refusing everything that his mind was dictating. He still longed for her.

Every night, he would imagine that he was still holding her. And every morning, he would wake
up hoping to see her lying next to him.

"Where are you Lena? Whatever happened to you? I miss you," Jaejoong uttered as he stared
out of the window in his room.

In another part of Tokyo . . . .

"Lena, you should be resting. What are you looking at anyway?" Daichi asked softly.

Lena smiled. "Nothing. I couldn't sleep. So I decided to just stare at the sky for a while."

"Don't lie. You're thinking about him . . ." Daichi uttered.

Lena suddenly lowered her head. Daichi was right. She was thinking about Jaejoong. She was
wondering if he was thinking of her too. She couldn't stop herself. She was badly missing him.

"It's been a week Lena. He's already appeared in a show. He's back to his usual self again. So
you don't have to worry about him anymore," Daichi uttered.

"I know . . . I already watched that he was in," she replied. "I'm glad that he's already moved on."

"Lena . . . you don't have to be worried anymore. You can go back to him again. My mother has
already learned her lesson. And she already asked for your forgiveness, didn't she? . . . And aside from that, she said that she wasn't going to interfere in your relationship with Jaejoong anymore. So you can go back to him . . . I know you're missing him," Daichi sadly uttered.

Lena slowly shook her head. Then she smiled bitterly. "I can't go back to him anymore . . ." she
said sadly.

"Lena, it's obvious that you're missing him. And I know he's missing you as well," Daichi said.

Lena suddenly looked at Daichi with extreme sadness in her eyes. "Look at me, Daichi. I think
you're forgetting something . . . Even if I wanted to . . . I can't possibly go back to him now."

Daichi stared at Lena. It was only then he realized what was wrong. Lena was sitting on a
wheelchair. Half of her body, from her waist up to her legs was already paralyzed. They had already
consulted several doctors and all of them said the same thing. They couldn't find anything wrong with her physically. Her spinal cord wasn't injured like what the first doctor suspected. So there was no physical cause for her paralysis. They all recommended Lena to be sent to a psychiatrist for further evaluation.

After hearing this, Lena and Daichi went to several psychiatrists to have her examined. Tests
were done and repeated over and over again. Until finally, the doctors concluded that Lena's condition was just caused by a mental condition she was going through.

Daichi asked the doctors how Lena can be cured. And to Daichi's dismay, all of them replied
that Lena's recovery solely depends on her own will to be cured. It may take weeks, months, years and there was also a big possibility that she would no longer recover. The only thing that Daichi and Lena could do was wait.

"Lena . . . I'm sorry . . ." Daichi uttered hopelessly.

Lena smiled. "What are you saying sorry for?"

"For everything that my mother did . . . to you and Jaejoong," Daichi answered.

"Whatever your mother did . . . doesn't have anything to do with you. So you don't have to say
sorry. And just like what you said before, your mother already asked for my forgiveness and I already
forgave her. So there's no need to continuously say sorry. Just stop saying sorry and please stop feeling pity for me . . . I can see what you're feeling through your eyes," Lena slowly uttered.

Daichi suddenly knelt down infront of Lena. "Why are you so kind? Aren't you even bit angry
with my mother? Because of her . . . you might end up staying on a wheelchair all of your life. Because of her . . . you might end up losing the only man that you love."

Lena slowly shook her head. "I love your mother like my own mother. How could I possibly get
angry with her or even hate her? I believe what happened . . . happened for a reason. Maybe Jaejoong and I weren't supposed to be together. . . in the first place. That's why fate is already stepping in and separating us."

Daichi looked at Lena's beautiful face. Despite of the courage she was showing, sadness and fear were hidden in her eyes. "What do you plan to do now? Are you really sure you don't want to see him? I'm sure that he will gladly accept you despite . . . ."

“Despite of the fact that I'm already crippled? No . . . I don't want him to see me like this. I know the moment that he sees me . . . he will just pity me. He will somehow feel responsible for what happened to me. He will surely blame himself. And I don't want him to saty with me just because of guilt. If I enter his life again, I will just ruin everything for him again . . . his life . . . his career . . . his family. He's better off without me. I will only be a burden to him. I know . . . He will eventually learn to forget me. He will surely meet another girl that would be able to give him happiness without any complications. As time goes by . . .both of us will learn to forget each other," Lena said as tears slowly dropped from her eyes, one by one.

"I wish I could take all of your pain away. I wish I could take your place on that wheelchair. I
would gladly do anything . . . just to make you happy," Daichi uttered lovingly.

"Would you really do anything for me?" Lena slowly asked with sadness in her eyes.

"Yes," he answered immediately.

"Then . . . let's leave Japan as soon as possible. I don't want to stay here anymore. Take me
anywhere . . . as long it is far from Jaejoong. I don't want him to see me like this. I want him to live a happy life without me. If I stay here in Japan or in Korea, there's always the possibility of us crossing each other's paths. I don't want to bother him anymore. I've already decided . . . I'm already letting him go," Lena uttered as tears continuously flowed from her eyes.

Daichi suddenly embraced Lena. "Don't worry. I'll take care of you . . .I'll take care of
everything. We'll leave Japan and I'll help you to forget him."

Lena suddenly lost her self-control. She suddenly started to cry uncontrollably in Daichi's arms.
How she wished that she just died after separating with Jaejoong.

"Jaejoong . . . I love you. . . Goodbye . . . Goodbye . . ." she continuously uttered in her mind as
her tears flowed.

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41 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 24th June 2009, 9:00 pm

CHAPTER 39

Two months passed . . . . New York . . . .

"Lena, are you all right? You've been looking quite pale these passed few days. How about we go to the doctor today?" Daichi said worriedly.

Lena tried to smile. She wasn't really feeling well. But she was afraid to tell Daichi because she knew he would be worried. Somehow she didn't want to add more problems on him.

"I'm all right. Don't worry about me," she tried to assure Daichi.

"No, we're going to see a doctor today. I'm not accepting that 'I'm all right' line of yours," Daichi said seriously.

Lena suddenly let out a long sigh. "Very well . . ." she suddenly uttered.

Later in the doctor's office . . .

"Congratulations . . ." the doctor happily greeted.

Lena and Daichi exchanged glances with each other. They were both very confused.

"Congratulations? On what?" Lena asked.

"You're two months pregnant, Lena. You should take care of yourself more carefully starting from today," the doctor said with a big smile on his face.

Somehow Lena felt that her whole world started spinning.

"How can I be pregnant? What about my condition? Will my condition have any effect on the child that I am carrying?" Lena asked worriedly.

The doctor lightly laughed. "Don't worry. Your physical condition won't have any negative effect on the baby you're carrying. But I'm already telling you that you will have to undergo caesarian operation to deliver the baby. You won't be able to do it normally."

Lena sadly stared at Daichi. He had been silently looking at her, after hearing what the doctor said.

"Daichi . . ." she uttered as if asking his forgiveness.

An hour later . . . .

Lena and Daichi quietly left the doctor's office and went back to their home in total silence.

Lena didn't even dare to start a conversation with Daichi. She was very afraid of what he was going to say. She knew taking care of her was already very tiring for him. . . . and now with her new condition. She was surely going to add more burden on him. Somehow she pitied him. She knew she was already hurting him whenever she talked about Jaejoong, or whenever he caught her thinking about him. And now she was going to make him take care of another man's child. It was total madness. Their whole situation would drive a normal guy crazy, but Daichi tried to accept everything and bear all the pain without any complaint.

As soon as Lena and Daichi arrived home, Daichi immediately decided that both of them needed to talk.

"Lena . . . ." Daichi uttered.

Lena was looking out of the window again as if thinking of something. She slowly stared at Daichi after hearing him say her name.

Daichi walked up to Lena, then knelt down in front of her. He stared at Lena for a few minutes before finally saying what was on his mind.

"Lena . . . what are we going to do now? Aren't you going to tell Jaejoong about the child?" he asked.

Lena smiled bitterly, then she slowly shook her head. "What's the use of telling him? Both me and the child would only be a burden to him . . . I can't even dare to imagine what would happen if a news about us broke out. Imagine . . . a famous band member with a crippled and pregnant girlfriend. That would be totally embarrassing for him."

"Can you please stop thinking about his image as a singer and start thinking about him as a man . . . a man who loves you. You're always deciding on your own. . . . on what's good for him or for both of you. You don't let him express his own opinions on the things that you do. For example, after learning half of your body is paralyzed, you just decide on your own that you shouldn't tell him. That he would be better off without you. And now . . . now that you're pregnant with his child, you're deciding on your own again. That child doesn't belong to you alone. . . . it also belongs to Jaejoong. He's the father so he has a right to know," Daichi said seriously.

"Daichi . . . I'm not taking away his right with the child. It's just that I'm quite confused and scared. If he knew about my real condition . . . will he still love me? Will he still accept me? And if he learns about our baby . . . will he accept the child? Or will he just be responsible for the child and not for me? There are a lot of questions racing in my head . . . questions I'm afraid to answer," Lena slowly uttered.

Daichi took Lena's hand. "You have to find the answers to your questions, Lena. It is the only way to let yourself be free of all the worries and fears. You can't go on hiding forever. If by chance . . . he doesn't want you back . . . I'm here . . . I'll take care of you . . . you and your child. I'll take care of your baby as if it is my own. No one doesn't even need to know that it isn't my child. Only you and I will know the truth."

"Thank you Daichi. . . I don't know what I would do without you. Thank you for being always by my side . . . for taking care of me. . . for understanding me . . . for always giving me advises . . . I don't think I can even repay your kindness . . . ." Lena sadly uttered.

Daichi smiled. "I'm not expecting anything. I did all these things so I could help you. So you shouldn't think about paying me back, returning my kindness. Because frankly, being able to be with you is already a big reward for me. Just having you near me . . . already makes my life complete. I have you . . . and I will continue to love you without any limitations or conditions."

"Then . . .let's return to Tokyo as soon as possible. You will still be beside me . . . . right?" Lena slowly uttered as if afraid of what Daichi would answer.

Daichi smiled. "Yes, of course. I will always be beside you . . . as long as you need me," then he slowly embraced Lena.

While Lena was in Daichi's arms, her mind was already being filled with so many questions and thoughts.

"How are you Jaejoong? I wonder if you're angry with me . . . Are you also thinking of me? Do I even cross your mind . . . even for a short time? Are you missing me? I miss you so much, Jaejoong. Please wait for me . . . I'll be there soon. We'll be meeting again. I can't wait to see your face again. I want . . . to touch your face . . . to touch your hand . . . to feel your warm embrace . . . I miss you. I'll be with you again. Just wait for me."

Back in Tokyo . . . .

"Hyung, where are you going?" Max asked as Jaejoong suddenly went out of his room, all dressed up.

"Out . . ." Jaejoong replied with a sweet smile on his lips.

Max shook his head. "You're going out again? What if our manager finds out that you've been going out almost every night? He will surely make a big fuss over it."

Jaejoong laughed. "I'm just having fun. And besides I'm not neglecting my responsibilities in the group right? So no harm done. I'll be out until midnight. So don't wait up okay."

"Who are you going out with?" U-Know asked.

"A girl . . . of course," Jaejoong answered with a laugh.

"Seriously . . . who are you going out with?" U-Know asked again.

"Her name is not important," Jaejoong replied.

"Yes, it is. So who is she?" Xiah asked.

"It's Keiko Tanaka, isn't it?" Micky suddenly asked coldly.

Jaejoong stared at Micky. "So what's wrong if she's the girl that I'm dating?"

Keiko is a famous model that he had met before, and who he had met again after Lena left. It was like Keiko was sent to him for a reason.

"Well you know it's a big problem for us to have a relationship with other famous celebrities. And second, well . . . she's a nice girl. Please don't hurt her. She doesn't deserve it," Micky answered.

Jaejoong lightly laughed. "Why would I hurt her?"

Micky stared straight into Jaejoong's eyes. "You should ask yourself that question. Have you looked at yourself in the mirror lately? Frankly you're not the same Jaejoong we knew before. You've totally changed. Ever since Lena left you . . . you've changed. You've become a total playboy. Even your image with the fans have totally changed. Frankly you've already surpassed my playboy image," Micky said as he shook his head in dismay.

Jaejoong smiled. "Don't worry. I really like Keiko. She's quite nice. And I don't have any intention of fooling around with her. As of now, all I can say is I'm just starting to know her better. And besides I've been going out with her for a month now . . ."

"We're not against . . . you dating other girls. It's just that we're concerned for you and the girl's sake. Don't try to rush things. Forgetting someone takes a lot of time . . . .Someone new can sometimes help, or maybe not. It totally depends on the situation," U-Know said seriously.

"Don't worry. I've totally gotten over Lena. That's why I'm starting to move on," Jaejoong said.

"Well, have fun and don't stay out too late," U-Know said with a smile.

Jaejoong smiled back at U-Know. "I'll be going then. . .bye."

As soon as Jaejoong left. Micky suddenly let out a long sigh. "Frankly I don't know what to do with Jaejoong. He's pushing himself too hard. It's quite obvious that he hasn't gotten over Lena . . ."

"We've got to respect his decision. If he wants to find a new girl . . . then all we can do is be happy for him," U-Know said.

"I just think that it's still too early for hyung to find a new girl. What if . . . Lena suddenly returns to him? What then?" Max voiced out his opinion.

Xiah slowly shook his head. "I'm also thinking the same thing. Frankly I still think that those two will meet again someday. I was kind of hoping that . . . when they do meet again . . . everything will be all right by then."

"We can't really decide for Jaejoong. All we can do is watch him . . . and try to support him," U-Know slowly uttered.

"I just hope he won't regret in the end," Micky uttered.

"Have you guys ever wondered where Lena might be? It's like she's totally disappeared . . . ." Max said with a strange expression on his face.

"The last thing that Jaejoong heard was that she left Japan with Daichi. Even her own parents and Yoora doesn't know what country she went to," U-Know answered.

"Poor Lena . . ." Max uttered.

"I have a feeling she'll be back. But I just hope that she returns soon . . . before it is too late. I
really think Jaejoong is starting to fall for Keiko,” Micky uttered.

Xiah, Max and U-Know just silently nodded their heads. They were all thinking and feeling the same thing. They somehow knew that Lena was going to return to Jaejoong. And how they wished that she arrives soon . . . . before Jaejoong falls in love with another girl.

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42 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 24th June 2009, 9:01 pm

CHAPTER 40

The next morning . . . .

All the DBSK boys were happily having breakfast when Jaejoong suddenly announced
something.

"I hope all of you would be happy for me," he uttered with a sweet smile on his lips.

"Why? What happened?" Xiah asked curiously.

"It's official . . . Keiko and I are a couple now. She finally agreed to be my girlfriend . . . just last night," Jaejoong said happily.

"What?" Xiah, Micky, Max and U-Know all blurted out in total shock.

Jaejoong laughed after seeing his friends' reactions. "Why? What's wrong? Why are you all shocked?"

"Are you really sure about what you're doing? Aren't you rushing things?" U-Know asked
with concern.

Jaejoong laughed again. "Pushing things? No . . . I don't think so. Why? How long am I
supposed to wait until I'm allowed to have someone new in my life?"

"But hyung . . . it's only been two months," Max exclaimed.

"So?" Jaejoong asked with a raised eyebrow. "I thought all of you wanted me to forget Lena already. So now that I've forgotten her . . . why are you guys acting like that?"

"Frankly . . . I was kind of hoping that you would just move on . . . But not totally forget her. I really believe that she would return again . . . And I am really hoping that the two of you could still be together . . . I believe that you two belong with each other," Max uttered seriously.

Xiah, Micky and U-Know all stared at Max. They had never seen him that serious before. And somehow they all could feel his sincerity and concern in his words.

Jaejoong smiled bitterly. His eyes became filled with a certain sadness that the other boys easily noticed. "I'm sorry, Max. But those kind of wishes are just a fantasy now. Lena will never return. If she could . . . she would have already done it a long time ago . . . .And even if by chance, she returns now . . . it is already too late. I've already committed myself to Keiko. I can't easily drop her just because Lena returned. It would be too unfair for her."

Micky suddenly laughed." Unfair? Whatever happened to what you were saying before? You
can't forget Lena. You will never forget her. You can't live without her. You love her and that is the way it will always be . . . Just two months passed and you suddenly forget everything and change? What a nice way to show your undying true love for Lena," he said with sarcasm.

Jaejoong's facial expression hardened. "Are you trying to imply something?"

Micky smiled. "Me? Implying something? Think . . . . I just hope you won't regret in the end," he suddenly said as he stood up and started to walk out of the room.

"Micky . . . are you forgetting . . . she was the one who left me," Jaejoong said.

Micky turned around to face Jaejoong, who was looking seriously at him.

"She left you . . . because she had to. And before I forget . . . like I've told you before . . . if you didn't go after Lena . . . then I would . . . If by chance, she returns . . . I've already telling you I'm going after her. So no hard feelings," Micky said with a cold expression on his face. Then he slowly walked out of the room.

Xiah, Max and U-Know exchanged glances with each other. They were torn between their two friends. Somehow they were totally confused on what they were supposed to do and and say, so they just decided to be silent.

Jaejoong just stared at the unfinished breakfast he was having. Suddenly . . . memories started to rush into his mind.

Totally confused, Jaejoong suddenly stood up and left the room as well. He then went straight to his room. Once inside his room, he sadly stared at the painting that Lena left him.

The painting was still hanging in his room. And eventhough he hated Lena so much for leaving him. He still couldn't find it in his heart to throw away the painting. Somehow it had a very special place in his heart. A place that he was afraid to leave empty.

A week later . . . .

"We're here," Daichi announced happily as they went out of the airport.

"Yes, we're finally here. But Daichi . . .I'm afraid," Lena slowly uttered as she looked at the people who were staring at her. Somehow she could feel and see pity in their eyes.

Daichi slowly squeezed Lena's shoulder as if to give her support. "Don't worry, I'm here. I won't leave you."

"Where are we going now? Where are we going to stay? We can't stay in a hotel. Someone
might recognize me, and tell my parents that I am here in Japan. And I certainly don't want to go to your parents house as well," Lena said worriedly.

"Well, we can stay in your apartment for the mean time, No one would even think that we would stay there," Daichi said.

"But I don't think I already have the courage to face Jaejoong. Give me a few more days please," Lena weakly uttered.

"We can hide in your apartment as long as you want. We don't need to go out. I can just hire someone to do everything for us. So we don't even have to go out, once we're there. So stop worrying," Daichi said with a smile. "And besides the two of you are supposed to meet anyway, let's just allow fate to take its course."

"You're right. But give me . . . even a day to prepare myself . . . please," Lena said again.

Daichi nodded. "Don't worry. It's already 3 in the morning. Jaejoong and his friends are already asleep by now. So no one will see us moving into the apartment."

Lena smiled. "You're right. So let's go . . ." she said with a smile.

An hour later, in Lena's apartment building.

Daichi and Lena got into the building without any problem. And as expected, everything was already quiet in the whole building. Everyone was already sleeping.

The two were already in their apartment unit when Lena suddenly noticed that her small bag was gone. She tried to think where she last saw it.

"Aaaahhh . . . ." she uttered as she finally remembered that she had placed her bag near the door of the apartment while waiting for Daichi to open the door.

Lena rolled her wheelchair out of her apartment. She quickly saw her bag and went near it, to pick it up. She was about to return to her apartment when something caught her attention.

Near the door of the DBSK boys' apartment were two people passionately kissing each other. The guy's face was turned against Lena so she couldn't see who it was.

But Lena's heart was already screaming out a name. She didn't want to believe it. But the man's figure was very familiar to her. No matter how she tried to deny it, she knew that the man standing infront of her . . . kissing another girl was no other than . . . Jaejoong.

Lena immediately covered her mouth to stop herself from making any sound. She didn't want to attract any attention to herself.

As if frozen . . . she continued to watch Jaejoong kissing another woman, while tears fell from her eyes. Somehow she could feel her heart was being shattered into pieces. She felt like she wanted to die right at that moment. She didn't have any reason to live anymore. Jaejoong no longer belonged to her.

"Lena . . . what are you doing there? Why don't you come in already?" Daichi asked as he slowly walked out of the apartment unit, and looked at where Lena's attention was.

Daichi's reaction suddenly hardened as he quickly recognized Jaejoong.

Surprised and shocked . . . Jaejoong immediately turned to see Lena and Daichi staring
straightly at him and Keiko.

"Who are they? Do you know them?" Keiko asked Jaejoong innocently as she looked back
and forth between Jaejoong, Lena and Daichi.

Bewildered, Jaejoong stared at Lena. Tears were in her eyes as her gaze continued to focus on Keiko. He could see the pain in her eyes, which in turn also hurt him as well.

"Lena, let's go inside," Daichi said coldly as he hurriedly pushed Lena's wheelchair into their apartment. And then he angrily closed the door.

Jaejoong's mind totally became blank after seeing Lena again. Somehow he wanted to go after her and talk to her. But he immediately remembered the scene that Lena had seen. He closed his eyes for a few minutes. He felt like his head was going to explode. Different things were running in his head. He couldn't think straight. He was totally confused.

"Jaejoong . . . are you all right?" Keiko asked worriedly.

"Yes, I . . . I . . . I'm sorry but I think you have to go now. I'm sorry I can't take you to your apartment anymore. I just remembered our group has an early appointment," Jaejoong nervously uttered as he tried to lie to Keiko.

Keiko stared at Jaejoong. she knew something was wrong. But she decided to be silent for the mean time.

"It's okay. Bye then," Keiko said with a smile as she lovingly kissed Jaejoong on the lips.

Jaejoong suddenly drew away as soon as Keiko finished kissing him. Somehow he felt
ashamed and nervous. He couldn't quite explain what he was feeling.

As Keiko left the apartment building, questions were continuously repeating in her mind.

"Who was that girl on the wheelchair? And why was Jaejoong so shocked when he saw her?
Why do I have the feeling that she's someone important to Jaejoong?"

Back in the DBSK boys' apartment . . .

Jaejoong silently sat on the couch in the living room. He was staring at the wine glass that he was holding.

She came back . . . .

"Lena . . . Why was she sitting on a wheelchair? What's wrong with her?" he continuously asked himself.

Jaejoong continued to sit in the living room. He was so preoccupied with his own thoughts that he didn't notice that it was already morning.

"Hyung . . . you're up already?" Max asked as he slowly yawned.

Jaejoong stared at Max with a confused look in his eyes.

"Jaejoong, what's wrong?" Xiah asked worriedly.

"Jaejoong. . . ." U-Know uttered.

"She . . . she came back," Jaejoong said.

"She? Who came back?" Micky asked curiously.

Jaejoong then stared at Micky.

"Lena's back, isn't she? You saw her?" Micky asked as he suddenly realized the cause of Jaejoong's confusion.

Jaejoong gently nodded his head. He felt like he had no strength to think or talk.

Xiah, Micky, Max and U-Know suddenly exchanged glances with one another. This was what
they were all afraid of. Lena had finally returned for Jaejoong. But he could no longer be with her . . . for he already belonged to someone else. . . .

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43 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 24th June 2009, 9:01 pm

CHAPTER 41


"Lena, please open the door . . . Lena," Daichi shouted while he continuously knocked on the door of Lena's room.

He could still hear Lena crying. She had locked herself up in her room and had been crying ever since she saw Jaejoong kissing abother girl in the hallway of the apartment building.

Hours have passed and Lena still wouldn't stop crying. Daichi was already going crazy with worry.

"Lena . . . . please stop crying and open the door. Have you forgotten that you're pregnant? You can't possibly go on crying forever . . . Please think about the baby you're carrying. Lena, can you hear me? Lena!" Daichi shouted as he tried to open the door.

Daichi sighed. No matter how he tried to open the door, it still wouldn't open. Lena had locked the room using another lock inside her room.

"Lena . . ." he uttered hopelessly.

Then he suddenly heard Lena unlocking her door. Within minutes, Lena slowly opened the door.

"Lena . . ." Daichi said as he stared at the pitiful expression on Lena's face.

"Daichi . . . please. . . . Let's leave. I don't want to stay here anymore," she begged.

Daichi just nodded his head. He already knew that they needed to move again as soon as possible. Staying in that apartment . . . being near to Jaejoong . . . . was going to be pure torture for Lena.

"We can leave as soon as I find a suitable place to live. Just give me a day. I'll try to fix everything quickly," he said.

Lena nodded. She felt very tired . . . tired of everything . . . tired of thinking . . . . tired of crying . . . tired of hoping . . . tired of loving . . . and now she was even tired of living.

"Daichi , I'm tired . . ." she slowly uttered.

Daichi carefully stared at Lena. He knew exactly what she meant, but he just decided to avoid talking about what she was trying to say.

"You look pale. I suggest you go to sleep for a few hours. Have some rest. You and the baby need to sleep," he lovingly said.

Again Lena just nodded her head.

"Come on , I'll help you," Daichi said with a smile. He slowly approached Lena, then he carefully carried her in his arms. "Lena, whatever happens . . . Always remember I'm here for you."

"I know," Lena uttered as she gently rested her head on Daichi's chest.

Daichi suddenly felt like he didn't want to let go of Lena anymore. He felt like he wanted to have her in his arms forever. Slowly he walked to where Lena's bed was. Then he gently placed her on it.

"Go to sleep. I'll look after you. Don't worry," Daichi said as he lovingly caressed Lena's hair over and over again so to put her to sleep.

"Daichi," she uttered.

"Uhhmm?" he uttered back.

"Thank you," she said slowly.

Daichi smiled. "For what?" he asked.

"For everything," she replied.

Daichi's heart suddenly skipped a beat. "Go to sleep," he uttered again. Then he kissed her on the forehead.

An hour later . . . .

Daichi carefully stared at Lena's face. And somehow his heart ached after seeing the tired look on her face. He understood that she wasn't only tired physically, but also mentally and emotionally.

How he wished he could make everything all right for her. He was willing to do anything just to make her happy. But no matter how hard he tried to help Lena . . . it was as if fate always wanted her to suffer.

His gazed focused on Lena's abdomen.

"Poor child . . . I guess you will never have the chance to be happy with your mother and father at your side. But don't worry, I promise I will also take care of you," he slowly murmured.

Then the doorbell suddenly interrupted his thoughts.

"Who could it be? Could it be Jaejoong? It certainly took him a long time to pull himself together," he thought.

The doorbell rang again. Daichi hurriedly went to the door. He didn't want Lena to awaken by the noise. As he opened the door, someone unexpected suddenly came into view.

"Hello . . ." Micky uttered.

Daichi stared at Micky. "Why are you here?' he asked coldly.

Micky tried to put on a smile. "I'm here to see Lena. Jaejoong told us she was here."

"Your friend surely have some guts. Where is he anyway?" Daichi asked.

"He's still in his room . . . shocked and confused, I guess," Micky answered.

"Lena's asleep," Daichi uttered.

"That's okay . . . I'll wait," Micky replied.

Unable to drive Micky away, Daichi slowly led him to the living room. The two men sat down, facing each other.

"So when did you guys arrive?" Micky asked casually.

"We arrive here in Tokyo . . . about quarter passed two in the morning, and we left the airport maybe passed three in the morning," Daichi answered.

"So . . . you guys just arrived when . . . . Lena saw Jaejoong with Keiko?" Micky asked.

"Yes, and frankly it was such a shocking way to greet someone," Daichi said with sarcasm.

"Shocking? Yes, I can only imagine what Lena's reaction must have been after seeing Jaejoong kissing Keiko," Micky uttered.

"She's been crying for hours. Good thing, I was able to put her to sleep. I was so worried that she might collapse or something, if she continued to cry," Daichi told Micky.

"I'm really sorry things have to end this way," Micky uttered.

"So is Jaejoong really serious with that girl?" Daichi suddenly asked.

Micky smiled bitterly. "I'm afraid so."

Daichi shook his head in disbelief. "What a nice way to show his true love for Lena. Just two months passed, and he immediately finds a new girl."

"You can't really blame him. A lot of things can happen in two months. He was so down after Lena left him and suddenly disappeared. Frankly Xiah, Max, U-Know and I are partly to blame for this. We encouraged him to move on and to forget Lena. But we never really expected him to immediately find a new girl and replace Lena. We were sort of hoping that he would just return to his normal self and continue living like before," Micky explained.

"Honestly, I know I don't have any right to be angry with Jaejoong. And I also know all of this wouldn't have happened, if my mother hadn't interfered. But I pity Lena . . . so much. You wouldn't even dare to imagine what she went through for the passed two months. And just when I thought . . . everything was already clearing out for her . . . She suddenly finds out that the man she's coming back for already belongs to someone else. During the time she was crying, my heart was slowly bleeding as well. I really can't stand seing her suffer," Daichi said.

Micky just stayed silent. Somehow he didn't know what to do or say. He also pitied Lena. And just like Daichi, he also wished that he could help Lena be happy.

"I guess . . . there's nothing else to do, but go and hide again," Daichi uttered with a sigh.

"Go and hide? What do you mean? Frankly I'm quite confused. Why is it that even Lena's parents doesn't know where the two of you were for the passed two months? And why is it that Jaejoong said that Lena was on a wheelchair when he saw her. Is there something wrong with her?" Micky asked nervously.

Daichi tried to hide the sadness in his eyes. "I don't know if I should tell you the whole story."

"Don't worry. . . Whatever you tell me . . . will stay a secret. So please . . . tell me what's wrong with Lena. You know that I also love her . . . That's why I'm concerned about her," Micky uttered as he stared at Daichi seriously.

"Lena is . . . is paralyzed from her waist down to her legs. And this is the reason why the two of us have been in hiding. Lena doesn't want her parents to know about her condition," Daichi told Micky with a serious expression on his face.

"What?" Micky asked in total shock. "Have you consulted a doctor? She can still be cured right? She can still walk again right?" he continuously asked.

Daichi smiled bitterly as he suddenly shook his head. "Honestly we've spent the whole two months going from one country to another, in search of a doctor who can actually cure her . . . During the time that she and Jaejoong were attacked by mother's men, she received a blow to her back. At first, all the doctors thought that her paralysis was due to a spinal cord injury. But after dozens of tests, they finally concluded that there was nothing wrong with her physically and that her condition was just a result of trauma or shock that she receive," Daichi suddenly stopped talking. Somehow he was trying to stop himself from crying. "So we continued to go to psychiatrists, physical therapists . . . anyone who could actually have an idea how to cure her. But they all said the same thing. Lena's recovery solely depends on her own will. And that it may take weeks, months, years . . . and there was also the possibility that she can never be cured. After hearing those words from the doctors, Lena became more depressed and withdrawn. It was then she decided that she can no longer go back to Jaejoong. She didn't want him to see her in such a pitiful situation. She didn't want him to stay with her just because of guilt or pity. So the two of us left and have been continuously travelling. We are still hoping to find someone who could help her."

"If . . . if there's nothing wrong with her physically . . . then there is always the possibility that she can walk again. Maybe she just . . . she just . . . maybe she needs more encouragement. Maybe she lacks the will to . . ." Micky tried to say. He was trying to make himself believe that Lena was going to be all right. But no matter how he tried, he still couldn't lie to himself.

"I know what you're feeling. Believe me, I've tried everything. And Lena really wants to be normal again. So she has been very patient and obedient to everything that the doctors told her. She's gone through different therapeutic sessions and drunk different medications. But still no effect. Do you have any idea how miserable Lena was for the passed two months? She was willing to do anything just to be able to walk again. She wanted to be normal again, so she could return to Jaejoong. Believe me . . . she has tried everything. There were nights that she would just cry herself to sleep. Her cries were so pitiful that if you heard it . . . it would actually tear your heart into million pieces. During the passed two months, I know the only thing that was keeping Lena sane was the thought that one day she could return to Jaejoong. But now . . . she has to learn to accept another painful reality," Daichi told Micky.

Micky stared at Daichi. Everything he heard was just too much for him. "If she's still in a wheelchair . . . then that means she's not cured yet . . . So why did she return? Did she finally decide that it is time for Jaejoong to know the truth about her? Why do I have the feeling you're still hiding something from me?"

Daichi couldn't help but smile. "You're really very perceptive. Yes, there is a reason why she suddenly decided to return to Jaejoong."

"And that reason is?" Micky asked curiously.

Daichi stared straight into Micky's eyes. "She's two months pregnant with Jaejoong's child."

Micky's world had suddenly stopped. And bit by bit, his heart started to fall apart. How he pitied Lena. And somehow he could feel the pain she was going through. How he wished that everything that he had learned wasn't true. How he wished that Lena was still the same Lena that he knew. Micky stared blankly infront of him. He knew Lena needed someone to be with her now. And he was determined to be that someone . . . .

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44 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 24th June 2009, 9:02 pm

CHAPTER 42


Lena slowly opened her eyes, and then a familiar face came into view. At first, she thought that she was seeing Jaejoong, but as time passed . . .her vision became clearer and another face appeared. She slowly tried to push herself up, Micky hurriedly helped her to sit comfortably onher bed.

"Micky?" she gently uttered.

Micky smiled as he gently took Lena's hands. "How are you?"

Lena tried to smile but she suddenly remembered Jaejoong. And the pain quickly became visible in her eyes. "I really don't know how to answer that question," she replied.

Micky gently squeezed Lena's hand. "Daichi already told me everything."

Lena looked at Micky. "Please stop staring at me with pity in your eyes. That's the last thing I want," she weakly uttered.

Micky lowered his head. "I'm sorry."

"Why are you here?" she asked suddenly.

"To see you," he quickly replied.

"How did you know I was here?" she asked again.

"Jaejoong told us. We woke up this morning and found him all messed up in the living room. He wasn't himself . . . So we asked him what was wrong. And that was when he told us that he saw you . . ." Micky explained.

Lena smiled bitterly. "His girlfriend is very beautiful."

Micky felt that there was a huge lump in his throat. He didn't know how to react to what Lena said.

"So you already saw Keiko . . . Jaejoong has been going out with her for a month now. But their real relationship just started last week. So there is still a chance for you to . . ." Micky started to say.

"To what? To break them up? I'm not planning to do such a thing," Lena said as she shook her head in disapproval.

"But what are you planning to do?" Micky asked.

"Frankly, I don't know. Maybe Daichi and I can go back to New York. The only reason why I came here is to have Jaejoong back. But I guess . . . I'm too late. So there's no reason for me to stay here anymore. I might as well go back," she answered.

"So you're going back without clearing everything up with Jaejoong? Aren't you even going to tell him about the child that you're carrying? And aren't you going to tell him about what really happened to you after you left him? Do you know he hates you . . . for leaving him. He thinks that you have easily forgotten him and moved on with your life. That's why you never even tried to contact him for the passed two months," Micky said with concern.

"What's the use in telling him the truth? He has already moved on. He already had someone new in his life. If I told him the truth . . . do you think it would make any difference? He will just pity me . . . and I would end up ruining his peaceful life again," Lena replied.

"Think about the child . . . Jaejoong has a right to know," Micky uttered.

Lena smiled while trying to hide the pain she was feeling. "I don't want to cause anymore problems. I know once I told him about the child . . . his relationship with his girlfriend will definitely be affected. And frankly I don't want to hurt the girl."

Micky looked deep into Lena's eyes. "God! Why are you so kind? Why don't you think about yourself first? Who cares about Keiko? Do you know that whenever I see you hurting . . . it just breaks my heart into pieces? Before i just set aside my feelings for you because I thought you would be much happier with Jaejoong. But now . . . I'm starting to think that I made a wrong decision. Now I'm starting to think . . . that I should have fought for you. Then maybe . . . I would be the one taking care of you now."

Lena sadly stared at Micky. "Please Micky, stop! I've already hurt a lot of people . . . I don't want you to be one of them."

"Why can't I love you?" Micky asked weakly.

"Because I . . . I don't deserve to be loved. Anyone who gets involved with me always gets hurt or faces different kinds of bad luck. So please I don't want to hurt anyone . . . anymore . . . especially not you," she answered.

"Don't you know that you're already hurting me by refusing my love for you? And why is it that Daichi can be with you . . . and not me?" Micky asked with a hurt look in his eyes.

Lena suddenly looked away. Somehow her mind had totally gone blank. Micky's question started to echo in her mind.

"Micky's right. Why am I staying with Daichi when I already know that I'm hurting him over and over again. Why do I keep on hurting him? Is it time for me to leave him too?"

"Lena . . ." Micky uttered.

Lena gazed at Micky. "Please don't try to complicate things. You can't possibly fall in love with me. Look at me! I'm totally useless now. All the doctors say that there's something wrong with me . . . mentally. That's why half of my bopdy is paralyzed and I can't walk. And aside from that . . . I am pregnant. You can't fall in love with a disabled and pregnant woman, Micky. Use your mind!"

"Why is it that Daichi and Jaejoong are allowed to love you and not me? Don't you think you're being unfair?" Micky asked.

"I'm not being unfair. Micky. I'm just telling you what is best for you. I've already hurt and brought grief to both Daichi and Jaejoong. I don't want you to be like them. I want to spare you from the pain. So please try to find someone else. . . someone who is more suited for you," Lena begged.

Micky's heart was slowly breaking as he listened to Lena's words. He then gently embraced Lena.

Lena was totally surprised by what Micky had done. She felt pity for Micky, but she knew what she had done was the right thing to do.

"Micky . . . thank you for the concern and love. But I'm very sorry I can't return it," Lena uttered as she gently embraced Micky back.

"No matter what you say or do, I will still love you in my own way. Let me help you . . . I also want to take care of you, just like what Daichi is doing. I don't care if you only treat me as a friend. That's enough for me. I want to show you how much you mean to me, even if it hurts me. So please let me love you . . ." Micky said with a trembling voice.

Lena was confused. She wanted to stop Micky but she was afraid to hurt him. So she just decided to silently stay in his arms.

While Micky and Lena were in each other's arms, Daichi unexpectedly walked into the room.

Daichi instantly felt like his heart was going to explode after seeing Micky and Lena. But he decided to just set aside his personal feelings and deal with more important matters.

"Lena . . ." Daichi called.

Micky and Lena, both surprised, looked at Daichi. Lena could see that Daichi was trying to hide the pain he was feeling.

"Daichi . . ." Lena started to say.

"We have to go now. One of my men just informed me that someone had already reported to your parents that we have arrived here in Japan. Your parents' men are already searching for us. We have to move now or else they will find us," Daichi said with concern.

Lena worriedly looked at Daichi. "But where will we go? If they are already searching for us . . . we have nowhere else to go."

"Frankly I am a little bit confused myself," Daichi replied.

Micky stared at Lena, then at Daichi. "Maybe I can help," he uttered.

"How?" Daichi asked with a surprised look on his face.

"Well . . . both of you can stay in our apartment for the time being. You guys need a place to hide . . . Our apartment would be perfect for that. No one would ever think that you would actually hide in our place," Micky answered.

"You've got a point there. But . . ." Daichi said as he looked straight at Lena. He was still thinking about her condition and her situation concerning Jaejoong.

Micky stared at Lena as well. "You don't have to worry about Jaejoong. I'll take care of him."

Lena shook her head. "No! I don't want to be close to him. And I don't want to see him. I can't possibly stay in your apartment."

"Lena . . . Micky's got a point. No one would actually look for us in their apartment. We've got no choice . . . Unless you want your parents to know what has happened to you," Daichi said seriously.

Lena lowered her head. She didn't want her parents to know about her situation. She wanted to make them believe that she was fine. She was afraid that once her parents found out about her condition. They will surely make Daichi's parents pay dearly. And that was the last thing she wanted. Even though Daichi's mother had been cruel with her, she still loved Daichi's parents like her own parents. She didn't want anything bad to happen to them.

"Lena . . . you've got to decide now," Daichi said anxiously.

Micky didn't want for Lena's answer. He immediately carried Lena in his arms, and carefully placed her on her wheelchair.

"Micky . . ." Lena protested.

"Sssshhh . . ." Micky uttered, then he slowly pushed Lena's wheelchair out of the room.

Daichi quickly gathered all their bags and followed Lena and Micky out of the apartment.

Lena's heart was pounding wildly. She didn't know if she was doing the right thing. She was very much afraid of seeing Jaejoong once again.

"Micky . . . please don't tell him anything about the child . . . and my condition," Lena uttered before Micky opened the door of their apartment.

"Don't worry. I won't say anything," Micky replied.

Slowly Lena and Micky entered the DBSK boys' apartment first, followed by Daichi.

Xiah, Max, U-Know and Jaejoong were all in the living room. As soon as Micky walked in with Lena, a deafening silence suddenly appeared.

"Lena . . ." Jaejoong was finally able to utter.

Micky coldly stared at Jaejoong and the other DBSK boys."Lena and Daichi will be staying in my room for a few days. I hope there's no probelem with that."

Xiah, Max and U-Know were all stunned. They were totally shocked with what was happening.

Micky slowly pushed Lena's wheelchair to his room, while Daichi just followed them.

Lena felt the cold stare that Jaejoong was giving her. She lowered her head and tried to avoid looking at Jaejoong and the other DBSK members. She didn't have any choice, but to endure a few days in the boys' apartment unit.

After arranging Lena on his bed and a quick talk with Daichi, Micky left his room and went straight to where the other DBSK boys were.

"What are you planning to do?" Jaejoong quickly asked as soon as Micky sat down infront of him.

"Planning to do? Well I'm going to take care of her. That's what I'm planning to do," Micky answered sarcastically.

"Are you out of your mind?" Jaejoong asked.

Micky smiled as he looked straight at Jaejoong. "Like I told you before . . . I love her. And since you already have Keiko, then that means you no longer want her. So I've decided to make her mine."

Xiah, Max and U-Know felt a sudden chill. They knew Micky was serious and that he wasn't going to change his mind. He had been in love with Lena from the very beginning. But because of his friendship with Jaejoong, he had decided to let Lena go. But now . . . it seems he wasn't going to let anyone stand in his way again. No matter how . . . no matter what . . . it took, Lena was going to be his . . . and his alone.

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45 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 24th June 2009, 9:02 pm

CHAPTER 43


"Do you think it's really wise to stay here?" Lena asked Daichi as she worriedly looked at the door of the room.

"We don't have any choice. And besides we'll be staying here for only a short time . . . maybe two or three days will do. We just have to wait until things clears up. My men are already trying to fix everything. As soon as everything's fine, we can leave Japan again. IF . . . that is what you want . . ." Daichi said with hesitation.

"Frankly I don't want to stay here. I'm afraid of staying so close to Jaejoong. What if he suddenly starts asking questions . . . like why I'm on a wheelchair?" Lena said worriedly.

Daichi sighed. "Don't you think . . . it would really be better if he knew about what really happened to you? I think it would solve a lot of things."

"No! I don't want him to pity me. He has his own life now. Let's just leave everything as it is. I know telling him the truth will only complicate things," she said as she rolled her wheelchair near the window. Then she sadly stared out at the sky. It was almost night time, and the stars were starting to appear.

Daichi shook his head. His heart was somehow being crushed as he continued to watch Lena looking so pitiful. He then decided to just leave her alone. He slowly walked out of the room. He knew Lena needed some time alone to think.

He then went straight to where the DBSK boys were sitting. He instantly noticed that there was something wrong because of the expression on Jaejoong's face.

"Micky . . . " Daichi uttered.

Micky looked at Daichi and smiled. "Yes, what is it?"

"Look . . . we don't want to cause any trouble. We can leave and . . ." Daichi started to say.

"Nonsense . . . you and Lena can stay here as long as you like," Micky uttered.

"I'm sorry for the inconvenience Xiah, Max, U-Know and . . . Jaejoong. I will try to fix our problem quickly so that we can leave your apartment as soon as possible," Daichi said as he faced the other DBSK boys.

"Frankly, we're just shocked. Don't worry about us. And just like what Micky said, the two of you can stay here as long as you like. We are always willing to help," U-Know said as he secretly looks at Jaejoong's reaction.

"Thank you guys. I think two or three days would be enough, and we can leave Japan again," Daichi uttered.

"You're leaving again?" Max asked with a raised eyebrow.

"Yes, there is no reason for us to stay here any longer," Daichi answered as he looked straight at Jaejoong.

Jaejoong stared back at Daichi. He was about to say what was running in his mind, when Max suddenly asked something.

"Daichi . . . why is Lena on a wheelchair? Is she sick or something?" Max asked curiously.

Daichi exchanged glances with Micky.

"She's suffered a bad sprain before going here . . . So she's on a wheelchair," Micky suddenly answered.

"Oh . . . I actually thought something was wrong with her," Max said with a sigh of relief.

Micky tried to laugh. "What could possibly be wrong with her. She's still the same Lena we all knew."

"So Micky where will you sleep? You can stay in my room if you like," Xiah said with a smile.

"I was really planning to ask you about that. Good thing, you already opened that topic," Micky said with a grin.

Suddenly a phone started ringing. Daichi hurriedly took out his phone and answered it.

Several minutes later . . . Daichi's expression had somehow changed after receiving the mysterious phone call.

"Micky . . . do you think you and I can talk privately? I really need to discuss something with you," Daichi said seriously.

Micky just nodded his head and stood up. "we can talk outside," he uttered.

Daichi and Micky both went out of the apartment unit. Then they headed straight to the nearby fire exit.

"What's wrong?" Micky asked worriedly.

"Do you think you can take care of Lena for a day or two? I really need to go and fix something," Daichi answered.

"Can I help? What's wrong?' Micky asked again.

"One of my men have informed me that a large group of men from Lena's clan are already being sent in different locations. So I need to go and make myself visible in another place. So I can lure those men away from here," Daichi explained.

"So you're going to leave Lena? Where will you go?" Micky asked.

"I don't know yet. But what is important now is to hide Lena. You know she doesn't want anyone from her family to know about her situation," Daichi said.

Micky nodded. "Don't worry. I'll take good care of her. It's a good thing! It's our day-off tomorrow. Nothing to do . . . So I can stay with her all day long."

"That's good. Thank you. I am really sorry for the trouble we are bringing you," Daichi apologized.

"It's nothing. Aren't you going to say goodbye to Lena before you go?" Micky asked.

"I am really in a hurry. I'll just call her and explain everything later. Oh! And before I forget . . . Lena can't be left alone in a room when she's sleeping. Ever since that day . . . when Jaejoong got beaten badly . . . she had started having nightmares everyday. That's why most of the time . . . she's afraid to sleep. So please . . . stay in the room with her. . . especially at night. I am really worried about her, especially now . . . with her being pregnant and all," Daichi said with concern.

"Just do what you've got to do. I'll take care of Lena and her baby," Micky said with a smile.

Daichi somehow felt relieved after hearing Micky's words. He knew Lena was safe with Micky around.

Ten minutes later . . . Micky entered the apartment unit alone.

"Where's Daichi?" U-Know asked.

"He had to take care of some personal matters. So he won't be around for a day or two," Micky answered.

"So he left Lena here?" Max asked.

"Yes, and he asked me to take care of her while he's gone," Micky replied with a smile.

Jaejoong felt irritated with Micky. He was jealous even though he was trying very hard to deny it. He quickly stood up and walked towards his room.

"Hyung, where are you going? It's dinner time already," Max said.

"I just lost my appetite. I'll just go to sleep," Jaejoong answered.

As soon as Jaejoong was gone, U-Know couldn't help but confront Micky.

"What are you trying to do Micky? We all know that Jaejoong still has feelings for Lena. So why are you trying to torture him?" U-Know asked.

"I'm not trying to torture him," Micky replied.

"But what you're doing is wrong. Why do you have to put yourself in the middle of Lena and Jaejoong's problem?" Xiah asked.

"If Jaejoong still wants her, there's no one stopping him from taking her back. He's free to do whatever he wants. As for me . . . I just want to be true to myself once and for all. I love you and I'm willing to do anything just to make her happy," Micky said seriously.

U-Know shook his head in confusion. "You and Jaejoong are both very stubborn. Okay we'll repect your decision Micky. But I do hope you already thought about the consequences that may arise from your actions."

Micky smiled. "I've thought about the things you're saying. And frankly I'm not scared and I've already decided . . . that there's no turning back."

Xiah, U-Know and Max all sighed heavily. They were all very confused on what they were supposed to do. They all cared about Micky and Jaejoong, and they were totally torn on who to side with.

Inside Jaejoong's room . . .

Jaejoong silently stared at the painting in his room. The more he looked at it, the more intense the pain he felt.

"Why Lena? Why?" he uttered. "Why did you come back? Do you still love me?" he asked as he covered his face with his hands. He was totally confused. He wanted to talk to Lena, and know the answers to all the questions that were running through his mind.

Back in Micky's room . . .

Lena was staring out of the window when Micky slowly entered the room.

"Lena . . ." Micky called.

"Yes?" she immediately replied as she turned her wheelchair around to face Micky.

"It's time to eat," Micky said with a sweet smile.

Lena lowered her head. Somehow she didn't feel like going out of the room. She was embarrassed and scared, both at the same time.

"I . . .I'm not hungry," she replied.

Micky knelt down infront of Lena. "You're not hungry . . . or you're just scared to go out?"

Lena stared straight at Micky. "Both," she quickly replied.

Micky sighed. "Jaejoong's in his room now. He said that he doesn't want to eat. So it's quite safe to go out now."

"But . . . I'm also scared of the others. I'm afraid of what they might say or what they might ask. I'm really confused right now. I don't want to think anymore," she said with a heavy sigh.

"Don't worry. I'm here for you. I'll take care of you while Daichi is gone. You do know that he's gone, don't you?" Micky asked.

Lena nodded. "Yes, he just called me, and he already explained everything. That's why I'm feeling more embarrassed now. I'm left all alone here. Frankly I don't know what your friends are thinking."

"You don't need to worry about Xiah, Max and U-Know. They won't interrogate you. And besides . . . they also care about you. So you don't have to be afraid of them," Micky said.

"But . . ." she uttered.

"No buts . . . your baby needs some nourishment. So you've got to eat whether you like it or not," Micky lectured as he carefully pushed Lena's wheelchair out of the room.

"Don't be scared . . . I will take care of you," Micky whispered to Lena before they went into the dining room.

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46 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 24th June 2009, 9:03 pm

CHAPTER 44


Lena was feeling very nervous as they entered the dining room.

"Hi Lena!" Max immediately greeted with a smile.

Lena stared at Max, U-Know and Xiah. They all had smiles on their faces. She knew they were really happy to see her again. Her fear suddenly disappeared and her heart had finally become at ease.

"Hello . . . I'm sorry for the inconvenience I'm causing you guys," she apologized.

Xiah laughed lightly. "Inconvenience? What inconvenience? You're always welcome to stay here as long as you like."

"Thank you," she uttered.

Micky pushed Lena's wheelchair near the dining table.

"Lena, can I ask? Is your sprain better now?" Max asked with concern.

Lena looked at Max as if confused. But she just decided to nod her head.

"Well come on, Let's eat! I'm hungry," Max said happily.

Micky started selecting some foods and placed it on a bowl. Then he pulled a chair near Lena and sat near her.

"Here you are . . . ." he said as he gave the bowl of food to Lena.

"Thank you," she replied.

"You should try to eat more . . . You have really lost some weight since the last time we saw you," U-Know said.

Lena stared at U-Know. She was touched by the kindness and concern that the four DBSK boys were giving her.

"Thank you guys," she uttered again.

"Oh! It's nothing," U-Know replied.

Several minutes passed, and they were all busy eating and chatting when the doorbell rang.

Max stood up and hurriedly went out of the dining room to open the door.

"Who could it be? Are you guys expecting any guests?" Micky asked Xiah and U-Know.

"No . . . Hey, maybe it's . . . ." Xiah uttered as he suddenly remembered someone.

But before Xiah could say the name on his mind, a familiar figure had already entered the room together with Max.

"Hello everyone! I see I am not late yet. I brought some additional foods. See!" Keiko said as she happily showed the assorted the plastic bags containing different foods from different restaurants.

Lena stared at Keiko. It was the first time she had seen her up close. "She's really very beautiful, and I think she's very nice too," she thought to herself.

Micky worriedly looked at Lena, then at Keiko. He didn't expect that the two would eventually meet again.

Keiko noticed Lena and smiled at her. "Hello, I"m Keiko . . . and you are?"

Lena just continued to gaze at Keiko. Her mind had totally gone blank.

"She's Lena. She's a friend of ours," Max uttered.

"Oh! I've already seen her early this morning. I was surprised because Jaejoong was quite shocked when he saw her," Keiko said.

"Maybe . . . . it's because Lena's been gone for a long time," Xiah tried to lie to cover up for Jaejoong.

"Oh! Well it's nice to meet you Lena," Keiko said cheerfully.

"Lena, please control yourself," Micky whispered to Lena.

Lena stared at Micky, then tried to nod her head.

"Where's Jaejoong? Why isn't he eating?" Keiko asked.

"He's in his room. He said that he's not hungry," U-Know answered.

"Here take this," Keiko said as she gave Max all the food she was carrying. "I'm going to check up on my baby now," she said sweetly as she left the room.

Lena felt like she couldn't breathe. She couldn't believe that she was actually staring at the girl who had taken her place in Jaejoong's heart.

"Lena, are you all right?" Micky asked nervously.

She looked at Micky with a blank expression on her face.

Micky gently caressed Lena's face. "You've become pale. Are you all right? Do you want to go to your room now?"

Lena nodded. She felt like she had no strength to talk. She somehow felt very weak and confused.

Micky took the bowl of food Lena was holding, and place it on the table. Then he stood up and was about to push Lena's wheelchair when . . . .

"Come on Jaejoong! Let's eat. I brought a lot of food," Keiko said as she dragged Jaejoong into the dining room.

Jaejoong immediately noticed Lena. The surprised look on his face was replaced with a dark and angry look after seeing Micky was behind her.

"Hey, where are you guys going? You're both finished already?" Keiko asked curiously.

"Lena needs to rest now. So I'll be taking her to my room now," Micky said.

"To your room? So is she your girlfriend?" Keiko teased.

Micky coldly stared at Jaejoong.

"No, she's not my girlfriend . . . but soon to be," Micky said with a serious expression on his face.

"Really? I'm so happy for you. Then the two of you shouldn't leave. Let's all eat together please," Keiko said. She then left Jaejoong's side and went to where Micky and Lena were. She carefully took Lena's wheelchair from Micky's hand and placed it back near the table.

"Please stay a little longer. I would really like to know you better," Keiko said to Lena.

Lena stared straight at Keiko. She could see the sincerity in her eyes. She didn't know why, but she couldn't say no to her.

"Okay," Lena uttered.

"Thank you," Keiko said with a smile.

Micky really didn't want Lena to be around Keiko and Jaejoong. He knew she was going to get hurt. He exchanged glances with Xiah, Max and U-Know. They were all thinking the same thing. All of them wanted Lena to leave the room.

"Come on, Micky . . . sit," Keiko said as she pulled Micky to sit down on the chair next to Lena.

"Keiko . . ." Jaejoong uttered.

"Hmmm? Come on baby. Let's eat," Keiko lovingly said as she pulled Jaejoong to sit down next to her.

As soon as everyone was already seated, Xiah, U-Know and Max felt very tensed. It seemed a cold breeze was circulating in the room that was making all of them shiver in fear and anxiety.

Jaejoong and Micky coldly stared at each other. They were angry and were just controlling themselves for the girls' sakes.

"Hey, why are you all quiet?" Keiko asked as she noticed the strange atmosphere in the room.

"Let's eat . . ." U-Know uttered as he tried to break the silence.

Keiko took a bowl of food and started to sweetly feed Jaejoong. "Here's your food baby," she sweetly uttered.

Lena's heart suddenly stopped as she saw the sweet gesture that Keiko was doing. She tried hard to fight off the tears that were trying to form in her eyes.

Micky noticed the pain in Lena's eyes. He wanted to help her and make her forget the pain she was feeling. He then took the bowl of food that Lena was eating before and filled it with new kinds of foods. Then he turned Lena's wheelchair to face him.

"You've got to eat . . . " he said to Lena as he took a spoonful of food to her mouth.

Lena obediently opened her mouth and swallowed the food that Micky was giving him.

Jaejoong just watched as Micky fed Lena. He was both very angry and jealous at the same time. Somehow he felt like he wanted to just push Micky away from Lena.

Xiah, Max and U-Know just watched helplessly as their two friends continuously exchanged cold glances with each other. Somehow the three of them pitied Lena the most. She was obviously very hurt by what she was seeing, but there was nothing she could do.

Micky looked at Keiko. She was very busy talkinga nd taking care of Jaejoong that she wasn't even noticing that there was something going on.

Micky shook his head in disbelief. "Is this girl naive or what?" he asked himself.

As Keiko continued to be sweet with Jaejoong, Lena couldn't stop herself from feeling like she was being stabbed over and over again. She tried very hard to avoid looking at Keiko and Jaejoong. But she just found herself staring blankly at them. She was totally losing her self-control.

Micky noticed Lena's reaction as she stared at Keiko and Jaejoong. His heart ached after seeing the pitiful look on Lena's face.

"Lena . . ." he uttered.

Lena slowly turned to face him. "Please . . . I want to go back to your room now," she begged with a trembling voice.

Xiah, U-Know and Max stared at Lena. Somehow they all knew that she was just trying to control herself not to cry. But after hearing her voice, their hearts were immediately filled with pity.

"All right . . ." Micky uttered as he stood up and quickly went behind Lena's wheelchair.

"You're both finished already?" Keiko asked Micky.

"Lena's tired already . . . So we're going to my room now. Just continue eating and enjoy your dinner," Micky said with a hint of sarcasm.

"Yeah . . . go to your room . . . and have fun . . ." Jaejoong uttered with total annoyance.

Micky angrily stared at Jaejoong. "Why you . . ." he was about to say something when Lena suddenly touched his hand.

"Please Micky . . . let's go," she begged again.

Micky tried to calm himself down. Then he slowly pushed Lena's wheelchair out of the dining room.

As soon as Lena entered Micky's room, she finally let herself free. Her tears started to fall, and then she finally cried uncontrollably.

Micky didn't know what to do. He wanted to make Lena stop crying. But he knew it was impossible. He then gently embraced her. It was the only thing he could do for her. He wanted to make her feel that there was still someone caring for her. He also wanted to let her know that he was someone that she could lean on.

As Lena's tears continued to fall, Micky's heart was slowly being crushed. One by one, tears started to stream down Micky's face. He couldn't stop himself from crying. The pain of hearing and seeing Lena cry was bringing him pain too. A pain that was too intense and too maddening.

Micky tightened his embrace. "Lena, I love you . . . I promise whatever happens I will never let you go."

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47 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 24th June 2009, 9:03 pm

CHAPTER 45


It was already four in the morning . . . .

Micky yawned and tried to stretch his body. Somehow some parts of his body were aching. He wasn't used to sleeping on a chair. But he had no choice. There was only one bed in his room. And Lena was already sleeping on it. He then sighed. He looked at Lena's direction. She was still sleeping. He was about to close his eyes again, when he noticed something. He suddenly stood up and went near Lena.

Lena was lying on the bed with her head turned on one side. Micky thought that she was sleeping soundly. But then he noticed that her shoulders were moving as if she was crying. He looked closely at Lena. Somehow she was constantly whispering something.

"Lena . . ." Micky uttered.

Lena just kept on whispering something.

"Is she having a nightmare?" Micky suddenly asked himself after remembering what Daichi had told him.

Then he noticed the sweat that were forming around Lena's forehead. He then became quite alarmed.

"Lena, wake up. . . Lena," Micky said with worry.

Lena continued to say something . . . something that Micky couldn't understand. Then he noticed tears were running down from Lena's eyes.

"Lena . . . for God's sake . . . wake up," Micky said with total confusion, as he tried to wake Lena up by shaking her shoulder.

Minutes passed . . . Lena was still in her own world. But her words were clearer now.

"Please stop . . . . Please stop . . . Don't hurt him. . . .Please stop . . . I'm begging you," she continuously repeated while sleeping.

Micky was already going crazy with worry. He didn't know what to do. No matter how he tried, Lena still wouldn't wake up. He suddenly rushed out of his room and went to U-Know's room first.

"What's wrong?" U-Know asked as he tried to brush off his dizziness.

"Something's wrong with Lena. Please you've got to help me," Micky said while panicking.

U-Know hurriedly got out of his bed. "Okay . . . Go back to Lena. I'll wake the others."

Micky nodded. He went back to his room, only to find Lena in a more frightening situation. She was crying and moaning, as if pain.

His heart was filled with fear. He tried to wake Lena. But she still wouldn't respond to anything he said or did. Lena's whole body was very cold and her whole face was covered with sweat.

Micky felt like he wanted to cry out in desperation. He was very worried with what was happening to Lena.

Xiah, Max and U-Know hurriedly entered Micky's room. While Jaejoong just stayed at the door of the room.

"Micky . . ." U-Know uttered.

Micky stared at U-Know. "She wouldn't wake up. I have tried waking her up. But she . . . just kept on . . ." he said nervously. His mind was already messed up. He couldn't think straight anymore.

Jaejoong just watched from a distance. He didn't want to get close to Lena. He was afraid of what his own emotion might make him do. But eventhough he tried hard not to show his emotions, he was still very concerned about her.

"Let's bring her to a hospital," Xiah suggested.

Micky was about to agree when he suddenly remembered that Lena wasn't supposed to go out of the apartment building. He then shook his head. " I . . . I'm not allowed to bring her out of the building," he uttered.

"What?" U-Know asked. "What are you talking about? Look . . . she's sick. Don't tell me we're just going to watch her until something worst happens to her."

Micky stared at Lena. U-Know was right. He needed to bring Lena to a hospital. He was just going to deal with the consequences later. He was about to carry Lena out of bed . . . when she suddenly screamed.

As soon as Lena screamed, she immediately opened her eyes and started to cry. She was scared. All the terrible memories were constantly playing in her mind.

"Lena . . . " Micky uttered worriedly. He then gently took her into his arms, and held her tightly. "Thank god, you're awake now. You scared me."

Jaejoong felt like he was dying as he silently watched Micky embracing Lena. He then decided to turn away and return to his room. He didn't want to see Lena and Micky together. Even though he was angry with Lena, he still couldn't stop himself from feeling jealous and hurt because of Micky. He knew he no longer had any right to feel such emotions. He already had Keiko in his life. And he belonged to her now. Whatever he and Lena had before could no longer be returned. She was only a part of his past now, and Keiko was his present and future.

Jaejoong sat down on his bed, and cupped his face with his hands. He then closed his eyes. He was totally confused. He didn't want to care about Lena anymore. He wanted her to be totally out of his life. He was already back to his normal life. His life was peaceful now. He just wanted to be free of all the pain.

"Why did you have to return Lena? Why are you destroying my peaceful life again? Why can't you just go back to where you came from and just leave me alone? I don't want to see you anymore. I already have Keiko in my life now. She have been with me during the time that you should have been the one taking care of me . . . I thought I have already forgotten you. But why is my heart still pounding very hard whenever I see you. And why am I hurting whenever I see you with Micky? Why is my heart restless now? Am I still in love with you? But . . . even if I still have feelings for you . . . I will just have to hide it. I don't want to hurt Keiko. I also love her . . . You are no longer a part of my life, Lena. I have already released you a long time ago. I'm sorry . . . I can no longer hold your hand and take care of you. You were the first one to let go Lena. I tried very hard to hold on . . . But you made me give up. I'm sorry, but Keiko is my life now. . . and you . . . no longer mean anything to me. I wish you will be able to find your own happiness. The happiness that I know I promised to give you, but I won't be able to give. I hope you will find another love . . . a love you will be able to keep," the words kept playing in his mind.

Jaejoong couldn't understand why, but his tears just kept on flowing. As his mind was trying to say goodbye, his heart was crying.

Back in Micky's room . . .

"Lena, please stop crying," Micky uttered as he caressed Lena's head.

"I want to die . . . I want to die . . . I'm tired . . . I'm very tired already. Why can't the pain stop? It's driving me insane," she said with tears in her eyes.

Xiah, U-Know and Max exchanged glances. Somehow they could also feel the pain that Lena was feeling. Pity filled their hearts. They wanted to help her, but they knew there was nothing they could do.

Micky closed his eyes. He pitied Lena. How he wanted to take all her pain away. "Don't say such things! You have to be strong. You can't die. You have to live . . . not only for yourself, but also for your child."

U-Know, Max and Xiah all looked at Lena with shock in their eyes. Then Max looked back at where Jaejoong was standing when they entered the room. He was no longer there.

"Hyung has left. Did he hear what Micky have said?" Max asked himself.

Lena sobbed. "I'm tired. I . . . I . . ." she tried to say.

"Stop it! Have you forgotten you have a child that's growing inside you. So what if Jaejoong has another girl now? It still doesn't give you any right to just throw away your life . . . and especially the life of your child. Life doesn't end with Jaejoong, Lena. You have to learn to move on," Micky tried to lecture her.

Lena continued to cry. She knew what Micky said was right. But she was too emotional to even think straight. She felt too weak and too useless. She just kept on wishing that everything that was happening was just a dream. And that somehow she would suddenly wake up and find everything back to that way it used to be.

Micky continued to caress Lena's head. "Lena, I'm here for you. Just put your mind at ease . . . I'll take care of you . . . you and your baby."

Lena just closed her eyes. She didn't want to cry anymore. But her tears just kept on falling. She felt her mind was already going to explode because of all the heartache. She buried her face on Micky's chest, that she could easily hear his heart beating. Somehow she wanted to hide and pretend that nothing was wrong.

Micky was surprised with what Lena had done. It made him feel such a feeling of happiness and contentment just having her in his arms. He felt like she was perfectly made for him, and that she truly belonged in his arms.

Xiah, U-Know and MAx continued to watch in total silence. How they pitied Lena . . . but then they were starting to think that Micky was taking advantage of Lena's situation.

Half an hour later . . .

Micky was finally able to convince Lena to stop crying and go back to sleep again. He carefully arranged Lena's bed first and made sure that everything was all right, before going out of the room with the other DBSK members.

"Let's talk in the dining room," Micky said to the others. He knew he needed to explain a lot of things to his friends. But he didn't want Jaejoong to hear it.

Max, U-Know and Xiah just followed Micky to the dining room. And as soon as they were all seated around the table. Xiah had already lost his self-control. "Micky, have you totally lost your mind?" he asked.

Micky looked at Xiah with a strange expression on his face. "What do you mean?" he asked.

"She's pregnant with Jaejoong's child . . . and you're still trying to take her from Jaejoong," Xiah answered.

Micky let out a light laugh. "Let's get one thing straight. Jaejoong is with Keiko now . . . So Lena doesn't belong to Jaejoong anymore. So I'm not taking Lena away from Jaejoong."

"Micky, don't you think it's better if Jaejoong knows about Lena's condition? At least . . . maybe he can . . ." U-Know tried to voice out his opinion.

"He can what? He can just go back to Lena and leave Keiko? Is that what you're trying to say?" Micky asked with a raised eyebrow.

"It's the right thing to do hyung," Max uttered to Micky.

Micky suddenly put on a maddening smile. "The right thing to do? Tell me . . . what is the right thing to do? Is it . . . sleep with your bestfriend, tell her you love her and then after two months of being separated from her . . . find another girl to sleep with? Is that what you're trying to say?"

"Micky, you're already way out of line. Why are you being so selfish?" U-Know shouted.

"Me? Selfish? You should tell that to Jaejoong, not me!" Micky shouted back as he violently stood up.

"Micky . . . we know that you love her. But can't you see? She still loves Jaejoong, and she's carrying his child. Jaejoong should be the one beside her, taking care of her," Xiah tried to reason out.

"No! I have already let her go once. But Jaejoong didn't take good care of her. So now it's only fair that I try to fight for her now. Jaejoong has a life of his own now. He has Keiko to take care of. I love Lena and I don't care whether she's pregnant or not. I love her and I want her. And nobody can stop me," Micky said as he suddenly walked out of the room

Xiah, Max and U-Know looked at each other. All of them sighed. They knew things were going to become more complicated. And no matter who they decided to side with, Jaejoong, Daichi, Micky, Lena and Keiko were all going to get hurt, one way or the other..

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48 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 24th June 2009, 9:04 pm

CHAPTER 46


It was already 9 in the morning, but Xiah, Max and U-Know still sat in the living room waiting for Jaejoong, Micky and Lean to wake up and go out of their rooms.

"My stomach is growling already," Max complained. "Aren't we going to eat yet?"

"We have to wait for them," Xiah said.

"Oh . . . but what if they over sleep?" Max moaned in frustration.

Xiah laughed. "Okay, 20 minutes more and if they still don't wake up, we'll eat without them. Is that all right with you?"

"Yes! Oh, yes! Thank you," Max uttered happily.

Another fifteen minutes passed, but both Jaejoong's and Micky's rooms were still quiet.

Then the doorbell rang. Max weakly stood up and opened the door.

"Hello, good morning!" Keiko greeted.

"Keiko what are you doing here? You're so early," Max complained.

"Hmmm? Well . . . today is your day-off isn't it? I just wanted to have an early breakfast with my baby. Then have some nice and quiet time with him and you guys as well," Keiko answered sweetly.

Max suddenly touched his forehead as if he was having a headache.

Keiko looked at Max's reaction, then smiled. "I've brought breakfast," she said sweetly.

Max stared at the plastic bags Keiko was carrying. He then slowly took them from her. Then Keiko and Max went straight to the living room.

"Hello guys!" Keiko greeted.

Xiah and U-Know's reactions immediately changed after seeing Keiko. They knew she was certainly going to make an early commotion for everybody.

"Keiko, why are you so early?" Xiah asked also.

Keiko looked at the DBSK boys seriously. "Why are you guys like that? Why do I have the feeling that you don't want me here?"

Xiah tried to smile. "It's not like that Keiko. It's just that . . . you're really too early. Jaejoong hasn't even woken up yet."

"Oh really? Then let me wake up Jaejoong . . ." Keiko said as she quickly went to his room.

As soon as Keiko entered Jaejoong's room, Max let out a long and deep sigh.

"This is going to be a very long and complicated day. Why did she have to appear again? Everything is already messed up between Jaejoong, Micky and Lena. . . And now . . . I'm sure she's going to make things worse," Max complained again.

"Max be quiet! she might hear you," U-Know warned.

"We don't have any choice, but to just help out as much as we can," Xiah uttered with a sigh as well.

Several minutes later, Keiko happily went out of the room with Jaejoong right beside her.

"So let's eat," Keiko announced as soon as she and Jaejoong sat infront of the other DBSK boys. Then she noticed something. "Micky and Lena aren't up yet?" she asked.

"I don't think so," Max answered.

Keiko smiled mischievously. "They must be tired or something," she then said with a laugh.

Jaejoong's expression hardened. He didn't like the idea that Keiko was trying to imply.

"Lena had a nightmare. So I guess she's still tired," Xiah explained.

"Oh! Poor girl. I really do hate nightmares as well," Keiko uttered.

They were still talking when Micky suddenly walked out of his room.

"Good morning," Keiko greeted as soon as she saw Micky.

"Good morning," Micky greeted as well, as he sat down beside Max.

"Where's Lena?" Keiko asked Micky.

"She's . . . she's still sleeping," Micky lied.

"Oh . . . well. Let's have breakfast already. We can just set aside some foods for her when she wakes up," Keiko said as she pulled Jaejoong into the dining room.

Keiko and the DBSK boys had breakfast with Keiko being the only one lively enough to do all the talking.

"Hey! Why are you guys so quiet? Is something wrong?" Keiko curiously asked after finally noticing the strange atmosphere in the room.

"Nothing's wrong . . . we're just all tired, I guess. Today is our day-off. So we're supposed to rest and be quiet," Max tried to lie.

"Micky, aren't you going to wake Lena up?" Keiko suddenly changed the topic.

Micky smiled. "No, I'll just bring her food once she wakes up."

"Oh . . . you're so sweet! Lena is such a lucky girl. So how long have you guys known each other?" Keiko asked.

Micky gave Jaejoong a quick look before focusing his attention on Keiko. "Just a few months," he answered.

"Oh, just like me and Jaejoong," she uttered.

"Keiko stop asking so many questions," Jaejoong said with irritation.

Surprised, Keiko stared at Jaejoong. She had never seen him get irritated with her before. She then felt very embarassed that she just stayed quiet all throughout breakfast.

As soon as breakfast was over, Keiko hurriedly bade goodbye to Jaejoong and the other DBSK boys. She told them that she needed to go to a photoshoot, but will be back later in the afternoon.

The DBSK boys were already in the living room watching a movie when . . . .

"Micky, it's already 11 o' clok. Don't you think it's time for you to wake Lena up?" Max asked.

Micky smiled. "Honestly . . . she's already awake, even before I went out of the room."

"So she's already awake all this time? And she hasn't had breakfast yet . . . How could you allow her to skip meals? You know she's . . . " Max suddenly stopped talking after remembering that Jaejoong was with them.

Xiah and U-Know worriedly glanced at Jaejoong. He still didn't know about Lena's pregnancy.

Micky gave Max a warning look. He didn't want Jaejoong to know the truth.

"Micky, you should bring Lena some food . . . She might be hungry already," U-Know reminded.

"She says she's not hungry. She's quite stubborn. She wouldn't listen to me," Micky said.

Jaejoong suddenly let out a laugh.

"What's funny?" Micky asked.

"You," Jaejoong boldly answered.

"What? Why?" Micky asked while trying to control his temper.

"You're quite funny because you can't even control her," Jaejoong answered.

Micky's face suddenly changed. He was really mad. "I'm funny huh? Well, you're even funnier . . . Keiko still doesn't know who Lena really is, does she? You don't have any plans to tell her the truth do you? Why? Are you scared? Are you afraid to lose another toy?" Micky asked wickedly.

Jaejoong suddenly stood up. "How dare you say such things to me!" he said angrily. "Keiko is not my toy."

Micky laughed. "Really? Well, I'm sorry if I offended you. But I'm just saying what's on my mind."

Jaejoong rushed to where Micky was sitting. Then he pulled him up, with both his hands on Micky's front collar.

Xiah, Max and U-Know tried to stop their friends from fighting.

"You're really very out of line . . . Do you know that? I have tried very hard to restrain myself. Do you know that I just want to beat you up. I know you have been trying to provoke me, ever since Lena appeared again. So . . . you want her? She's all yours. . . I don't care anymore. So you don't have to be so harsh on me and Keiko. Lena means nothing to me now. I don't want her anymore. You're free to do whatever you want with her. Love her . . . Sleep with her . . . Leave her . . . I don't care. Just leave me and Keiko alone," Jaejoong angrily shouted.

Xiah and U-Know tried to separate Micky and Jaejoong from one another. But Jaejoong wouldn't let go of Micky.

"Jaejoong . . ." U-Know uttered as he tried to pull Jaejoong away from Micky. "Come on, let it go . . ."

"Don't worry . . . I'll leave your precious Keiko alone. I'm not going to tell her anything. So stop worrying about losing your precious doll," Micky said as a tease.

Jaejoong's face reddened with anger. He was about to punch Micky when . . .

"Stop Jaejoong . . . please," Lena screamed while tears continuously flowed down her face. She had been watching everything that happened.

All the DBSK boys' attention suddenly focused on Lena. She was staring at them with tears in her eyes. Jaejoong immediately released Micky, and slowly backed away.

"Lena . . ." Micky uttered as he worriedly looked at her.

"Lena . . . Jaejoong . . . I think it's time that the two of you talked . . ." U-Know said seriously.

"No!" Micky tried to say but Xiah had already placed his arms around Micky's shoulder.

"Come on, Micky. Let them have some time alone to talk," Xiah tried to persuade him.

"Micky . . . U-Know's right. I really need to . . . talk with . . . Jaejoong . . . for the very last time," Lena tried to utter.

Micky gave Lena a sad look then slowly lowered his head and walked away. The other DBSK boys all went to the dining room, leaving Lena and Jaejoong alone in the living room.

Lena stared at Jaejoong. She didn't know how to start what she needed to say. But she knew this was going to be the last time she was ever going to talk to him. After hearing everything that Jaejoong said, she already knew there was really no chance for her to have him back.

As she gazed at him, her heart was screaming his name and was slowly bleeding. She needed to say goodbye to all her hopes and dreams of having Jaejoong once again. She needed to face reality . . . even though it was going to be very painful.

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49 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 24th June 2009, 9:04 pm

CHAPTER 47


Lena gazed at Jaejoong. It had been such a long time since she last stared at him. How she had
missed looking at his handsome face . . . caressing the curve of his perfect nose and lips.

Lena's whole body shivered after she started to remember all the nights that they shared. How she missed him emotionally and physically.

"Jaejoong . . ." Lena uttered. She was surprised with the way her voice sounded.

"What is it that you want? If you have something to say . . . just say it and get it over with . . . so I can leave already. I don't want to waste my precious time on useless things," Jaejoong irritatedly said while trying to avoid looking at Lena.

Lena felt like her whole world had turned black. She had never expected Jaejoong to treat her so
coldly.

"I . . . I'm sorry," were the only words that she could utter.

Jaejoong lightly laughed, while trying to control his emotions. "Sorry? Is that all you're going to say? Do you know that after you left . . . I had totally gone crazy . . . to the point that I even thought of committing suicide? Do you know how worried I was about you? Do you know how many nights I spent just wondering where you were and what you were doing? Tell me . . . during the passed two months . . . did you even think of me even for once . . .even for a second?"

"Jaejoong . . . you were always in my heart and in my mind . . . even though I was far away from you. You were the only thing that kept me alive all this time," Lena said with tears running down her face.

Jaejoong suddenly faced Lena, with hurt and anger in his eyes. "Really? I was in your heart and in your mind for the passed two months? You're making me laugh. If what you said is true then you would have at least tried to contact me . . . even once. So don't try to say such sweet things to me. I won't believe your lies anymore . . ."

"Lies?"Lena uttered. She looked at Jaejoong. "I have never lied to you . . . you know that," she felt hurt that Jaejoong no longer believe her.

"I'm with Keiko now. So no matter what you say or do, I will never return to you. I gave you my trust and my love . . . but you just threw it all away. So don't expect me to welcome you back with open arms. You're no longer a part of my life Lena. I'm sorry but I don't love you anymore," Jaejoong said harshly.

Lena felt her whole body had suddenly turned cold. She bit her lower lip very hard to try to stop
herself from crying out loud. She bit so hard that blood slowly oozed from the wound on her lip.

Jaejoong's expression softened after he saw the blood oozing from Lena's lip. He then looked away in another direction. Somehow regretting what he have said. He knew he was too cruel with her. But she just couldn't stop himself from releasing all the pain and anger that had stayed locked up in his heart.

"I'm sorry. I know you're angry with me, because I left you. But I . . . I only did it to save you. God knows . . . how much I love you. But during that time . . . it was the only way to save you and everyone you love. I'm sorry if I made you suffer . . . But please believe me . . .I also suffered as well," she tried to explain.

Jaejoong shook his head, as if trying to make himself wake up from a dream.

"Lena, it's too late . . .I'm sorry . . . But I've already learned to move on and . . . and I've already
gotten very intimate with Keiko. I don't think I can ever leave her . . .I have to be responsible for her," Jaejoong uttered with a very heavy heart.

Lena felt she was going to die right at that instant.

"But you have to responsible for me too . . . me and our baby," the words kept on echoing in her
mind. But she was already feeling very weak and hopeless to even try to voice out what was on her mind.

Lena felt totally lost. She never expected to hear such words from Jaejoong. She felt like her whole world had stopped and was now slowly crashing down on her.

She tried to control herself, but her tears just kept on flowing. She tried to stop herself from crying out loud. But she felt her heart was already too heavy. She needed to release the extreme emotion she was feeling or else she felt like she was going to collapse.

She tried to control her sobbing at first. But after a few minutes, her cry finally became uncontrolled. Her tears and her sobs were finally released.

Jaejoong glanced at Lena. His heart was totally being torn into pieces as he continued to watch the first woman he had ever loved cry because of him. He then looked away and closed his eyes. He wanted to pretend that he wasn't seeing Lena. He wanted to make believe that he wasn't feeling anything.

Lena looked at Jaejoong again. She felt like her heart was going to explode. He wasn't even looking at her. She slowly moved her wheelchair to where he was standing. She wanted to be close to him. She wanted to explain . . . . She wanted to make everything all right. She couldn't stand the pain anymore. She didn't want to lose him. She needed him to be beside her. She knew she couldn't live without him. If she needed to beg, she will do it . . . She was willing to do anything, just to have him back.

"Jaejoong . . ." Lena uttered as soon as she was close to him. Then she touched his hand.

But Jaejoong immediately brushed her hand away, and moved away from her. Then he looked at her with shock and disgust in his eyes.

Lena stared at Jaejoong's eyes, then she looked at her hand that had touched his hand. Her hand was still reaching out to him. She suddenly pitied herself. She closed her eyes, as she slowly lowered her hand. And as her eyes were closed, tears ran down her face. How she wished she could die where she was right at that moment.

As she slowly opened her eyes, more tears immediately rushed down her beautiful face.

"I still love you Jaejoong," she weakly uttered. "Please forgive me! I am willing to do anything . . . just forgive me. I love you and I need you. Please come back to me. I don't think I can live without you. Please . . . please . . . love me again . . ." she begged.

Jaejoong felt like he couldn't breathe. No matter how hard he tried to deny his true feelings . . . the truth was he still cared for Lena.

As he stared at her in such a pitiful state, his own heart was bleeding out for her. How he wanted to hold her and comfort her. But he knew it wasn't possible anymore. He already had Keiko to think about.

But his heart was more powerful than his mind. Somehow his heart was controlling his entire body. He approached Lena, and then he knelt down in front of her. He then carefully wiped away the tears on her face. He then lovingly caressed her face.

Lena stared straight into Jaejoong's eyes. She then wrapped her arms around him. She wanted to feel him near her again. She wanted to feel his heart beat again.

Jaejoong's entire body felt warm, and as Lena embraced him . . . memories started rushing into his mind. He then started to return Lena's embrace. He also wanted to feel the warmth of Lena's body next to his. How he had longed for the time that he would be able to have her in his arms again. And now that she was with him again. . . it was as if he didn't want to let go anymore.

At that exact moment, Jaejoong's cold heart had already melted and the anger in his heart had
disappeared as well. Everything was like a dream.

As he continued to embrace her, he wasn't thinking anymore. He just allowed his heart to take over. His lips immediately searched for Lena's lips. And as soon as their lips met, all their longing for each other was released. All the hurt were easily replaced with passionate kisses.

Jaejoong and Lena felt like their entire world had started spinning, as they continued to passionately kiss each other. Somehow they didn't want to stop. Jaejoong tightened his hold on Lena. He was so afraid that she was going to stop and let go of him. How he wanted their kiss to go on forever.

"Jaejoong!" a voice suddenly called out.

Surprised, Jaejoong and Lena both looked at where the voice came from. And as fast as they were able to forget, they immediately fell back into reality as soon as they saw Keiko standing in front of them with tears in her eyes.

Bewildered and hurt, Keiko kept on looking back and forth between Jaejoong and Lena, as if asking what was going on.

"Keiko . . ." Jaejoong uttered. He immediately let go of Lena.

Keiko brushed her tears away, and hurriedly rushed out of the room.

Jaejoong's heart was pounding very hard. He was so confused on what to do. He was about to stand up, but Lena immediately grabbed his hand. She then tightened her hold on him. She didn't want to let him go.

"Please stay . . . I love you . . . I promise I'll make up for everything I've done. Please just stay with me. I need you . . ." Lena begged as she tried to hold on to him.

Jaejoong slowly shook his head. "I'm sorry . . . But I've got to go," he uttered as he released himself from Lena's hold.

Lena violently shook her head. "No! No! No! Please don't go. I love you Jaejoong . . . I need you . . . Please just let her go. I love you. . . I can't live without you," Lena uttered as if she was going crazy.

Jaejoong stared at Lena, then at the door. "I'm sorry, Lena. . . . but I love Keiko," he said as he
hurriedly stood up and ran out of the room. He knew he needed to find Keiko. He needed to explain everything.

"No . . . Jaejoong," Lena cried out as she tried to reach out for him. She was totally losing her sanity. She wanted to ran after him. She wanted to stop him.

Lena tried to stand up. But her legs were still numb. She then started to hit her legs with her hands. She wanted to hurt herself. She wanted to make her legs feel again. She then tried to push herself up and out of the wheelchair. But her legs and her whole body immediately lost balance, and she instantly fell down on the floor.

As soon as Lena hit the floor, she again cried uncontrollably. She didn't try to stand up anymore. She just continued to lay down motionless, and wishing that she would just die.

"Lena . . ." Micky cried out after he saw her lying on the floor. "Lena, what's wrong? Are you hurt?" he worriedly asked as he gently carried her in his arms.

Lena continued to cry. She then wrapped her arms around Micky. "Please . . . I don't want to stay here anymore. I don't think I can bear to see Jaejoong again. Please help me . . . I want to go," Lena begged.

Micky's face was full of anger. "What did Jaejoong do to you? What did he say?"

Lena shook her head. "Whatever he did and said isn't important anymore . . . Keiko already knows about me and Jaejoong. I'm afraid I've done something wrong again. It's obvious that Jaejoong truly cares for her. I saw the love and concern in his eyes before he left and ran after her. I don't want to destroy his relationship with Keiko. That's why I want to leave."

Micky's facial expression hardened. "You're staying here and I'm taking care of you, that's final. I don't have the slightest concern whatever happens to Jaejoong and Keiko. The only person I am concerned about is you. So don't you even think of running away again just for Jaejoong's sake."

"Micky . . ." Lena uttered.

"Have you told him about your condition and about the baby?" Micky asked.

"No . . . I don't think it was necessary. I wanted him to return to me because he still loved me . . . not because of pity . . . and especially not because of the baby," she answered.

"Stupid Jaejoong . . . So he's left you . . . just to run after Keiko. Well that's it! I've already had
enough. He's just made the biggest mistake of his life. From now on, I'm never going to allow you to go back to him ever again. Even if he died begging, I will never give you back to him," Micky said coldly.

Xiah, Max and U-Know all sighed. This was what they were all afraid of. things were beginning to be more complicated. And everyone was obviously hurting. How they wished that all the problems would stop coming. They didn't want Jaejoong, Micky, Daichi, Keiko and Lena to get hurt anymore.

Lena felt very weak. She rested her head on Micky's chest and just silently cried again.

Micky just tightened his hold on Lena. He had decided that he wasn't going to let Jaejoong hurt her anymore. He was going to protect her in anyway that he can.

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50 Re: [FIC] [PG-13] I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND on 24th June 2009, 9:05 pm

CHAPTER 48


Jaejoong hurriedly ran out of the apartment building. His mind was sort of spinning while his heart was beating very fast.

"Keiko . . ." he uttered.

He quickly ran to where Keiko usually parks her car. And there . . . he found her crying. He gently opened the door of the car.

Keiko was crying uncontrollably while her head was bent down on the wheel of the car.

"Keiko . . ." he uttered as he gently caressed her head.

Keiko slowly lifted her head and stared straight at Jaejoong. "Jaejoong . . . Oh . . . Jaejoong . . ." she uttered as she quickly embraced him.

Jaejoong's heart pounded very hard as soon as he felt Keiko's warm body next to his. He couldn't quite explain it . . . but he knew there was a big difference between his body's reaction towards Keiko and towards Lena.

"Lena . . . Oh god! What have I done?" he suddenly remembered her. Instantly his heart started to ache after realizing that he had hurt Lena when he left her to look for Keiko. He was totally confused.

"Jaejoong . . . I . . . I thought you wouldn't look for me . . . I thought . . . I thought you didn't love me anymore," Keiko tried to utter in between sobs.

"I'm sorry . . . I'm sorry if I hurt you," Jaejoong slowly uttered.

Keiko looked straight into Jaejoong's eyes. "Please tell me the truth . . . Who is she? Why did you kiss her? Is she . . . someone from your past? Please tell me," she begged.

Jaejoong felt like there was something stuck in his throat. He was finding it very hard to answer Keiko's question.

"Lena . . . Lena was my first love. She was the very first woman I ever fell in love with. And she was also the reason why I was hurting . . . during the time that you met me," Jaejoong confessed.

"So . . . she's the girl . . . you were trying to forget?" Keiko asked as if unable to believe.

Jaejoong slowly nodded his head.

Keiko's eyes suddenly softened. She then cupped Jaejoong's face with her hands.

"Now . . .I understand . . . why you were so shocked when we first met her . . . I no longer want to know why you kissed her . . . because . . . I know what you will answer might hurt me more. And I'm willing to forget everything I saw and heard . . . in exchange . . .just promise me that you won't leave me. I love you, Jaejoong. You know that don't you? I don't think I can live without you. So please . . . don't leave me. I need you . . . our baby needs you," Keiko said with tears in her eyes.

Jaejoong stared at Keiko. What he had heard had suddenly exploded like a bomb. He hated himself for hurting her. But he still couldn't deny the fact that a big part of his heart was calling out for Lena. "You're pregnant?" he asked with a trembling voice.

Keiko just nodded. Then she saw the confusion in Jaejoong's eyes. She knew that he was still in love with Lena. But she was just trying to pretend that it wasn't real. She was constantly making herself believe that she was the only one in his heart. She gently wrapped her arms around Jaejoong. She wanted to make him forget. She wanted him to want her and forget about Lena.

Keiko slowly searched for Jaejoong's lips. She was willing to do anything just to make sure that he wouldn't leave her. She then tightened her embrace. She wanted to make him feel how much she loved him. She didn't care about anything else anymore. The only thing on her mind was that she loved him, and it was the only thing that matters.

Keiko's gentle kiss quickly changed into a deep and passionate one. Jaejoong was immediately drawn into Keiko's kisses and caresses that he momentarily forget about Lena and everything that had happened.

Back in the DBSK boys' apartment . . . .

Micky carefully placed Lena on her bed. She had been crying non-stop ever since Jaejoong left her to look for Keiko.

"You should rest now . . . And please stop crying. . . Crying will be bad for you and your baby," he softly said while caressing her hair.

"Can you . . . can you please stay beside me until I fall asleep?" Lena asked weakly.

Micky smiled. "Yes, I will certainly stay with you . . . even for a lifetime. So don't worry. Just close your eyes and try to forget everything."

Lena followed what Micky had said. But as soon as her eyes were closed . . . Jaejoong's image quickly appeared in her mind. One by one . . . images started to rush in . . . Jaejoong embracing her . . . Jaejoong kissing Keiko . . . Jaejoong kissing her . . . Keiko with tears in her eyes . . . Jaejoong running out of the room . . . Everything was just too maddening for her.

Lena's weak and tired body finally gave up and within minutes she was fast asleep.

Micky silently gazed at Lena's beautiful face. He still couldn't believe that someone would actually hurt such a beautiful angel. Somehow he couldn't stop himself from being angry with Jaejoong. He had already given him all the chances to have Lena back. But Jaejoong just threw it all away.

Micky gently caressed Lena's cheek, then his fingers travelled to her lips. "Such sweet lips," he uttered.

He stared deeply at her lips. He felt so drawn that he somehow couldn't stop himself. He slowly lowered his head, then he lovingly planted a long and sweet kiss on Lena's lips.

Micky was still kissing Lena . . . when the door opened. Xiah, Max. U-Know and Jaejoong slowly entered the room and were all stunned with what they saw.

Jaejoong's world suddenly became black. Then he instantly felt like his heart was being crushed and torn into millions of pieces. He had never imagined he would actually see Micky kissing the only girl he had loved with all his heart. The pain was just too much. Now he knew what Lena must have felt when she saw him kissing Keiko. He abruptly leaned on a wall. He felt like he was going to collapse. Somehow the scene he was seeing was making him enraged.

"Micky . . . " U-Know spoke softly but with a distinct warning tone.

Micky suddenly looked at the other DBSK boys. He was quite surprisedm, but was instantly delighted when he saw the pain in Jaejoong's eyes. He wanted to hurt him so much. He wanted to make him feel even a fraction of the pain that Lena was feeling.

"Micky . . . what are you doing?" Xiah asked with disgust in his eyes.

Micky grinned. "Can't you see? I was kissing the woman I love," he answered directly.

Max looked carefully at Lena. "But hyung . . . Lena is sleeping. . . You're taking advantage of her," he said angrily.

"I'm taking advantage?" Micky asked, then he lightly laughed. "Okay . . . let's say . . . I really am taking advantage of her . . . So what? . . . At least , even if I took advantage of her, I'm willing to be responsible for all my actions . . . And I'm certainly willing to be responsible for her unlike someone I know," he said tauntingly while staring at Jaejoong.

"Micky . . . let's all go outside. All of us need to talk . . . right now. This situation is already getting way out of hand," U-Know said with a serious voice.

U-Know and the other DBSK boys quickly left Lena's room.

And as soon as they all entered the living room . . .

"Micky . . . what the hell are you trying to do?" U-Know shouted angrily. "Have you really gotten so low . . . as to take advantage of a girl while she's sleeping?"

"U-Know . . . try to calm down yourself. And please lower your voice, you might wake up Lena," Xiah tried to remind him.

U-Know sighed. "What is happening to us? What is happening to the two of you?" he asked Micky and Jaejoong. "We all have been together for years now . . . We're like brothers . . . So how come the two of you are hurting each other?"

"The problem isn't with me . . . You should try to ask Jaejoong. He's the one with all the problems," Micky said sarcastically.

Jaejoong tried to control himself. He was already very furious with Micky.

"What do you mean by that?" he asked angrily.

Micky looked straight at Jaejoong. "I mean . . . you're the one making all the trouble. By the way . . . how is your precious Keiko? Have you comforted her? Are you satisfied that while you were consoling Keiko Lena was almost dying of crying," he said furiously.

Jaejoong's heart somehow stopped because of what Micky had said. He was suddenly hit by the truth.

"I . . . I'm sorry . . . I didn't mean to hurt her," Jaejoong tried to utter.

"You didn't mean to hurt her? Are you kidding me? You practically threw everything right at her face when you left her just to look for Keiko. So you know how hurt she was? Can you even imagine what kind of pain she was feeling? I can still see it in your eyes that you still care for her . . . So why the hell are you still hurting her? She had already gone through so much . . . Why can't you just give her a break? Please stop causing her more pain. You don't know the difficult situation she is in right now. Have pity on the girl . . . She's . . . ." Micky quickly controlled himself. He didn't want to divulge Lena's secrets.

Jaejoong closed his eyes. Everything that Micky had said had stirred different emotions in him . . . emotions that he didn't want to feel. "I'm so confused," he uttered as he slowly opened his eyes.

"Confused? get your head straight Jaejoong! You're a man . . . act like a man," Micky said seriously.

"Yes . . . I admit I still have feelings for Lena. But I don't want to hurt Keiko. She's been so good to me . . . and I've . . . . I've already slept with her . . . and now she's carrying my child. So I can't just leave her. I have to be responsible for her," Jaejoong tried to explain.

"Responsible? Lena is the one you should be responsible for. She's also carrying your child," Micky said in his mind while staring at Jaejoong.

"You already slept with her? And she's pregnant as well? Way to go!" Micky said as an insult."You sure have a unique way of showing your love. So what if you already slept with Keiko . . . or she's pregnant? Are you even sure that the child is really
yours? You slept with Lena too . . . but look at her now. You're already moving on with your life . . . while she's still trying to hold on to your memories. Do you think that's fair?"

Xiah, Max and U-Know were all stunned with what Jaejoong had said. Keiko was pregnant as well.

Micky slowly approached Jaejoong. Then he stopped right in front of him . . . face to face . . . eye to eye . . . man to man . . .

"I know we've been friends for a very long time now. But please understand . . . I love Lena. I've never felt this way with anyone before. So I've decided to fight for her. I want her to be mine," Micky suddenly said with sincerity in his eyes.

Xiah, Max and U-Know were totally speechless. Their two friends were in love with the same girl. And Jaejoong had gotten two girls pregnant. They had never imagined that such a situation could happen to them.

Jaejoong didn't know what to say. Hearing Micky say that he loved Lena was making him insane with jealousy. "I still love Lena. . . . but I also love Keiko," he confessed.

"You're a fool! You can't possibly love two girls all at the same time. Decide Jaejoong! I'm going to give you one last chance. Choose . . . Lena or Keiko . . ." Micky said seriously.

Jaejoong felt like both his head and his heart was going to explode any minutes. He was totally confused. He still loved Lena and he wanted to have her back in his life. But he also cared about Keiko and she was pregnant with his child. He needed to set aside his own feelings and take care of Keiko for the sake of their child.

Jaejoong lowered his head. He had finally decided. Even if his heart was screaming out another name, his mind had only one name. "Keiko . . ." he weakly uttered.

Micky shook his head in disbelief. He was totally enraged with Jaejoong's decision. "So you're really choosing her over Lena?" he asked Jaejoong with anger in his eyes.

"Yes . . ." Jaejoong uttered softly.

"Congratulations! I think you just made the biggest mistake in your life. You're really a fool! How I wish I could see your reaction once everything blows up in your face. I know there will be a time that you will realize what you just threw away is really the most important and the only real thing in your life. Go and take care of your Keiko . . . I hope the two of you will be happy . . . in hell . . ." Micky said with such fury in his eyes that Xiah, Max and U-Know were all scared.

Jaejoong suddenly looked at Micky. He wanted to say something, but nothing was coming out of his mouth.

Micky grinned with a scary look in his eyes. "Oh! And before I forget . . . I want to give you something . . . you will always remember . . ." and with those words he violently punched Jaejoong straight in the face.

Micky's punch was very fast that Jaejoong wasn't able to avoid it. He was hit very hard on the face that his lower lip immediately bled. Jaejoong tried to wipe away the blood that was coming out of his wound. He knew he deserved what Micky had done.

"From now on . . . You're no longer my friend. I don't want to know you or your Keiko. And starting today . . . don't you dare go near Lena again . . .Our friendship ends here, Jaejoong . . . With your decision, you didn't just lose me . . . as your friend . . .or Lena as your lover . . . but you also lost a very special part of your life . . . a part which you will never know . . . a part which you can never replace . . . Your pain is just starting Jaejoong. Once you know the truth . . . I hope you will have the courage and the strength to face what you have done. When that time comes . . . even if you beg a million times . . . I will make sure that you will never have Lena back. I will do everything . . . I will make Lena my wife . . . I will make sure of that," Micky said as he finally walked out and went back to his room.

Jaejoong was left still unable to believe what just happened. How he wished he could turn back time, so that he could be free to love Lena again.

Slowly his tears started to fall. He still loved Lena. But he was no longer free to love her. He wanted to scream and let out the pain he was feeling. Micky was right. Letting Lena go would be the biggest mistake in his life . . . but there was nothing he could do. He needed to set her free . . . and he needed to bind himself to a love that he just realized wasn't real. . . . all for the sake of a child . . . his child.

Jaejoong's tears continuously fell. How he wished he would become numb. He felt so tired . . . tired of all the pain. "I'm sorry Lena. . . " he tried to utter.

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